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So I’m back down again!  I’m 174.0 (-1.4lbs).

I did 1 mile of WATP (Walk Away the Pounds) at around 11am, then started again and did the whoe 2 miles around midnight.  Crazy, right?

Since Yumna started school, I’ve been often falling asleep with the kids when I put them to bed around 8:30pm.  I was under this impression when the bed time moved to an earlier time that my nights would be filled with a lot of me time.  Time to do my art, catch up with my shows, time to relax.  Well.. turns out my nights are filled with SLEEP!  I fall asleep with the girls, and don’t wake up until 11pm or later.  Get up and get some things done around the house (lunches ready, clothes out for the next day) and then go back to bed.  It really sucks.  I would just do the lunches ahead of time but then I would be sleeping 11 hours a day and be living the life of a 4 year old. Having things to do, forces me back awake and usually I can have a few minutes to myself.

So last night I decided to do my exercise since I didn’t get the whole program done during the day.  Well, after exercising, I couldn’t sleep.  I was tossing and turning the whole night.  My mind was racing.  I’ve been really stressing about this H1N1 Swine Flu lately.  I wasn’t even worried before.  I had no plans to vaccinate my kids.. it seemed so far away from me that I wasn’t even concerned.  Then on Monday, I got a call from my friend, who told me that another one of our friend’s son had caught it and had been in the hospital for 5 DAYS!  I called my friend and she told me the nightmare of her life of the last week and how she thought her son was going to die.  It really freaked me out!  Thank God he is better now and at home.  This hit very close to home now.  My “not me” mentality went out the window.

And so then I have been considering getting the kids the H1N1 vaccine.  But, that too has me tossing and turning, being such a new vaccine and just the oodles of weird stuff I have read has got me stressing too.   I didn’t get the kids the Chicken Pox vaccine because it was too new and really whats the big deal if they do get chicken pox?  I never have had the seasonal flu vaccine, or given it to the kids.

The old tested and true ones, the ones you need to attend school, no problem, but even them, I get the kids done one vaccine at a time.  Some pediatricians will administer two at a time, but I prefer to spread them out.  And delay them.. so the 12 month one I will do a couple months later, etc.

Maybe you think I’m paranoid.. and perhaps I am.  I figure why not be cautious?  It doesn’t take anything away from the kids, and doesn’t cost me any extra.  But this vaccine is driving me crazy,  damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.. I feel like I’m swimming blindly into this battle.  And the kicker is that this year Yumna is in school, so yes, to some extent you can control your own environment, but at school, FORGET ABOUT IT!

We had a lot of media attention to the H1N1 lately too, because a healthy 11 year old died, two days after complaining about a sore throat and cough from the H1N1.  And do you know what the Chief Medical Officer said.. not that this was unusual and unheard of.  He instead turned it back on the parents, saying that infact the kid was not healthy, because he had asthma.  What?  And the parents are saying that the kid did not have asthma, but had used puffers one winter many years ago when he had a cold.  That really freaked me out!  Yumna uses puffers ever winter when she has a cold.  She has already used them this year when she wasn’t feeling well in September. So, is she at risk?

Anyway, this is all the stuff I’m wrestling with at the moment.  So exercising before going to bed, with all of these thoughts in my head did not lend well to a restful night.  Yumna was coughing and sneezing this morning, so I decided to keep her home.  Let her rest for a day and relax.  Get better.. it’s not like there are many kids at school anyway.  Yesterday 7 out of 20 kids were away from her class and 6 out of 15 in the other class.  Everyone is stressed out.

Sorry, I didn’t intend for this to be a flu rant.  But.. this is where my head is at today.

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