So I went back to work, and Safiya went to daycare.. and it was a huge huge huge disaster. I was having regrets about going back, and Safiya was not handling being away from me at all. I knew she was crying a lot at daycare, but I thought it was going to get better. But, when I found her on Thursday to pick her up, she was still in her coat, wearing her hat, with her little bag and her voice was gone from crying so badly. My heart broke and I decided that this just wasn’t right.
On Friday, I asked my husband to stay home, I went to work and quit. I asked for a leave of absence and I will see if I get it, if not I will take all my accumulated holidays, and then quit for good. There are other choices, but I think this is the best choice for us right now.
For the short week that I worked, I found it impossible to eat well, and exercise, forget about it.. So, I’ve decided that since I’m back home again, I really need to make this a priority.
On the other hand, I have to say that I have been pretty happy about at least being able to maintain my weight. Today I weighed in at 174.8 lbs. I’ve been fluctuating between 176 and 173 for the last couple of months.
