Tired
Sorry I haven’t been around much lately.. I’ve been really busy with my cousin visiting and been hanging out with her and the family. It’s been really fun, but I am tired.
I am so tired. I weighed in today at 176.8 lbs. It’s great to be back in the right direction but seriously.. I don’t feel good at all.. I have not been exercising properly.. just doing a lot of walking due to the touristy type things we’ve done the last week.. and eating…. well.. I am not eating good things, but I am limiting my portions quite considerably. Like yesterday we went to an amazing Pakistani restaurant for lunch.. I ate a little bit of spinach, like maybe 1 oz. of chicken, half of a beef rib, and some rice and naan.. very little though.. just enough to sample all the good food but not going crazy.
I was thinking about what Fat Pants had written about a week ago about eating like a normal person. I find I can’t eat the bad stuff in large quantities anymore, it makes me sick. Like really sick.. I can manage a bite or two and I am done. Is that normal eating. It doesn’t feel normal. My Mom thinks I’m starving myself.. I can tell my cousin thinks I’m taking this dieting too seriously, but I know I am not.
The only thing that worries me is the things I see Yumna doing… she likes to weigh herself regularly.. but she brags that she’s getting bigger, and oh my, when she gets an E (for error) she’s ecstatic. She thinks E is for excellent. That’s what I told her. She talks constantly about what foods are good for her.. I know some of this is because of the diet, and some of it is because of this problem she’s been having with her bum. That is still not resolved. We’ve gone to the doctor so many times now, and they are telling me she is constipated.. I’ve added prunes to her diet and try to get in more fibre, and drink more fluids. But still this continues.
My family looks at me like I am doing something psychologically wrong to Yumna if I don’t want her to eat cotton candy before eating something more decent. Or yesterday, she had just eaten ice cream after lunch and my sister and cousin were getting ice cream again for some unknown reason and I was saying that Yumna probably shouldn’t have ice cream again (40 mins later). And they just looked at me like I was so cruel. I had to give in and give her the ice cream.
So for those of you with small kids, how do you deal with the influence your diet has on your children? And yes, I am aware that this post is hardly coherent, but I am tired. I’m not going back to fix it. 
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People always seem to think that wanting your child to eat healthy is not normal- and that just because you don’t want to eat on every freaking occassion out there then there MUST be something wrong with you! I find now I don’t like celebrating with food or “fixing my problems” with food.
I guess if yumna wanted the ice cream it’s okay- since your cousin isn’t around all the time it’s not going to keep happening
It’s hard being middle eastern too cuz if you don’t take seconds of everything you are starving yourself lol!
I wish I had an answer for you, but I’m still figuring this out myself. The other night, we had pizza and while I didn’t go overboard like I used to, I still had to deal with a lot of inner guilt over eating one slice. one slice! I don’t know if that’s normal. But I agree with you - these foods are starting to not taste good anymore.
I think when we are presented with less than ideal choices, the best thing we can do is watch our portions, so it sounds like you’re doing a great job. As for what Yumna eats… you’re her mom. You get to dictate what goes into her mouth, especially at this young age. I know part of my journey is figuring out how I can eat like a “normal person” so my children don’t see mom stuffing her face and then starving herself or exercising incessantly to make up for it. Sooo much of this is learning to listen to our stomachs and retraining ourselves to say “enough” when it REALLY is enough! I think you’re doing a great job!
Hi there!
I struggle with my eating and my children. I have three kids, two boys who are perfectly healthy weights and attitudes towards foods, and one princess daughter who LOVES food and is overweight at the age of 6. Her pediatrician doesn’t get it when I try to explain to her that I see already, my daughter has an emotional attachment to food! However, we generally eat healthy in our home and she is aware of healthy foods and unhealthy foods. I try to just keep everything in moderation … I don’t want to restrict foods. I feel like if I never let my children eat a cookie or have ice cream or potato chips, then they will grow up wanting it even more and have some sort of disordered eating habit. I don’t see the harm in them having ice cream for dessert - every day if they want it - because I only buy lowfat, and I measure it out into half cup servings.
I don’t know if what I am doing is right … I am thoroughly confused as well when it comes to my lifestyle and the kids. Regardless of my weight loss, it seems my daughter has these problems anyway, sigh.