A Fast Week
So here we are at the end of another week. Another month. It’s July. Already. I can’t believe how fast time has flown this year. We are already done half the year.
I started my new lifestyle on February 11th, 2009. It’s been 4.5 months and I’ve lost 35 lbs. I’m pretty proud of myself of for all the things that have happened with respect to weight loss this year. Of course my goals are larger than that, so I have to keep going. I am also happy with how things are going with the kids. They are like little sponges. Yumna is writing letters now, and Safi is like a little parrot. Yumna is off to school in September and I’m trying to decide what I want to do with my life. I’m not all together excited about going back to my old job. Not that they have even been kind enough to tell me where I’d be working should I return. So I’m looking for something else. But what? My husband would be okay if I didn’t even go back and stayed home full time with Safi, but I need something else in my life right now. I love hanging with the kids and doing stuff with them, but just even something once a week where I get to interact with adults and well accomplish something would be nice.
I was talking to my friend about this, and she was so excited. That this is my opportunity to do something with my life that I really want to do. Yeah, but what? I’ve never been a very driven person. My goals were always to get married and have kids. Done. I never had any lofty career goals. I wanted to teach at one point, and I did that too. But, I can’t really imagine doing that again. So now I have to figure out what exactly I want to do and make that happen. The good part is that I know I can do it. Even with the weight loss, I knew right from the beginning that if I put my mind to anything I want to do, I will do it.
I know I sound like a flake, not having any specific goals. But really I think I’ve spent so much of my life just doing what I HAD to do that I really never made a plan for what I wanted to do. There have always been constraints and limits. And now, with none, I am at a loss to what I should do. I feel like a grade 9 kid trying to decide what to do with her life.
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how exciting though! The world is at your feet! You aren’t being forced into or back into any particular job. If you want, now is the time you are blessed enough that you can actually search your soul, discover what its missing, and MAKE.IT.HAPPEN. Find some online apptitude tests, dig deep inside, and figure out what would give you joy, and then pursue it!! I envy you!!! I wish, at your juncture, I would’ve had the guts to take up a career path that would’ve been more rewarding…but I didn’t because I wasn’t sure I could make money at it. So what? DO what sings to your soul!
Congrats on your wonderful weight loss! Keep up the great work. So you may not know what you want to do, at least you know it’s not staying home and gaining weight or hiding from the public right? I’m the same way.
Tonight, someone asked what’s your passion …here’s my reply:
That’s a great question…and I don’t think I’ve found mine yet. I’ve let work, marriage, children, and weight gain sidetrack me. But I intend to get healthy and fit and find out because I have a feeling it has something to do with being active. I’ve already rode a dirt bike and thought that was something I could never or would never do. I want to surf, and scuba dive. I love the water, love nature… I might like hiking and rock climbing? Like I said, I don’t know but intend to find out!
Thanks guys. Both of you have given me something to think about. Sunny, I will definitely check out some online aptitude tests. And Meg.. I never even thought that my passion could lie in doing something active, but now that you say that it is something I will explore.
Thanks again.