25 years young

The morning started badly. Before I went to bed last night I could feel that I was starting to get sick. My head aching, nose and eyes dry. Took tablets before bed and slept trying to think positive thoughts about feeling better in the morning and going to gym. When I woke up, I felt like shit.  I took more tablets and went back to bed. Woke up feeling much better and went to gym.

When I got back from gym, I went on the scale. Earlier in the week our room mate told us that his scale wasn’t working correctly. Something about the floor tiles not being level and the scale itself not being level. But I thought, what the heck, I have been using it since the start. To my shock, after several attempts on the scale, I found out that I weighed 80.8kg. No change. I went up a bit.

Now, I could blame the scale and run off and buy another one. But, I racked my brain trying to figure what I could right for the next week. Then I went to the kitchen and made a noodle soup. Then threw it away because I was obsessing about the calories. This was silly of me. But, I was in a mood. In any case, I think we have to buy a new scale and I am going to look through my food logs and try figure out how I can approach the new week ahead of me.

Woke up early. Watched some old SATC episodes before gym just to feel happy and girly. Then decided to have breakfast before I went to gym because it is important. It wasn’t a heavy breakfast.

My fiance and I went to the city today. I loved it. He took me to the library to get some books so that I can start reading Norwegian. I think it is best to start with children’s books. So I got help from the librarian who was actually German and learnt her Norwegian from books that she recommended to me. She was very sweet. And I cannot wait to get started on my books. The day was very romantic, we sat in the park and had our lunch while listening to a band play. The weather was lovely too. Then some friends decided to meet us in the city and wanted to watch a movie. Sadly, very very sadly for me they picked Indiana Jones. I was very positive before going to the movie but while sitting there I wanted to kill myself. I thought about how much I longed to have my girlfriends and wanted to cry knowing that the SATC movie was playing in the next theatre.

So tomorrow is my weigh in. I know I need to be positive and realize that I have worked very hard. But, I think about the popcorn I ate today and I really just want to freak out.  I ordered a large popcorn and was amazed how great it tasted. Half way through the box, I knew it was all the butter that made it taste so yummy. But what the heck, my rule was that I could have Saturday off. It was a very cruel rule too, I only made it so because I knew that I was going to have a weigh in on Sundays.

B - 1 slice ww bread with lf raspberry jam and banana slices on top. 1 bowl of strawberry yoghurt with fresh strawberries and remainder of banana.

B (after gym)- 2 slices ww bread with lf chicken cream cheese and slices of turkey with sundried. 1 cup tea.

S - apple

L - noodles and beef chop suey. 1 portion of raspberry rice porridge.

S - popcorn at the movies. full fat butter and salt

D - 1 slice ww chicken cream cheese turkey and sundried. 2 cups tea. 1 tsp fruit and nuts mix

Got up very early this morning and went for the cycle class. It was tough. I think my body was a little tired from last night’s class. But, I am proud that I pushed up the resistance and actually kept at it without turning it down. It feels good to push harder each class.

This morning, I have been reading fellow bloggers pages. Reading some of the pages, I am starting to feel as if maybe I eating incorrectly ? There are many pages with so many strict limitations. I mean I know that I have limitations on my eating plan too like, low fat and no sugar. In one way, I think I am eating fine though. I mean, I plan on eating healthy foods like this for the rest of my life, so if I can’t keep up this eating plan then it just isn’t worth it. One thing that is great though is that I am learning how to control my eating and asking myself whether or not I am really hungry. Which is super and makes me proud.

Went to the evening cycle class 55min. Felt a bad pain in my tummy during the class. Not sure what happened. Should feel better by the morning. Have a 10.30am class and then off to the library to get some Norwegian kiddies books so I can get the language studies under control.

Good night ! xoxo

B - Oats. 3 glasses water

S - Apple

L - 2 whole wheats breads with chicken liver pate and turkey slices. 1 glass lf milk and a portion of berry yoghurt. 1 glass water

S - 2 halves dried apricot. 3 glasses water

D - 1 slice ww bread cream chicken cheese 3% fat, with slice turkey and sundried. cup of tea with milk. portion yoghurt with 2 strawberries, kiwi and 2 gooseberries.

Ok, so last night wasn’t what I could call a healthy dinner. It was a friend’s birthday and even though the food choices weren’t entirely healthy, I didn’t want to sit there and eat a bowl of salad. Because I know that, one of the reasons for starting this was to make sure I know how to control myself. And, I did just that. Instead of eating the full portion of lasagna and tiramisu, I only had half of each. And the glass of red wine, wasn’t sipped till it was empty. I felt like, I couldn’t manage to drink the rest of it. This was a HUGE change for me.

Nevertheless, I worked my ass of at gym this morning. Did a 45 min cycle class, burned 200 cals on the treadmill and did weights. I can feel my body wanting to be pushed to the limits now and I absolutely LOVE this feeling! I will be going to a cycling class later this evening.

6.24 Showered and back from cycle class. It was a 45min and I have another two scheduled for tomorrow. Yes, it does sound mad but I love going to the classes. I did however, have a not so nice feeling when I returned from the gym. I felt as if I was fat. Maybe it was my subconscious thinking about the food I ate last night. I told my fiance how I felt and he thought I was going crazy and told me how proud he was of me for all the exercise that I was doing. Really felt good hearing him say that. I love him!

B - 3 glasses water. apple

L - 2 whole wheat crisp breads with chicken cream cheese and taco beans. Bowl of fruit (kiwi, banana, strawberries) and plain yoghurt mixed with berry yoghurt.

S - 3 small cups of coffee

D - 2 small pieces of whole cream cheese and taco beans. 1 cup of yoghurt with kiwi and strawberry. 4 glasses water

Didn’t go to gym in the morning as planned. But, I will be going to the 5pm cycle class. It’s a tough one and that is going to be just what I need. Think I might also work out a little on the treadmill.

Had a good day today, walked around in Oslo city. Was really nice. So many people though. I was shopping for a birthday present for a friend and for some new cycling pants for me. I had fun getting lost and learning how to find my way again. One good thing, I tried on the cycling pants in the change room and I loved the way I looked in them. Starting to love my body, this has to be a good sign.

B - 1 ww slice with 2 slices turkey and a sundried. 2 small ww crisp breads with left over taco beans. 1 portion yoghurt. 2 glasses water

L - half of a homemade burger pate. 2 kiwis, 1 big banana and yoghurt. 3 glasses water.

S - coffee

D - 1 glass red wine. 1\2 portion beef lasange and tiramisu.

Went to bed late. So was really tired when I woke up for gym and even had thoughts of not going. But, I remembered the contestants on The Biggest Loser last night. It was amazing watching their determination. So I went to gym and ended up smiling all the way back home. Burned 250 cals on the treadmill and the walking machine. Also did some weights.

Went to a 5pm cycle class. Also burned 50 cals on the treadmill.

Sooo tired now. Looking forward to the morning gym session. Burning calories