25 years young

The move was extremely tiring. I can seriously say that I did not need to put in extra time at the gym because I burned all the calories I needed! I also ate well, except for yesterday, I baked some mini bran muffins with raisins and I ate two more than i was supposed to. So I will have to work hard this week to get my body fit. My arms definitively got an awesome upper arm workout !

Happy to report that I will be at gym tomorrow for the 5pm spin class. I am so pissed cos I lost my gym card in the move, I am hoping it is at the guys apartment we were staying in. So I will check tomorrow. Really hope I find it. I hate misplacing things.

We have unpacked all the boxes and our place looks so sweet and cosy. Put the curtains up aswell and it is amazing the way they change the look of  a place. Our place is tiny but I couldnt care, it feels amazing to walk around the place in PJs and just have privacy! Love it! We have decided that the next place we will move into will not be another apartment. We both are serious about buying a house, outside of the city. Its just the next logical move. I really cant wait for that day. But instead of always looking forward to things - I am just happy being where we are right now.

xoxo

Getting ready this morning to go to gym. Need to work out on the machines and go for a 45min spin class. Wont have time this afternoon as we are driving to his moms to fetch our things in storage. Will be back tomorrow and even then, I wont be able to put in time at the gym, as I am sure the move is going to busy. Sure to be some sort of calorie burning involved. Not sure about the schedule but might be able to put in time on Saturday.

I can feel my body being really tired. I know that my eating is not optimal. I felt hungry last night but i had to stop myself because I could feel a binge coming on. I had to stay away from the kitchen and be strong. Coffee is in order this morning.

I think I have become a spinning whore. I love it. Almost addicted to it. I am considering training and entering for a cycle challenge…

xoxo

13.51 Ok. This is a really funny update. Yes, I did wake up full of energy and motivation. I planned on burning those cals. But this is how the real story went and I am almost ashamed to write it but I know that this blog would be pointless if it wasn’t honest and truthful.

So I went to the gym. I got on the treadmill. Started uphill walking with a pace but I couldnt manage to walk. It was like my whole body had given up. I mean I knew that my brain was tired, I was just hoping that my body could do its thing at the gym. So I burned about 50 cals. Then I decided to try another machine, and the same thing happened. I was like a zombie. No energy at all. I had to stop. I decided to go back to the apartment and nap for an hour till the spin class. I hated walking out the gym, the receptionist looked at me really strangely, or maybe that was just in my head. So I napped. Woke up and felt worse. I was all worked out for the exercise of this week. I couldnt make it. I had to start work aswell and I was so tired that I made a million mistakes.

So, there is the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I will have no exercise for the next 2 days but for when we move our things into the apartment. I will just have to eat well. That is the only thing that will help me achieve my weekends target.

I am still so tired. Haven’t eaten much. Going to have water and some tuna salad now, my fiance has commanded me to eat and get energy for the move. Great to have someone look over me.

Will write more after the move. Take care xoxo

I am so incredibly happy right now! My fiance and went apartment hunting yesterday and we found one that is just so gorgeous! I love it so much and it is affordable. Sooooooooooo happy! We move in on Friday so we are going to be busy busy over the next couple of days. I will put up some pics later of the place. It is very tiny but the places here in Oslo generally are. We took a 6 month rental and then after that with both our jobs we should be able to find a beautiful house to buy. This is going very well! Positive energy!

Have a spin class in 20 min so I have to rush.

19.35 Spin class this morning was excellent. Couldn’t believe all the sweat! Went to my second class this evening at 5pm. It was so tough, i could hardly keep up. But, just when I thought I would give up - I visualized my 25th birthday and how awesome i would look. It was some powerful stuff, which goes to show how extremely effective the power of the mind is.

Packing tonight, and I am dead tired now from the extremely long day. Signed the papers for the apartment. I am so looking forward to moving in!

Eating very well. Kept in the calorie limit. Mainly no carbs and raw fruit and veggies. I am soooooooo driven right now! YAY ME!

Spent the weekend with my fiance’s mom and we have only visited her in the past during special holidays, like christmas or easter. So memories at her place include eating allot of food that is sweet and comfy. I tried my hardest to be strong and make

sure I don’t over eat. However, things are a little stressful at the moment with our finances etc. so I did binge. I really admitting it.

Last night, I had a heart to heart with myself and thought that turning 25 will be terrible if I don’t start taking this journey of mine seriously. Also, I thought that I don’t want to think of having babies if I continue having a bad relationship with food. I choose not to. I actually looked at myself in a long mirror from the side. Looking at my stomach really brought thing

s to reality. I am not thin. Importantly, I am NOT healthy. Not in the least bit. I know that having excess weight on my belly is BAD for my health. I choose not to be like this.

Another thing that I choose not … is eating sweet things. I noticed that each time I did 20 minutes after i would feel hungry (obviously) and just overall I didnt feel any good.

I looked at the calender and realized there is only short amount of time till the 2 November. So I have 3 months to shed 20kgs. Yes it is going to be a Mt Everest job but I have been kidding myself this last month. I mean, I know that I am not lazy. I mean I can do 3 spinning classes every day because I love it. But then I stuff my face. So clearly, I have been doing the math wrong, I have been burning the cals but eating enough to maintain my weight. I need a new game plan if this is going to work.

I have to have two stages to this journey of mine - these next 3 months will be tough. Like boot camp tough for me. I have to think of the stage 1 as more of a eating journey that I will use only for the purpose of losing bulk weight and then stage 2 will be eating to maintain my weight.

Stage 1 :

- Burn 1000 calories every day. This can be a combo of spinning classes and exercise machines (treadmill, rowing machine etc)

- Eating 1200 calories or less. I will not die. I just need to drink plenty of water. Normally you are supposed to have something like 2000 calories as a woman but this will only work for my stage 2.

- No sugar.

- No fat - low fat

- Low salt

Stage 2:

- Exercise everyday 1 hour.

- Eat 1800 - 2000 calories each day

Looking at the above, I think to myself… why didn’t I start with this before ?? I mean it is so clear! But the problem with me is that when I am eating, I eat healthy. But what I don’t realize that you still have to remember portion control with healthy food. My fiance told me that I always say ‘I am going to eat this - I am not cutting foods because once i reach my target, I will binge on foods i was not supposed to eat’. During this last month, my plan clearly did NOT work. Because I am doing a stage 2 approach when I haven’t even accomplised my stage 1.

I have read many blogs on 3FC. Less of Josephine is my favourite! I am a huge fan because she has so much of oooomph! Looking at her progress, really makes me believe that I can do it too

20 July 2008 - 78 kg

27 July 2008 - 77 kg

3 August 2008 - 76 kg

10 August 2008 - 75 kg

17 August 2008 - 73 kg

24 August 2008 - 72 kg

31 August 2008 - 70 kg

7 September 2008 - 69 kg

14 September 2008 - 68 kg

21 September 2008 - 67 kg

28 September 2008 - 66 kg

5 October 2008 - 65 kg

12 October 2008 - 63 kg

19 October2008 - 62 kg

26 October 2008 - 61 kg

2 NOVEMBER 2008 - 60 kg

If I am lucky enough on my 25th - I would be ecstatic to have this collection of Veuve!

Notes :

- Goals are in kilograms ( 1 kg = 2.2 pounds)

- Weigh in Sunday noon after gym

I got some rest yesterday and took some meds but I still don’t feel good. In fact, I think my head is hurting even more than yesterday. Like somebody is pounding an acme every 5 seconds.

As far as my eating goes, not feeling that hungry. But had some bread with cheese because the headache pills are strong and I feel like hell if i dont eat food with them. I did book myself in to a spin class at 5pm but i think I will cancel. My body is totally drained and I just have to rest and recover. Hopefully I am all systems go tomorrow! xoxo

Had an amazing weekend in Sweden and met some really great people. This weekend was a party weekend and we did just that. It was SO much of fun!

Today, I still feel like there is traces of Bacardi inside me! Hopefully i feel better later. However, my throat has been hurting allot and I have a headache which doesn’t feel like a hangover headache but more like a fever headache. I really don’t have time to be getting sick as I have to get back on my workout and healthy eating schedule!

Some really awesome news … The friend that I visited in Stockholm, told me that I looked great and much smaller since she last saw me. She touched me around my tummy when she said that and also said my clothes look much better on me. I tried to accept the compliments but I am terrible at that. I guess, I always criticize myself on so many levels that it is hard to accept good stuff people say. It really made my weekend

Need to go down to the pharmacy and get some headache tablets. Really feel badly. Great to be back and blogging! xoxo

Feeling surprisingly happy today. Did a 55 min spin class this morning and another 55 min at 5pm. They were both very intense workouts and I feel fabulous. I just hope i can continue feeling this way through the weekend.

Tomorrow I need to go gift shopping for my friends birthday on Saturday. It is really tricky to get presents for her because we aren’t that similar. She is really cool to hang out with but I guess we both have different tastes and styles. I don’t have allot of money to spend which really doesn’t help things either. She is turning 25 and when I spoke to her over the phone, she told me that she was really freaked out about the whole experience. She said everything I am feeling about turning 25. She also said that all around her, her friends are getting married or having babies or have had babies and that it just feels like everyone else around her is just growing up. My goodness, if she phoned me tomorrow and told me that she was pregnant, I would totally freak out! She is a huge party and social girl and I love that life too but since my fiance and I started the business, we both have very little time for anything.

Back to the present … I think I might get her a special necklace and wrap it up nicely. I enjoy wrapping presents. For her mobile, I her a skin which is printed with art that she sketched when she was in high school. So, it will be something special.  I think she will be just happy to see us and have a good time together.

Going to go rest now, so tired from gym.

Did a 45 min spin class this afternoon. Not feeling too happy today, not sure why. Didn’t eat much either.

We leave for our trip on Friday morning and I am not sure I want to face my friends. I look at my body and I don’t like what I see so I dont know how other people will even like me. I feel so down right now. I am trying my hardest to just pull out of it. I read a couple of blogs before I went to the gym, which I wasnt even going to go to in the first place, there was one blog which said, ‘I am just going to do it’. So I thought to myself that I better just go and do the spin class and get it over with. I think 3FC is the best. Reading other people’s stories really helps and inspires. So for the next couple of days, I am just going to do it. Can’t wait to shake this sad feeling off and feel happy again, without the help of food to comfort me.

Yesterday was a lazy lazy Sunday. The last thing on my mind was going to gym. But considering that my food choices were terrible over the weekend, I knew that I couldn’t afford to skip another day of gym. With the help of my fiance, I got my gym kit on and walked the 2min to the gym. Very reluctantly, I might add. In the end, I burned 500 cals on the treadmill and eliptical.

This morning I woke up at 7am to go to gym. I did the same exercise as yesterday. For some reason, I have been feeling extremely demotivated. I don’t want to continue feeling this way because this isn’t the way I am going to win at this. I know that being in a happier state of mind, is what i need to do but I am just struggling with the motivation part. Then suddenly, fear grips me. I realize I have less than 4 months left to meet my goal weight. I will be turning 25 years old and when I imagine myself blowing out those pink candles on my beautifully white frosted cake, I don’t imagine myself looking the way I look right now. I imagine a well toned sexy red blooded woman blowing out that cake. When I get to the 2nd November, I will be the only person responsible for looking the way I look. I wouldn’t be able to blame my finances, relationships or work. I promised myself that I will not reach another birthday being big. I don’t think I could face it. Actually, I am not going to face that situation. It is not an option for me.

Wow.. talk about getting back my motivation! That sexy image of me at my birthday really sparked something inside of me. I am burning for this. I need to always keep that mental image in my head, the more I fixate on it the less negative thoughts will crowd my head. Bottom line, I do not have all the time in the world but with the time that I do have, my goal is clearly in sight!

Think I found a new hobby to keep my mind focused on motivation! .. Looking for the perfect dress for my 25th! Found one dress of Mischa that looks classic and I like that look. Wanted to get a red dress but I will keep looking. For now, this dress is gorgeous!