25 years young

I felt a terrible pain in my lower back this morning. I thought the pain would go away so I went to my 10am spin class and I thought I would carefully stretch and soothe my back. Before the class started I thought I should make a run for it and just protect my back. Then I decided that I should stay because I need to burn off more calories. I barely completed 15 min of the class and I gave up with all the mind games in my head because the pain in my back was not getting better.

I want to cry like a little girl with the pain I have. Called my fiance and he told me to relax and cancel all my classes for the day and take it easy. He said if I dont get my back better, I will damage it and then not go to gym for months. Hate that thought. Seriously, i do.

So, I went to the store and bought crap for lunch. Didn’t finish it. Ended up having bread with low fatcheese spread (200 cal), 130 cal snack bar, and 3 choc biscuits (150 cal). So it is official - I AM going mad. The calories I consumed can’t be burned off cos I can barely walk let alone run on the treadmill. Why am I screwing up my eating ? Only logical reason is that I am not burning for my target anymore or else I would not be stuffing sugary nonsense into my mouth.

I read on some other blogs that you should plan the night before what you are going to eat. I am going to plan and eat only what is on plan. That should keep me focused till weigh in this weekend. I have to eat super strict because I don’t see my back getting better this week. Possibly have to go a chiro if it doesn’t feel better by tomorrow.

Not a happy camper at all right now

I am into the 80’s now - 89 days left! Love the 80’s! The illustration is a cute little 80’s sketch i found on another blog. Love the girl on the far right with the short shorts. So want to be able to fit into those without my thighs looking huge! Looking forward to that!

Yesterday, I actually did 2 spinning classes back to back. I told myself at the first class, that I needed to pace myself. But, I don’t know what happens to me when I do spinning classes because it’s like the competitive beast inside me is awakened. It is a thrilling feeling! Before the second class started, I wondered whether I could stay and do the second class with the couple of other professional-looking cyclists who also stayed for the second. I told myself to just be strong and I did it!

Have to admit that I have actually done 2 classes back to back before on my previous weight loss journey about 2 years back. I was a spinning freak. This time, I am doing classes and I am also including allot of treadmill work mostly because I don’t want my thighs to bulk up.

So the smoked trout thing for lunch yesterday was great and kept me full. I am having it again today but I got a 3% lf cream cheese (17g protein) and a small pear on the side. I love love love love smoked trout! Did something different for breakfast today, I had a bowl of oats with a tsp of raspberry jam. It was delicious! And has kept me full. I don’t know why but every time I crave something sweet I have raspberry jam. Fiance hates the bits/seeds but I love the taste. Will need to look out for the low sugar one in the store. I keep telling myself not to screw up my calories with it, so I will have to make sure I have less and less if i want to get to my target.

Focus. Focus. Focus.

I decided to up my protein intake for the week. And in a huge way. So I did some googling and found out good sources.

After gym this morning I was starved. I didn’t make any lunch and I forgot my wallet at home! Lucky me, found some coins in my backpack which was enough. Went to the store and read the nutrition labels. I chose smoked trout 100g (24g protein) and a tin of black beans, because out of all the beans there black beans had the highest protein (8.5g). I cut up the trout in small pieces and added the beans. Sprinkled a little seasoning and my yummy protein packed lunch was ready !

Will definitely do this again doing the week!

I am interested to see how long I stay full. I have a spin class at 5pm and I am thinking to do a 2nd one aswell so I needed all the energy I could get.

I like the new design themes but the interface takes a little getting used to. Had to shorten the name of my blog as it didn’t fit with the design theme.

This morning I was running on the treadmill. Sweating and running. Then in the corner of my eye, I saw these well toned ladies walking to one of the workout rooms. I have wanted to try a class out for a while, but from previous experience I just feel silly and out of place. Especially when I check myself out in the mirror. Anyway, I asked the instructor about the class. She was sweet and told me it was a combination of step, weights and ab. She warned me it might be difficult but would help me out as much as she could. So i gave it go. Each time I got the step moves wrong - i told myself to just try again. It was very frustrating but I soon got the hang of it. Boy did I sweat in that class!

The instructor congratulated me in the end and told me that I had very good technique in the weight section.

I will certainly do another class - I have to get those step moves right! If loads of other people are doing it, why can’t I ?! I have some time after work, so I think I can put in a spin class before I go home. Have tons of energy for today!

Today was weigh in day for me. I knew I wasn’t going to hit my target because Friday and Saturday, I ate things I shouldn’t have. It was emotional eating mostly. Things with the family back home aren’t good, they aren’t thrilled that my fiance and I have moved to Norway permanently. I am totally happy here and I am looking forward to starting a family and living our lives here. It is our lives after all.

So back to the weigh in. My target for this week was 75 kg and I weighed in at 76 kg. Which is a loss of .6kg for the week. It is ok and I happy because I can see my body stabilizing and that is important to me. But, nonetheless I have to keep my eye on the target and try to meet my targets otherwise getting to goal is going to be difficult. My target for next week is 73 kg. That would mean I would have to lose 3kg and most nutritionists/dietitians say 1.5 - 2 kg is healthy. So, I know I am aiming high here but I need to make at least one of my targets. What makes things even more interesting is that next weekend we are away at his mom’s so I will have to work my butt off at gym to make up for a exercise free weekend. Actually, I could just go running there, if it isn’t raining.

My plan for the week ahead :

- Hand sized portions. Low fat/sugar/carb week.

- Drink water. Hydrate Hydrate Hydrate!

- Run more on the treadmill and aim for 3 min interval sprints.

- Ab exercises plus weights

I have gotten over this emotional eating thing. I guess everybody needs their own eurika moment and I had mine. I have lived the past 25 years eating badly and hiding behind it, even letting it control what I can and can’t do in life. No more. I am stronger than my emotions. If people upset me, I am going to give myself 2 minutes to whine and complain about it and that’s that. After that, I will think happy thoughts - like blowing out my decadent chocolate cake on my birthday and looking fabulous and in my couture-esque dress

And yes. I will eat my birthday cake with my many glasses of champagne. Everything in moderation.

Good night and here is to a great weekend ahead for us all! xoxo

Yesterday, I started thinking about my goals and realized that meeting each weekly target is going to be really hard. I knew that when I set those targets, I wanted them to be challenging, otherwise what’s the point ? But, when I weigh in this Sunday my target will be 75 kg and I think I might only get to around 75.5. Don’t get me wrong, I think it will be fabulous. But, then I look at the following weeks target and that is 73.  Right now, in my journey I guess fear is casting a shadow of doubt over me. The only way to get rid of this fear and doubt is to realize the facts. And, the facts are that I have been eating extremely well and exercising well too and the result of that is pure weight loss. So, if I carry on in this way I will get there - NO DOUBT about that.

Ok, so now that’s out of the way. I won’t be tracking what I eat everyday as it is pretty much the same each day. I am off to a 10am spin class and I am looking forward to it. The instructors are all back from summer holiday, which is great. Going to also make an effort to put in more time with my ab exercises - i can feel my muscles there and it’s such a great feeling!

Last night, we were invited to a friends place for dinner. It was great to catch up with them. I knew that lasagna was on the menu so I ate well during the day. Breakfast: kiwi, small banana and plain yoghurt and lunch: carrot, celery, cucumber and snap pea mix. Drank my water aswell. The dinner was ok, instead of eating a second serving, I dished more salad but then I did something stupid. I added a creamy salad dressing. That was silly of me, will be better next time though. Also, the guys were drinking beer and I was really tempted to have one but I didn’t. So I am very proud of myself for that

B - kiwi, grapefruit, half a banana and half glass of orange juice

L - carrots, celery, snap peas and cucumber mix

D - Probably going to be a light soup. The weather is perfect for it cos its raining outside and cold!

Even though I have added other veggies to my lunch mix, I have made sure that it all fits into my small lunch box which I take to the office. If it doesn’t fit, it means that I am eating too much. Eating things in proportion makes so much sense to me because it actually is working out for me.

Did do work on the treadmill yesterday plus weights. This afternoon, I will be going for a spin class. Also do some weights. I am not looking forward to the gym only because it is cold and raining outside! :(  Would much rather like to snuggle up and watch a comedy with Ben n Jerry’s … ok maybe not BnJ but something a little low cal.

I am really surprised that I don’t feel hungry. I mean I know I have been eating small portions so I keep waiting for this sudden burst of a hunger range or rather a binge. But it hasnt come and I am grateful. I have had one or two episodes where i think I want to eat more but then I dont. Mainly because I have found a formula that works to get me to my goal and I will not let anything stop me. It is a great feeling!

I like the start of a monday morning when the weekend is finished only because I know I have to get back to my on plan eating. Also, I am super motivated to keep on with my plan because it is working and I am on track to getting to my goal!

So my weigh in yesterday was 76.6 kg. First off, apologies that I am using kilograms for my weight but it is just easier for me to understand. I know most you use pounds so whenever I want to find out the equivalent in kilograms, I just divide by 2.2. Anyway, back to the weigh in. My target yesterday was meant to be 76kg so I missed it by .6kg which isn’t a far way off. The reason I am so happy is that for a long while I have been in the 80’s and it felt like I was going to be stuck there. So the fact that I am in the 70’s makes me soooo happy! I can actually see me attaining my goal weight by my birthday

B - 1/2 grapefruit, 1 kiwi, 3 tblsp plan yoghurt

L - 1 carrot, 1 celery

S - 2 nectarines, hanful of snap peas

D - light soup (haven’t had dinner yet)

Had a weekly team meet and everybody here wants to have cookies and coffee and all sorts of sweet things. So i went to the store and bought snap peas and nectarines. Yum!

I do drink plenty of water during the day, I can see that it has already made a difference to my skin. However, I did watch a program about water and apparently you don’t need to drink excessive amounts of water as you also get water from the foods you consume but of course, if you are dieting it is very helpful to keep hunger away.

YAY! This morning the scale read 76.6! Well ok it read 76.4 twice and then 76.7 twice so I chose a number I was comfortable with. But, seriously I am soooooo very happy! Feels great!

Did a 45 min spin class this morning. The class was tough since I haven’t been spinning allot in a while but i enjoyed it. Then I did about 15 min of weights and ball exercise.

Yesterday we bought loads of things including the aquarium which looks so cool. We got a couple of fish as well and will be building it as we go along. Looks really good in the apartment. Also bought a much needed, vacuum cleaner and then a waffle iron. We love making waffles. Last night we made a batch and I did a seperate batch for me which used whole wheat flour, flax seeds and oats with a banana. It was really yummy. Going to be making those vegetarian cake things out of the chick peas and lentils today. I will try put some pics up.

Have a lovely Sunday! :)  xoxo

Ok, so confession time … last night my fiance and I did a little bit of a celebration because he got an awesome job that pays so well and all in all it just the best news to happen to us in a long while. So anyway, it was his night and he wanted to have pizza and beer night with nuts. And that is what we did. Here is what I had :

1 1/2 beer

2 slices pizza

100 g cashew nuts (those things are dangerous!)

So obviously, I was feeling really down because I thought that i had messed up my good work in the work. When I got on the scale it read 76.7 which is great! So that inspired me to go to a spin class this morning even if it was raining. I felt really great afterwards. The scale then read 75.9 but i am not paying attention to that number. If i can maintain a 76ish number for tomorrow I will be ECSTATIC!

Going shopping around today and my fiance is finally getting his aquarium, which i promised he could buy when we got some money. So, not much time to blog but I will be eating well and in good propotions.

Have a great saturday! xoxo