I realized just why I love this forum - i never feel alone. I always feel like there is somebody out there who is going through similiar pains.

This week has been ok. Reason for just OK, is that my back started hurting in the begining of the work so i have only been to gym once this week. I was fighting with myself whether i should just go to the spin class tomorrow morning or just see where this week takes me. The second option, is not going to get me to body-happy state of mind. But, i just cant seem to find the inspiration i had a while back. I think, i feel thin already so i dont see the need to go to gym and sweat my butt off. But, the truth is that I have to keep fighting. Also, something i have noticed is that I feel a million times better when i actually do exercise. It keeps me positive. Having not exercised the last 3 days, i feel down and depressed and when i feel that way, portion control is out the window.

I have been wondering. Should i fix my issues with food before i go to the gym or should i work on both these issues ? Will i ever be cured with this unhealthy relationship i have with food ? Why cant I eat and when i am full - just stop. Or even before i am full. I want to feel the same way smaller (skinny) people feel, eat a small amount and smile and then not think about food for 95% of the rest of the day!

I realize i have to fix my relationship with food. So here are my mini goals for this week:

- Eat 3 small meals a day and only eat what is on your plate. No seconds!

- Drink water. Six cups will do plus two cups of tea

- When you find yourself thinking about food, grab a book and read a couple of pages. Or basically, just busy your mind with other things! Work, the news, home decoration …