I haven’t been blogging in a very long time. I guess that I got lost somewhere because I got so consumed with the little weight that I lost that I started to take things very easy. I ate what i wanted i.e started eating margarine, butter, sugars everything. And i totally forgot about portions.

So. My birthday party on the 2 November is still going to happen. And to my surprise people are going to showing up, who i didn’t think were going to. So I guess you could say that the pressure is on. But, I am not going to go and do a Beyonce Lemon Maple diet. Rather, I am going to stick to my guns and re read my last posts on what I did and more importantly ate when i lost weight. From what I read, I ate very small portions with little or not fat and sugars and exercised. The simplest logic known to mankind.

So anyways, I have become a youtube addict. There is girl on there called faintstarlite who i stumbled across. And, her weightloss journey is truly inspiring to me. I dont know how to describe it but everything she said struck something inside of me. When I listened to her journey of which she lost a whole lot of weight, it reminded of how I used to sound when I lost 30 kg about 2 years ago. When people asked me, how did you do it ? I answered with the truth. Calories in v Calories out and portions etc. I think people probably got annoyed with me but it is only annoying because it is the hardest thing to hear that you have to have so much of determination to accomplish weight loss.

So she is my motivation to get me through the next month a couple days. I will look great on my birthday. I will not meet my goal of 60 kg. I weight around 78 (havent weighed since last time i blogged, i think i am scared). What i have decided is that I am going to push really hard to get out of the 70’s. I can do this. I must do this. It is my own personal goal and the only person to blame here is me. And, I will not be responsible for being fat for the rest of my life.

Will keep you guys posted!
xoxo