I felt a terrible pain in my lower back this morning. I thought the pain would go away so I went to my 10am spin class and I thought I would carefully stretch and soothe my back. Before the class started I thought I should make a run for it and just protect my back. Then I decided that I should stay because I need to burn off more calories. I barely completed 15 min of the class and I gave up with all the mind games in my head because the pain in my back was not getting better.

I want to cry like a little girl with the pain I have. Called my fiance and he told me to relax and cancel all my classes for the day and take it easy. He said if I dont get my back better, I will damage it and then not go to gym for months. Hate that thought. Seriously, i do.

So, I went to the store and bought crap for lunch. Didn’t finish it. Ended up having bread with low fatcheese spread (200 cal), 130 cal snack bar, and 3 choc biscuits (150 cal). So it is official - I AM going mad. The calories I consumed can’t be burned off cos I can barely walk let alone run on the treadmill. Why am I screwing up my eating ? Only logical reason is that I am not burning for my target anymore or else I would not be stuffing sugary nonsense into my mouth.

I read on some other blogs that you should plan the night before what you are going to eat. I am going to plan and eat only what is on plan. That should keep me focused till weigh in this weekend. I have to eat super strict because I don’t see my back getting better this week. Possibly have to go a chiro if it doesn’t feel better by tomorrow.

Not a happy camper at all right now :(