Yesterday was a lazy lazy Sunday. The last thing on my mind was going to gym. But considering that my food choices were terrible over the weekend, I knew that I couldn’t afford to skip another day of gym. With the help of my fiance, I got my gym kit on and walked the 2min to the gym. Very reluctantly, I might add. In the end, I burned 500 cals on the treadmill and eliptical.

This morning I woke up at 7am to go to gym. I did the same exercise as yesterday. For some reason, I have been feeling extremely demotivated. I don’t want to continue feeling this way because this isn’t the way I am going to win at this. I know that being in a happier state of mind, is what i need to do but I am just struggling with the motivation part. Then suddenly, fear grips me. I realize I have less than 4 months left to meet my goal weight. I will be turning 25 years old and when I imagine myself blowing out those pink candles on my beautifully white frosted cake, I don’t imagine myself looking the way I look right now. I imagine a well toned sexy red blooded woman blowing out that cake. When I get to the 2nd November, I will be the only person responsible for looking the way I look. I wouldn’t be able to blame my finances, relationships or work. I promised myself that I will not reach another birthday being big. I don’t think I could face it. Actually, I am not going to face that situation. It is not an option for me.

Wow.. talk about getting back my motivation! That sexy image of me at my birthday really sparked something inside of me. I am burning for this. I need to always keep that mental image in my head, the more I fixate on it the less negative thoughts will crowd my head. Bottom line, I do not have all the time in the world but with the time that I do have, my goal is clearly in sight! :)

Think I found a new hobby to keep my mind focused on motivation! .. Looking for the perfect dress for my 25th! Found one dress of Mischa that looks classic and I like that look. Wanted to get a red dress but I will keep looking. For now, this dress is gorgeous!

Classic dress