25 years young

Lets get even more clearer about my goals :

- I want to weigh 65kg. And from there, i want to aim for 62kg. I am going to make this happen by the 28th March 2009 - the scale will read 65kg. This feeling is going to be amazing and i will remember it for the rest of my life. Each Sunday, I will get on the scale and blog about my positive results. I will drink no less than 8 glasses of water per day. My calories will range from 1100 - 1500 and I will be at the gym 6 days a week. I am going to love every second of me sweating on the treadmill and spinning bike. I am going to look forward to catching the buss or train to the gym before or after work. My rest day will be Sunday, gathering all my thoughts and appreciating the wonderful week that has passed.

- I am going to start my Business Economics class and read from my textbook everyday for at least one hour. I am going to get a Store Manager position before the end of 2009.

- I am going to speak fluent Norwegian by end of 2009.

- I am going to be happy by focusing on good emotions everyday

- I am going to master the art of balance. My life with food is going to be pleasurable and proportionate. I am going to make sure each area of my life is organized and tidy because through cleaniless, will i find balance.

- I am going to read all of this in 2010 and smile

Some inspiration :

I love her style and I love seeing this picture. It inspires me to push forward because i know i will see my goal become a reality. I just know it.

Hope you all had a good Christmas and a lovely New Year.

Surprisingly after all the food i ate over the holidays, i only gained a kilo. So that surprised me. I was expecting a shocking number to compete with.

However, things have been getting a little difficult over the last couple of days. I have gone back to eating badly and I hate myself for it. I dont want to continue on this path because i want to change things. My fiance and i have decided to eat healthy. We leave on the 27 March on a trip to Nice in France and we are mega excited. I want to look beautiful and have some pretty couples photos. I feel fat though and i am not sure to move past this.

The thing with my fiance is that he manages to eat normally and doesnt overeat. Plus he doesnt do any training. And, i know that if i dont control my eating - he will beat me in this little competition we have.

I weighed in last week Sunday at 72.3kg, today i weigh 70.2. I should be happy but I am struggling to find the motivation. Is that i dont have a clear goal ? Cos i want to get to the lower sixties but i havent decided how much. Will i be happy if i weigh 65kg ? Ok, well right now, live on my blog page i will make a decision that I want to lose 5kg and get to 65kg by the 27th March. In 9 weeks time.

How to do it :

- Drink water. Plenty.

- Eat 3 meals a day and cut back on fats and sugars.

- Eat smaller portions!

- Train at least twice a week.

GOAL - 65kg … i am loving the sound of clarity!

Ok, so here is me being madly happy! I weighed in at 69.4!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!! I am so happy but i am so exhausted. Having 3 part time jobs is taking its toll on me and i am just about dead. However, i thought i would log in and share the news with you ladies.

I am eating ok. Small portions but i am always on my feet so i dont have time to think about food, which i love.

Going to bed. Hope your christmas shopping is going well

xoxo

Busy. Got the 2nd job at the cool cosmetics counter so now i basically have 3 part time jobs which means i have zero time for anything!

But i did manage spinning this morning but i because it is the holiday season i will be working everyday and so wont have time for gym. But, i will not let things go to hell, i will eat small portions like i have been doing. I dont know why but i am no longer hungry. Like even if i am hungry for dinner i dont end up eating the entire fridge. That i am ecstatic about. I love the feeling of controlling my senses and not binging. Its amazing and i am proud.

Sneak weighed in and the scale kept popping 70.2 and 70.6. Seeing 70.2 was insane. I loved it and can feel the amazing feeling of seeing 69. something very very very soon. LOVE IT!

Even though i have no time for exercise for the next couple weeks, it shouldnt affect my weight loss if i continue eating the way i am. Which just shows how important the eating part is.

Take good care ladies

xoxo

I have been so busy with the new job and because of that I have to plan my exercise carefully. Even more important than exercising to me is planning my eating. I know that if i eat too much i will never get to goal. So the last couple of days, i guess you could say i have been eating very very little. And it paid off, this morning i weighed in at 70.8. I weighed in last week i think at around 71.6 or something.

I am also starting to feel sick because the cold is really setting in now. When i am sick i dont eat that much anyway. But, i know that all i have to do now is just minimize portions and drink water.

Going to be another tough week but i know that i can do this!

I am having trouble. AGAIN! This is frustrating. I get to 71kg and so close to being under 70 that i am finding EVERY possible way i can to not make it happen. Yes, i know the whole story with self-destruction. The fact is that I dont think i am worth it.

Hate feeling low. I ate allot of candy this weekend, and i am not happy about it. I have an aweful day and then a good one and back and forth. WHY??? Why am i chosing failure ? I know i said i wanted to be 60kg. Yes, that is ideal but right now i just want to get to 65kg and maintain. I need to stop doing the following :

- over thinking food.

- eating more than 1 portion.

- going above the calorie limit.

My fiance is starting to eat healthy cos he realized that he put on some weight. Why is it so easy for men ? Ok, well at least it is easy for him. He just eats small amounts at breakfast and dinner and a small piece of choc for desert. I need to get back on track. Because even when i do lose those 5kg, i still have to maintain. And that is going to be hard. But, i need to learn to just love myself and know that i am worth it.

Note to self : I love me and I can do this.

Hi guys!

So I am 25 years young

Birthday went really well. Was hoping for a more dramatic party but since all my friends dont actually live here, it was a smallish group. But, we had drinks and had a good time at TGIF or Fridays.

Things are happening so quickly in our lives that this morning I just had to take a minute to breath and get it all out in my blog. So we move in to our dream house on the 12th of Dec. Everybody is making a big deal about how we are not going to manage because it will be Christmas time. However, we have moved allot so i guess we know how to make this last one a quick one.

We also bought a beautiful new car. Yes, i know global economic crisis and here we are buying things. But, we are both now working and can afford the payments comfortably. The car is gorgeous and my fiance loves its features. Its a stationwagon, thinking long term about when we have babies

I started work and it is going well. Was so stressful in the begining cos i have to learn the language and also the skills. But, i love a challenge. So, i also had an interview last week with a huge cosmetics chain and it is also part time so i will manage to keep both jobs. More opportunities for me at this new job and I know i will get the job!

So, how am i doing body wise ? Well i weighed myself. Which is one of the reasons i am blogging aswell. I weigh 71.1kg down from 73. something kg. Which is good. I know i should have been under 70kg by now. But, goodness its been hectic and i am surprised that i lost weight.

New goal : New Years eve party.

Celebrating with cousins who have a jacuzzi and plan to use it. It will be snowing but we will be sipping on champagne and sitting in a warm tub. So, why am i stressed ? The cousin is perfect. She has a body that would get Barbie jealous and she is married to Ken. Now, my fiance doesnt worry about his body and i dont care how he looks, i love him. But, my body isnt Barbies body. So of course, i am in full panic. Well not full but i would like to look semi decent. I know that i am not fat anymore, but i just want to be around 65. She weighs between 58 and 61. Can i do this ? Of course i can.

What are your new years goals ? Have you started thinking about it ?

xoxo

You know I realized that when I am not stressing about how many calories are in everything i put in my mouth, I actually eat less! I dont know if any of you share the same thing but last week I noticed how fixated I was on losing weight and I worked out at the gym allot and it made no difference to the scale because as my lovely fiance said, it is simple math : I ate more than I was burning off.

So, this week has been ok. Portion control has been good and I am realizing again that I was silly to think that I could outsmart the Gods of Portion Control. Silly silly silly me …

Great news though … We finally got approval from the bank to buy the house that we have been wanting. It is just gorgeous! Links to the pics : http://www.finn.no/finn/viewimage?finnkode=14888323&reference=3/148/883/23_2000413533.jpg&adheading=Attraktiv+enebolig+over+2+plan%21+Flott+utsikt+over+%D8yern&sid=xz6cba_B8mR881459&adTypeId=1&WT.svl=Hovedbilde

It is a cute home and it has apple trees and a HUGE christmas type tree in the back. We both love the place because there is a bit of renovating to do and that is one of the things that the two of us just love! Otherwise, the home is totally lovely. Cannot believe it - this is the start of our lives! We move in Jan 25 as we have a 3 month termination period on the rental we have now. Which is fine by me, have all this time to decide what fridge and stove and all these lovely things for our new home! WOW! I am insanely happy right now!

Going to a spin class at 5pm. Going to be so fun! xoxo

Yup. My weight is the same as last week however, I am not mad or upset because I know what my problem is. I still continue to be greedy when it comes to food. I know that i have to change my brain to understand that if i eat less, i will see changes. I mean, ok I know i can see a change in body but if I want to get results on the scale then I will have to drastically stop eating everything I can get my hands on!

So short and sweet … goal for next week : EAT LESS!

xoxo

Yesterday, I looked pretty damn smart! I wore a tight pencil skirt, was a size 10 so up at the waist it was loose. But anyway it looked great! And a pair of killer high heels! I walked around the city from store to store and asked if they had any available jobs.

I have to admit that it wasnt good hearing no from some of the stores. So when i got home, I was sad. I think i went to around 10 of my fav stores that i knew i would like to work in. I handed in 4 out of the 10 copies of my cv’s i had made. So i was feeling down cos i wanted to get a more positive response.

Then, out of no where at 7pm last night one of the stores i went to actually called me back! I was on top of the moon! It is a jewellery and acessory store called Bella Donna and it is a sweet little store. The store manager called me and said she read my cv and would like to meet me. So i have an official interview on Friday at 3pm! I really hope i get it! I want to get a paying job!

Also need to call Zara cos they need part time help. Would LOVE to work there too. Love all the clothes from Zara!

Will keep you guys posted. Went spinning this morning and going to another 5pm class. I am packing in all the classes i can before my birthday! Its soon .. 2 november is very soon! I plan to look HOT! haha well we’ll see!

xoxo