A few days ago I bought a pair of pants that are size 30 but are too tight to wear (I tried them on in the store before buying them and I was about 5 away from wearing them and got them as an incentive).  This was when I saw my lowest scale weight of 184.6.  So this morning I tried them on and I could button them up!  They are almost wearable.  However, my scale has fluctuated up more than 2 pounds and I’m at 187 right now. 

I’ve been OP and feel like I should have lost some weight and I’ll take this as an indication that I did.  I think I could be a little bit smaller but still weigh more due to water retention. 

So I weighed in on Sunday with a 184.6!  My goal for the end of *this* week was to make 185, so I’m there early.  However, I was craving Indian food and ate way more than I should have at lunch and my weight this morning was 186.  It is water weight and normal fluctuations, but still…

I’m happy with it.  I think the water retention might be over by the end of the week, but if not, I know my “real” weight is probably closer to 184/5. 

This week I’m going to have a PERFECT week.  I’m going to be way under my calories and I’m going to get plenty of exercise.  I need to prepare myself for a weekend away in NY where I’ll be out of my routine and probably eating things that I normally don’t. 

So I’m at a new low weight this morning! My weight is 187 pounds exactly. It is a little but bit more than half a pound into new territory. Now that I’m back in positive land again, I hope to stay moving in the right direction. I’ve been really trying the last 2 weeks and have lost the weight I had previously gained.

It would be excellent if there was another weight loss tomorrow, but there is always the possibility of fluctuations up.

Tomorrow is my weight watchers meeting. The last meeting I went to (two weeks ago) I weighed 187.6. This was my previous new low and I was really happy about it. That evening (and continuing on till Monday) was horrible horrible choices.

The post-Thanksgiving weight watchers meeting might be sparsely populated. I imagine a lot of people will be avoiding it. It will feel great to go there and see a new WW low weight (which should happen if I don’t have a fluctuation up).

Everything went right for a change.  I didn’t have to worry about Thanksgiving dinner and I was able to eat perfectly healthy food that I love and was way under my calorie limit.  I feel full and satisfied and really happy that I did not have a setback.  :) 

The best news that I have is that I saw a night time weigh in number that leads me to believe that I could be into a new low weight in the morning!  Nothing is definite until the morning, but if I lose my typical 4 to 5 pounds overnight than I’ll be there. 

This morning I ran a 4 mile race and felt strong.  I could have ran much further and I made excellent time.  I’m really starting to love running and feeling accomplished at this. 

I have to remember this feeling.  I have to remember how good it feels to be doing the right thing. 

So in the morning I’m going to do a 4 mile run.  I’m looking forward to it!  While I’ve run more than this distance several times, it is the longest race I’ve done.  I’ve only done 5ks in the past (and one mile more isn’t a big deal).  I’m going to jog it slow.  Its a freeing feeling knowing you aren’t going to run something for time.  Also, I don’t seem to run very well in the day light.  I’m a night runner and there is something about running in the morning that doesn’t work out for me. 

In terms of weight, I’m almost back where I was.  This morning the weight was 188.8 which is just a little bit more than a pound up from my lowest. 

I’m not going to pig out on Thanksgiving.  After my plans fell through at one friends place, I decided not to take up any of the other offers.  I don’t need the temptation right now.  I’m so close to goal and just couple of bad days can set me back for a month.  It is just not worth it to me.  Hitting my goal weight would be better than any pumpkin pie!

It was a very good day.  I was very low in my calories.  I’d guestimate maybe 1400 or so (normally I eat 1800 - 2000).  I also walked about 4 miles or so in the evening.

Tonight I’m going to do an easy 2 or 3 mile run since I have a 4 mile run on Thursday.  I could probably get away with not running again till Thursday, but I think I want to do something (but just an easy run). 

I haven’t weighed in yet this morning but it will be close to what it was yesterday.  I’ll probably be just a bit under 190.  I’m determined by the end of this month to be back into new weight loss territory.

Well, today I was 189.4. I’m just a couple of pounds up from my lowest weight. I’m almost fully recovered from the binge over the weekend of 13th.

Its a long story, but I might not have Thanksgiving dinner this year and I’m actually glad :). I really don’t need the temptation. Thankgiving is about giving thanks, not hedonism. I can eat normal foods I eat every day and not load up on desserts and booze. It is not something that I want or need to do.

Saturday, Sunday, and Monday of last week were horrid.  Tuesday and Wednesday were extremely mediocre.  Thursday I was back and I’ve been back since then.  Today will be my forth “good day” after some extreme stupidity. 

My weight is up almost 4 pounds from my lowest even after 4 good days.  It was up as much as 12 pounds (which was mostly water weight and the weight of the food).  The unfortunate thing is that right when I’m recovered from this I’ll be heading into Thanksgiving and it will be another unfortunate hurdle that I’ll have to jump over.

I’m sadly thinging that November has the potential to be a month that I might end with a gain instead of a loss and it is totally my fault.  It doesn’t happen very often anymore, but my drinking binge combines with a food binge over a few days and it takes weeks to recover. 

This was the worst month for that to happen (and its been a few months since the last episode).

I need to figure out why these occasional binges happen and to stop them from occurring. 

I keep telling myself this and I’ll start to believe it.

I don’t really know why I’m all of a sudden in a good mood. I’m not complaining though.

My weight is way up from a binge episode over the past weekend. Binging and boozing and feeling sorry for myself. The last few days have been okay, but not great, but still should have been under my calorie count. Today I’ve done good so far and plan on making good choices tonight. I’m definitely going to have a good weekend as I can’t afford to gain any more weight.

I’m not sure how much I’ve put on is water weight verses real weight. I do know that I hope to be in new territory again by December 3rd (when I go to NY). I’d also love to be at 185 by then but that might be a stretch because of the steps back I took.

My weight is back in the 190s. I’ll update when I’m back in the 180s again and hopefully soon after that will be back close to my lowest (187.6).

Here is to getting back on the wagon!

My 4 day blowout resulted in a huge increase in the scale.  I’m sure it will come back off pretty quickly.  The last two days I’ve eaten better, but even those days weren’t exactly great.  It is taking me a bit longer to get back in the groove.  I decided to take this week off of running and start my running place once again in earnest on the begining of the week.