Happy, Healthy Me :)

It was a little scary how many times today I had to fight off the urge to buy lots of junk food and go home to binge for the rest of the day. I’ve realized that EVERYTHING is a trigger, because I have literally bought my binge food from every location, and I’ve binged on almost every food. I’ve binged for every emotion. It had definitely become a crutch that I relied on.

Last night, DB made a trip to the grocery store to get something, and ended up picking up a few other items, as well. To give a short background, he will eat healthy and drink water when I provide the means, but left on his own, he resorts to takeout and convenience foods. He doesn’t really read labels, and he loves snack foods such as chips. His diet worries me ALOT, but instead of nagging, I strive to lead by example and help him make little changes in the hopes of working toward better habits in the future.

Anyway, one of the other items that he got was danishes. I didn’t really pay attention to that at first, but then later when I went to the kitchen, I noticed that the filling was blue. I love EVERYTHING blueberry, so of course I had to check to see if they were blueberry danishes. I read the whole ingredient list, got right to the bottom, and finally found blueberries. The length of the list intrigued me, so I counted the total ingredients. 72!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rhat sort of gagged me, and it still does. Nevertheless, I had one for breakfast this morning. And I did NOT feel guilty. I had no processed carbs for the rest of the day, and I ate really well. Just like I thought, it really wasn’t worth the calories, and I won’t be eating another tomorrow.

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My BMR is 1495.5. I used this website: http://www.bmi-calculator.net/bmr-calculator/harris-benedict-equation/, to calculate how many calories I would need if I wanted to maintain at 150 lbs (at this time, I get little or no exercise, so I multiplied by BMR by 1.2). I got 1,794 calories. The website says: “If you want to lose fat, a useful guideline for lowering your calorie intake is to reduce your calories by at least 500, but not more than 1000 below your maintenance level.” According to that, I should eat approximately 1,294 calories per day. Hmm, that seems low according to what I’ve read, but not impossible. Of course, I know that I can make that higher if I get more exercise, which is something that I’m working on.

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The virus seems to be finally releasing it’s hold on me, and I have my voice back. I have to be up at 5 am tomorrow for work, so I’m off to bed. Goodnight!