First things first:
Start weight: 98.5
Week 1: 97.7 -800g
Week 2: 98.3 +600g
Week 3: 96.3 -2KG
Week 4: 95.2 -1.1KG
Week 5: 95.1 -0.1KG
Week 6: 94 -1.1KG
Week 7: 93.6 -0.4KG
Good, right?
Since my last post, I’ve exercised 8 out of 11 days (and today I could say is day 9 of 11 because I spent hours pulling and scraping old skanky painted-over wallpaper off our bedroom walls). Tomorrow is actually C25K W3D3 and I’m actually enjoying it.
Husband bought me an iPod Nano for an early (step)mother’s day present so I’ve loaded up my iPod with music to cycle and walk to. Eventually that will be running music as well.
The weather has been fairly decent and I’m finding I actually WANT to go outside. Me, the vampire bat!
My new 18W Calvin Klein’s are literally sliding off of my arse. I think my body is shifting a lot faster because of the different types of exercise I’m doing and especially the jogging. Bring it on!! I’ll have to get some new jeans soon though… 16W’s… and then when I get another size down I’ll just raid my clothing boxes I have in storage. I have some great clothes still from when I was smaller!
I’m feeling good. Confident. Dare I say it… sexy even! People are making compliments that are hard for me to accept, but I’m working on it - it’s nice people also notice how hard you are working towards something and how determined one can be. Last night was major success for me! Went out to the normal pub with some colleagues, the place I always eat bad food and drink too many beers - I ate beforehand so I had nothing at the bar to eat (and it was TEMPTING), and had half the amount of drinks I normally have. And then this morning I actually saw 90KG on my home scale. Amazing. I’m doing it!!!!
So, not to blow my own horn or anything… no wait, I WANT to blow my own horn!
Since last Tuesday’s weigh in, I have lost 1.4kg on my home scale. That’s 3 pounds to you non-metric people. I know I need to wait until Tuesday for the finals, but really, I’m stoked.
You know why it’s gone down like it has?
Planning ahead
Tracking everything
Exercise
Saying “no” and keeping in my mind that going off program is NOT AN OPTION right now
So I missed out on drinks with colleagues on Friday (said I was too tired, which I was in fact), the Canadian Breakfast Mixer at work on Friday (each month another group of people do a breakfast for us to reconnect with each other - this month was from the Canadians, last month was Mediterranean, month before English, etc) - I just didn’t go downstairs at all because I didn’t want the temptation. I had no real dinner on Thursday at all because I got home so late from bellydancing. So there are sacrafices, sure. But what I really WANT is to lose weight! More than anything. More than birthday cake, candy, canadian breakfasts, cocktails, etc. I want this more than anything.
Funny thing is, I want to get outside today and my husband’s decided we have to deep clean the house! He’s constantly calling me a bat or a vampire because I like to stay in! How ironic is that? Ah well, cleaning burns calories too, right?
Watch this space; next tuesday I’ll be down officially at WW too.
It’s been a very exhausting week.
Monday was the funeral, Tuesday WW (home late), Wednesday stress at work, Thursday bellydancing (home late) and Friday… call me passed out on the couch, not even through one glass of wine!
It was a tiring, but successful week, regardless of the sadness that started it off.
This week M/W/F I did my first week of C25K and R came along with me since he’s feeling the need to get more fit as well. Tuesday I did 32 minutes of my Rosemary Conley DVD and I went walking with J at lunch. Thursday I went to bellydancing and J, E and I all walked there (3.3KM) instead of going by car or bus. I moved every day! I think that’s a record for me!
On Tuesday I went to WW and I was down 100grams. That’s not much, but because I’ve been tracking EVERYTHING I was not surprised, not disappointed, not angry; in fact I was totally prepared. On my home scale I was the same the week before and I actually saw my weight rise and fall during that week, AND I know exactly why it did that (not drinking enough water, being over points several days, wine, sodium, etc). Next Tuesday is going to be differet though - I’m very in control this week and I have no doubt there will be a better loss!
I have now a mini-goal reward: when I hit 89KG/ 196 lbs (on my home scale), I’m going to treat myself to a new, proper pair of running shoes. Since I’m doing the C25K I want to be sure that I have the right shoes when I’m eventually really running. I have 2.2 KG to reach this goal.
Start weight: 98.5
Week 1: 97.7 -800g
Week 2: 98.3 +600g
Week 3: 96.3 -2KG
Week 4: 95.2 -1.1KG
Week 5: 95.1 -0.1KG
and I said goodbye to Michael.
I can’t say it enough now - whatever anyone’s excuse NOT to move, it’s not valid anymore. My friend DIED because of pulmonary embulism - probably because he was SEDENTARY and OVERWEIGHT. He was 40. 40 years old!!! And now he’s gone and all of his dreams died with him.
I’m going to miss him so much.
But I’m going to be healthy. For me. For him. I don’t want to make anyone hurt like I hurt now because he’s gone. When I die I want it to be because I’m an old lady who lived a full life, not a young person of 40 who still has half of her life ahead of her.
There are no more excuses.
I didn’t mean to be away this long.
Actually things are going quite well. I’m losing weight, I’m losing almost every day - in fact just been tracking the last 2 weeks and I’m down 4KG on my own scale, and 3.1 on the WW scale. Not bad.
And I’ve planned and shopped and cooked and counted and weighed and measured. It wasn’t hard and it didn’t hurt and it didn’t take that long.
But I’m exhausted. I’m tired and ready for some serious sleep.
You see I got some bad news last week. A friend of mine died. A VERY good friend of mine - though we didn’t have a lot of contact the last year or so. He was one of my first friends I had here in the Netherlands. We worked together, we went to the gym (and afterwards to McDonald’s) together, we went out, movies, concerts, we traveled together at times, heck we even went together to get our noses pierced (I got mine done, he didn’t - they said his nose was just too small!), and he helped me get my current job through the recruitment agency where he worked. We ate and drank together. We spent holidays together. 12 years - we have a real history in my adult life in this country. And he’s just gone. I’m devastated. Gutted. He was only 40, how could this happen?
And yet in all of this, when I could have easily gone back to my ways of comfort food and drink I’m hanging in there. We had more than our share of dieting/exercise moments and discussions between us. Maybe he’s trying to tell me to get healthy because you really never know when your time is up.
Start weight: 98.5
Week 1: 97.7 -800g
Week 2: 98.3 +600g
Week 3: 96.3 -2KG
Week 4: 95.2 -1.1KG
Oh man, I’m such a big baby!
I learned a lot last week just from going on a big baby whinge on 3FC. I’m sure I’ve sealed my fate now as Queen of the Pathetics. That’s cool. I needed a royal kick in the patootie.
So, I went to WW and I GAINED back 600 of the 800 grams I lost the week before. Good, huh? Yeah. Well. I did make some better decisions than others in Glasgow but apparenly not good enough.
So here I am. Kick in the pants. Back on track. Exercising. Figuring out what works, what doesn’t work, etc. And now my Dear Hubby is going away for 10 days and - wow - I’ve already planned my meals for the next 7 days and went shopping to fulfill the menus. You see, he does all the shopping and at least food prep because I get home so late (long commute, and I live in the Netherlands; our supermarket closes at 8pm). He does this so that we don’t eat too late (because now I’m convinced that eating after 9 is killing my sleep and not good for weight loss or digestion) but being gone for 10 days means I have to fend for myself. PLANNING ahead is already saving me!
I’m also keeping a very basic excel sheet with a few bits of information on it so that I know, for example, in the future when My Aunt Flo in her Big Red Hat will be arriving each month and how it affects my hunger levels, etc. I’m on day 5, but I’m excited to see it really become something to go by.
I’m done with whining now, no need for that low-point cheese after all.
Start weight: 98.5
Week 1: 97.7 -800g
Week 2: 98.3 +600g
what do you get?
Fries
Beer
Whiskey
Pasta
Burgers
Whiskey
Cocktails
Beer
Fry-ups
Yeah. It went really well. But ok, I may have had those things, and I chose those things, but I could have done worse. On Saturday morning in particular, I skipped the majority of the “traditional Scottish breakfast” and had no sausages, bacon, mushrooms, etc. I just had eggs, toast, a few potato scones, even some yoghurt and fruit. On Sunday I had exactly 1 sausage and 1 bacon, less eggs and some all-bran cereal. When you are at an all you can eat breakfast buffet, you KNOW how hard it is to resist piling those fatty pork products up on your plate (if you eat those fatty pork products, which I generally don’t, but when in Rome, or Glasgow as the case was…), so, yeah, kudos to me for one sausage and one bacon, huzzah!
Back on track again today. Am also going to hit the elliptical.
I have to choose between -
planning
journaling
counting
weighing
measuring
exercising
sleeping
going out
working
internetting
and not everything actually gets chosen!!
So in the past week, I’ve been on my famous “all or nothing” trip. I really must do something about that… it doesn’t really help in other areas of my life. For example - I’m finding it hard to concentrate and be enthusiastic about work, because I’m thinking about my Weight, Weight Watchers, the Weight Loss Forums, Weight Loss success stories, the weight that I lost before, how much weight am I going to lose this week, etc. Weighing, measuring, planning, journaling like a complete madwoman.
I guess I’m still getting some work done at work, but I have loads of personal things still that I need to do. Put some packages together for friends that I’ve promised for months. Write my thank you notes from the wedding. Clean my home office area. Actually do things on my “to do” list at work. Get in touch with people who have written that I keep meaning to write back.
But no. I’m thinking about the ever encompasing issue of WEIGHT.
I journalled for an entire 7 days. In fact, I’m on day 8 as we speak. I weighed in yesterday and I lost 800gr. Whoo Hoo, you say? That’s 1.7 lbs, boys and girls. I should be happy. I should be proud. But you know what I am… annoyed! See “all or nothing” comment above. 7 days of planning, writing, exercising (well, 3 at 5am and one saturday morning), saying no to chocolates, cakes, pies, beers, candy, food samples at work, even bites of food to try from friends who were eating something other than what I was eating. All of that and not even 1 KG. *Sigh*
I have to choose something else I think. I have to choose to do whatever it takes to get this weight off now, I have to choose to be patient, I have to choose to be grateful and a bit more kind to myself. I have to choose to do and think about other things than weight loss and what/ when my next meal is going to be, I have to choose to remember that this should be incorporated in my life but not become my life.
Oh I’m sure this is not an extraordinarily new revelation. I’m probably the last to get this little lightbulb going off in my head. But I’m happy it’s there. And I’m happy I’ve thought about it. And I’m happy that I’m going to stick to it but be just a little bit more relaxed about it (not too relaxed of course!).
Start weight: 98.5
Week 1: 97.7 -800g
but need time to say it.
Story of my life.
Maybe after dinner/ preparing my food for tomorrow I can catch up.
Am on Day 5 of keeping track. Yes, I made it to DAY 5!
planning for tomorrow 2 April. today went well, though I’m very tired.
B - smoothie 2 points
1 banana
frozen fruit
200ml karnemelk
egg white omelette - 1,5 points
4 egg whites
El Tapatio hot sauce
thai veggies
1 teaspoon olive oil
S - 1 triple tall NF latte- 1 point
apple
L - shrimp salad with spinach- 4 points
shrimp, cucumber, tomato, balsamico, 1 tsp olive oil
spinach
S - strawberries and 125g yoghurt 1 point
carrots
D - tuna steak, asparagus, rice 8,5 points
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