Here I go again on my own…

I had a bachelorette party Saturday night and needless to say, I really don’t drink that much anymore. So when I  get out with my friends I maybe just maybe overdo it.  And I paid for it yesterday! The ONLY good thing about my hangover was that food made me nauseaus But honestly, I felt truly disgusting about myself Sunday and I do not intend to feel that way again..ever.  Made me lazy, tired, and bloated.  I bought tons of healthy food yeserday and am actually really excited about my colorful salad for lunch.  Junk food doesn’t sound good at all! I had a huge breakfast, but I think I needed it to sustain myself.  I get so hungry around 10:30 that I always find myself in the candy jar up front.  I had toast, two eggs, and veggie sausage patties.  Delicious and filling, yet I dont feel like I loaded up on crap so I’m happy about that.  Lets hope this healthy eating thing can stick and then I’ll get back to counting points…as of right now I feel like I’m starting over every single week and I’m getting so mad at myself! I did not weigh at all today because I want no part of seeing a gain this week…I KNOW I can do this..what the hell is stopping me from going full force?

Okay, so as much as I was glad Tracey was gone, oh my gosh she looks GREAT! I think the thing about her that motivates me is that She was one of the smallest on the show…she lost a ton of weight and now looks awesome! I’ve often said that I wanted to go on Biggest Loser, but I didn;t think they would take me because I don’t have 100 pounds to lose…so seeing someone else who doesn’t have hundreds of pounds to lose makes me feel like I can look awesome like her too! Don’t get me wrong, I have darn near close to a hundred in my opinion, but if she could do that in less than a year, I can too.  After watching last night, my husband and I decided we really wanted to start getting healthy.  So anyway, thank you Tracey for being so annoying all season because you getting kicked off really got me motivated!

wow..that’s awesome! I just looked at my last post and actually I lost 1/2 a pound!!! Not much but I’ll take it! I thought I was at 221 before I left…hmm..well that was a nice little surprise!

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And did NOT lose weight…and I really thought I would.  Not only did we walk miles and miles everyday to the point where my whole body was sore, I really didn’t eat that much! Just by nature, portions are smaller in Japan.  I NEVER felt full after a meal..just satisfied.  And I definitely didn’t snack.  Then, when I got home..I really wasn’t that hungry.  Anyway…not only did I not lose..I gained!!!! 2 pounds!!! This is what’s wrong with my body.  Everyone else either lost or stayed the same..I NEVER stay the same…I wish I could stay the same…my body just automatically gains.  So annoying.  In Japan, I could not count calories (obviously since I couldn’t read the language) but I really was trying to do well.  So now it’s back on…I can’t continue with this awful feeling of gaining weight.  And my husband thought I looked like I lost weight! Ha! Anyway, let’s hope I can get myself going again…so hard…but it has to be done

Down 1.5 pounds this week to 223.5…not as much as I hoped, but shoot, how can I hope for a loss when I’m not doing well with my eating! Therefore, I am very happy with this..this makes 5.5 total since I started…5.5 that I hope to never see again.  I am leaving tomorrow to visit my sister in Japan so I probably will be signing off of here until I get back in November.  We should be doing a whole lot of walking and I really hate fish so I think I probably won’t be eating much..not to mention I am NOT an ethnic food eater…so my goal for when I get back is 220…wish me luck!!! Talk to ya’ll in a couple of weeks!

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Is one of those things I do often, however I like when I’m a little lighter because it makes it easier and I don’t have to pull physically with my hand to get my leg to stay on top! What a stupid way to measure weight loss, but anyway, this morning I feel like my leg is pretty much staying up on it’s own…haha! Unofficial WI this morning was 222.5.  Down 2.5 since my WI on Monday, for a total of 6.5 pounds since I started…I’m starting to feel really good about dieting this time around!!!

So we got a puppy on Sunday.  She is awesome and I couldn’t have asked for a sweeter little yellow lab.  HOWEVER, my husband is with her pretty much all day other than when he is in class.  Therefore, I am on duty with her first thing in the morning and dinner time.  So in the morning, she needs constant supervision so she doesnt pee on the floor.  And she is wound up after being in her crate all night.  If I want to eat in the morning, I really have to just pour a bowl of cereal and slam it or shes running off tearing stuff up haha.  So I can’t count points.  Packing a lunch in the morning isn’t happening at all.  I know I need to just have it all ready at night when she is taking a nap in the evening, so thats my goal for the last two days of this week.  Have everything ready so there is no guess work going on.  That being said, I think I have been okay points wise.  I haven’t been counting but I have made good choices when I had to eat out and today I got on the scale and have gone down not quite a pound, but definitely not up! I really want to get going to the gym…gosh what a waste of money on that membership that I’ve really yet to use.  I plan to go this weekend both days.  I’m also getting ready for Japan.  I leave next Tuesday.  It’s really hard to diet on vacation, but I HATE fish with a passion so maybe there will be nothing for me to eat over there haha.  I am realyl picky about food in other countries, so I’m hoping I’ll be okay over there.  Also, we will be walking so much on tours and going to Disney and everything so the exercise should begood.  Plus, my sister got me a temporary gym membership while I’m there.  Maybe I’ll work out more over there than at home and come back with a big old weight loss!!!! Except that I get home the day before Halloween and we have a big party to go to…oh well, I’ll tackle that when it comes…hope everyone has a great week!

I am actually really happy with losing 4 pounds, even though I had already lost that last weekend.  I didn;t have a great weekend, but I knew I didn’t totally blow it.  We picked up our puppy yesterday and she’s as cute as can be.  I got some exercise running around the yard playing with her so that was good.  I need to get to the gym this week, however my hubby is home a lot more with her and he needs my help when I get home from work so he can take a break so maybe I’ll take her on walks and everything.  I can’t figure out how to update my tracker! I’ll probably just make a new one! Anyway, I’m so sad today bc when I left Frailey was crying in her crate.  I hate that…Can;t wait to see her tonight!

Got my tracker working!

Seriously…when I think back, just about 2/3’s of my life has been spent dieting.  It’s all I know how to do, yet I seem to be terrible at it.  Anyway, this week, eating wise has been great.  I didn;t exercise at all, but that was kind of on purpose.  I know I will lose this week simply by staying within my points, and next week I want reassurance that I will lose too, so I’ll start working out next week.  We are getting a puppy on Sunday so I know I will be walking a lot with her! The other thing I’ve noticed this week is that I’m SO tired.  I seriously get home from work and probably don;t get off the couch all night.  Not good.  But I have found in the past that exercising helps me feel more energized so that I can get other things done as well.  That all being said, I am feeling really good about my diet this time, so I really hope I can keep this attitude up over the weekend.  We have a wedding, but I always remember that food is never actually that good at a wedding, so no need to stuff myself silly! Anyway, good luck to everyone this weekend! The hardest part of the week for sure! (at least for me:)

UPDATE: I added some pictures..hopefully I’ll have more like the last one to show soon!

I don’t normally do this, but since I know historically the first week you lose the most, I thought I would just check on my progress…I’ve only been dieting since Monday..but anyway, today I was down 4 pounds! I’m realistic, I know most of that is water..but to me, a loss is a loss.  So anyway, my official WI day is Monday.  That way I will try to hold myself more accountable over the weekend knowing I have to face it all on Monday! We have a wedding this weekend.  That could be rough.  We recently moved about an hour and a half south of St. Louis (where we are from) so on Friday, while we are in town, we are going to meet up with some friends.  My plan is that I won;t drink any alcohol unless it’s an “event”, which hanging out with friends does not constitute, however a wedding does.  Not that I drink a lot, but I know it’s empty calories however often I drink! So this Friday, water it is for me at the bar!