I decided

Posted by omai on January 29th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 2 Comments

… to not worry about what the scale tells me, for a while. I signed up at the gym and have been going on a very consistent basis. Originally, my daughter was supposed to be going with me. Then she started college and got a job. She’s been once. And I keep inviting people to go with me. It’s not like they have to pay or anything. Part of my membership is that I can take a guest with me. You’d think someone would jump at the chance, right? Nuh uh. Hasn’t happened yet. You’d think I was asking them to join me in torturing small animals or something!

So I go on my own. There are some days I know I work out harder than others. I guess that’s why I’d like someone to go with me. This way, I’d feel the need to prove myself or something. I think it’s easier when someone goes with you. You can push each other, keep each other in check, et cetera.

I started running. Well, jogging, but running nonetheless. It’s not as bad as I’ve made it out to be, in my head. I guess it’s just the sweating and the effort I wasn’t looking forward to. Work is a 4-letter word, after all! I really could be doing better at it, but I’m definitely doing it. I’m in no rush to become a marathon runner, though the thought does stir some kind of something in me. Me… a runner? I can’t even wrap my head around that right now.

My sisters and I are going to be signing up for the Diva Dash in Austin, this April. I’ve seen photos and there are lots of skinny, athletic types that join this. I’ve seen some chubby bunnies, as well. I think my biggest fear about this is coming in last. I know finishing would be an accomplishment, but last just sounds so bad!

I need to do better with eating. I still backslide more than I’d like.  I haven’t quite gotten the grasp of calorie counting, because there seems to be so much involved in doing it. Dunno. Something else I have to work on.

I hope you’re doing well, though. Hope you’re making better choices, drinking lots of water, moving around. I’ll get back to you on what I’m up to. I’d like to be able to give you a better update than this one.

Ciao~

Oops!

Posted by omai on January 3rd, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

So I’m back to work and first thing I did was weigh in. 219 which is up 3 lbs from my last weigh in before the holidays. Not bad, as far as weight gain goes, but not good either. I am officially a holiday weight gaining statistic lol.

Darnit! I am not happy about that! So I am going to work my butt off to change it. Who’s with me?

100 day bootcamp

Posted by omai on December 27th, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

So I was on YouTube (they have an AWESOME weight loss community, btw) and came across a woman who goes by the name MrsBabyfat. Now this woman is very real, weighing in at over 400 lbs. This is why I tend to be attracted to her videos. She is a real person going through a real struggle to lose weight. Her quest is to lose 300 lbs. Impossible, you say? No way! I think she’ll be able to do it. She’s already on the right track with eating better and getting in her exercise.

Which is where this begins. She has put it out there, challenging everyone to what she is calling the 100 Day Fat Girl Bootcamp. The rules to this are that you MUST do a 1/2 hour of exercise every day for 100 days. And that’s not 1/2 hour throughout the day. That’s in a single block of time. Now, you can do this whether it’s running, walking, doing housework, dancing. Your choice. Just do it for 1/2 an hour every day for 100 days. Sounds like a plan to me!

So now I will challenge YOU to this 100 Day Fat Girl Bootcamp. Thirty minutes a day for 100 days. Journal it. Blog it. Whatever you wanna call it. Just MOVE MOVE MOVE. Do it for yourself. It’s not too much to ask.

As for me, today I am doing a YouTube exercise workout: jumping jacks, arm weights, body twists, leg lifts, crunches. I’m doing it, baby! Hope you’re doing it, too. And don’t wait until the new year to start this. Do it now! What are you waiting for?

So, there was this plan, see?

Posted by omai on December 22nd, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Well, Christmas is this weekend. I really don’t want to undo all the good things I’ve done lately. Tonight I actually ate one of those bite size 3 Musketeers and I feel guilty about it. I mean, I know in the grand scheme of things it was just a tiny, minute thing. And it’s not like I said “What the hell” and scarfed down an entire bag. And it’s not even like I really wanted it. I wasn’t craving it, so I’m not sure why I ate it other than… I ate it. Fail on that count.

But I’m not gonna beat myself up over it. I’m gonna pick myself up, dust myself off and keep on keeping on. I mean, who says you have to throw in the towel if you fall off the wagon? I think that’s doing a disservice to yourself. We should each do our best to realize our worth and do better for ourselves, not because of something someone else said or what someone else wants. It’ll never work that way.

Some people are happy to be stagnant, while they keep on gaining weight, making excuses for everything, always a reason why they can’t, why it’s not the right time, they’re too stressed, they don’t have the time, the money. Yes, it takes buying better foods. But, know what? What you save from giving up all the stuff that’s bad for you, you can buy GOOD stuff! How about trying that?

So I lost my original train of thought about Christmas coming up very soon. Right around the corner, in fact. The big boss told us she’s closing the office all of next week, since we’re gonna have a heavy workload year in 2012. I don’t want to just end up laying around, doing nothing, watching TV all day. I’m a weenie, though. When it’s cold, I don’t wanna be outside. But I’m gonna force myself to get out there. After all, I’m doing this for my benefit, right? For my health. So that I’ll be around to see my youngest grow up, get married, have kids of her own.

Here are some of the things I’m going to attempt to do, to adhere to, while I’m on this Christmas/New Year break:
1. Make sure to get no less than 12,000 steps on my pedometer, each day.
2. Keep my portions under control by starting a food journal (which I hear helps a lot).
3. Get to bed before midnight at LEAST 3 times in a 5 day period.
4. Make sure to take in enough protein and calcium.
5. Use my hand weights every day for at least half an hour.
6. Maybe do a few workouts from videos on YouTube.

If I can think of anything else, I’ll add it in a future post. In the meantime, I’m gonna have a positive attitude about every minute of every day. And I’m going to make sure to share with my weight loss buddies on FB. I know they will help keep me in check and help me figure things out, if I should wander off my original path. They’re great that way.

Oh. One more thing I need to do is post a picture of me sweating from exercise lol. Yeah. We’ll see how that goes.

Until next time… may your days be merry and bright.

Well, whaddaya know?

Posted by omai on December 22nd, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Got on the scale this morning and I’m down another pound! YaY!!! So that puts me at 216.4

4 lbs gone, gone, gone!

Posted by omai on December 21st, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 2 Comments

So I joined this FB weightloss group that someone a friend of mine knows started. Most of the women there have had some kind of weight loss surgery (WLS)… gastric, lapband, etc. I haven’t had any of those. I’m just someone trudging along, trying to do my best to lose weight. I guess I’d like to think there’s still hope for me and I believe there is.

Anyway, these ladies are PHENOMENAL! They are so supportive and encourage you to do your best, every minute of every day. I watch their successes, their struggles, do my best to build them up, the way they do me, enjoy their humor and learn about the people they are. And really, I’m glad they’ve accepted me, despite the fact that I haven’t shared the WLS experience with them. They’ve helped so much with my determination and self-esteem. I’m so lucky!

I did a detox the other day and am following a ‘back to basics’ diet (and I use that term loosely) that people who’ve had WLS use to get their pouches (the little bit of stomach they have left) to get flushed out and back to the original size they had it, after surgery (cuz, you know how it is, the stomach stretches and whatnot). They want to be able to keep things the way they should be, for maximum weight loss success.

Happily, I saw results of my own. I’ve lost 4.2 lbs (if technicalities count) and I’m feeling pretty good, these days. I need to step up the exercise, though, and drinking of water. I’m going to try to post articles I find on here that could be helpful… if anyone’s even reading this, that is.

I wish you all success in your weight loss endeavors. I’ll be cheering you on. If you need someone to boost your spirits, just leave me a message or comment somewhere and I will take a look at your blog and do just that for you.

Have a great day! :)

Starting measurements (why do I torture myself this way? lol)

Posted by omai on December 13th, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Today is Tuesday, Dec. 13, 2011. These are my starting measurements (pictures to follow). Ugh! I look like such a moo on paper. Looking forward to that changing. Here goes:


neck: 14.5 inches
r. arm: 14-3/4 inches
r. forearm:10.5 inches
l. arm: 14 inches
l. forearm: 10.5 inches
bust: 50.5 inches
chest: 43-1/4 inches
waist: 47.5 inches
hips: 51.5 inches
r. thigh: 22.5 inches
l. thigh: 21.5 inches
r. calf: 16 inches
l. calf: 16.1 inches

10 Things I won’t miss about being overweight

Posted by omai on December 12th, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Here are 10 things I won’t miss about being overweight:


10. Catching glimpses of the fat person in the mirror.
9. Taking Metformin for Type II Diabetes (Doc says there’s a high chance it’ll go away, once I lose weight and get myself healthier.)
8. Always sucking in my gut so I don’t look bigger than I know I am.
7. The lines with button outlines on my belly from pants that are too tight.
6. Hearing the dreaded “You have such a pretty face. If only you’d lose weight.”
5. Not being able to sit on my husband’s lap when he’s trying to be cuddly or playful, for fear I will crush his legs and leave him paralyzed.
4. Some random rude kid telling my little girl, “Your mom is FAT.”
3. All those old lady, curtain pattern clothes to choose from, in my size.
2. Having to wear loose tops because fitted ones just bring out the bigness.
And the #1 thing I won’t miss about being overweight… is seeing any Xs on my clothing size tags!

I’m gonna…

Posted by omai on December 12th, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

It always seems there’s a way of thinking of you have to change, in order to have any kind of success and not end up sabotaging yourself. I think most of us can easily conjure up negativities that weigh us down (pun intended). Emotions, resentments, anger, daily life… it all adds up.

I’m going to learn to deal with my issues when they’re right there in front of me. I don’t want to wait until later on, when I’ve had time to sulk or build up hurt or anger. I need to face it, deal with it and move on, as quickly as I can so there’s no build up time. I will also know that letting go is as good as holding on, sometimes.

I also need to learn that food is NOT a reward. I know that, in the past, if I’ve lost weight, there has always been a day when I told myself it would be no big deal to have dessert or a snack that I didn’t normally have. “After all, I’ve been really good.” I won’t lose any weight with that line of thinking. Why? Because if I can do it that one time, there will be other times, too. I will reward myself with a movie, with a book, with a trip to the art museum, with a new outfit. Food is a necessity, not my friend. That much is clear.

I need to rest more. I have a really bad habit of staying up late, knowing I have to wake up early for work. Why do I punish myself that way? Yawning like a dork all day. It’s my own fault. I want to thank my body for getting me through another day. My line of work can be stressful (as anyone else’s), so I need the time to relax and unwind. I want to be good to myself. Instead of going to bed at midnight, I will try to go to bed by 10pm. This will be a wonderful thing, I’m sure. I can hear my body & mind cheering already lol

I don’t want to overwhelm myself with new stuff, but it almost seems that you have to do that because if you slack in any way, you’re back to not losing… or worse, putting pounds back on! *shudder* I will have to stay on top of things, remind myself how unhappy I’ve been as an overweight person, how embarrassed I’ve been every time I’ve been told, “You have SUCH a pretty face. If only you’d lose some weight.” That’s THE WORST!

So I’ll come up with new habits, better habits, more positive thoughts and surround myself with more positive people. I’m going to take photos of me when I get home (from the neck down) and post them. Maybe something visual will help to keep me on track.

Wish me luck!

This is what happened…

Posted by omai on December 11th, 2011 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

My husband and I separated, a couple of years back. There were just too many things going wrong and neither of us was sure we wanted to work it out, so we took some “time off”. During that time, I did stuff on my own. I don’t own a car, so I took the city bus everywhere. And where the city bus left off, my legs made up for it. I did a lot of walking, both out of necessity and because I enjoy it. It did me a lot of good, to be honest. I gained strength and stamina, as well as lost weight. Another bonus from all that walking is that, by the time I got home, I wasn’t really hungry, so I would eat a very light meal or a bowl of Cheerios.

Fast forward to August (this year), when hubby & I decide to give things another go. Well, he started helping with taking our daughter to school and running errands, which cut down on my walking. Also, he’s home in time to cook dinner. So I went from eating something very small, to eating a full meal. And I’m sure he was just trying to make things up to me by making little goodies I like and having them at the ready, day or night. It wouldn’t have been so bad had I used any restraint. Unfortunately, I let him “spoil” me and, in the end, all the work I’d done to take off the weight was screwed up by me. I gained back 14 lbs. *sigh*

Because of this, I’ve had a long talk with hubby about how important it is for me to get healthy and to feel better about myself. Not only does this benefit me, but it benefits our relationship. I would like to do more things together, to have the confidence to go out and dance, or go bowling without feeling like comments are being made. I just want to be someone out on the town, not “that fat lady”.

Thankfully, he agrees that it’s a plus all around and will cook healthier foods (and not so much of them). He will no longer have sweets available, so the temptation will be gone. Yes, it ultimately rests on my shoulders as to whether or not I lose the weight, I get healthy, I watch what and how and how much I eat. But it sure does help when you have support and people working toward the same goal with you. And that’s why I wanted to start over, truly dedicating myself to me. I know I’m worth it, I just need to repeat that until I believe it.


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