Not a FAT girl forever

The time has now come to DO IT!

This week… May 9, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 2:38 am

…so far has been really good. :-)

I have joined an awesome thread by the forums, and the group of ladies there are just so awesome!!!

I am really concentrating on eating right this

week. I have not done any workouts this week, but I will start doing them again next week…I am also just waiting to get my P90X and Zumba DVDs…Does anyone have an opinion on those??

The weather is REALLY starting to get cold here…I hate being cold..I am just extremely glad that we do not get snow in South Africa, although the weat

her has changed so much these past few years..one never knows what might happen. But now with this cold drinking water and workingout seems like a pretty crap idea to me….Im not excited about it at all, but I suppose it is the price I have to pay for not doing anything in the summer, and I can definatly NOT wait till next summer to want to start loosing weight….Not another year of being fat…NO WAY!

I hope everyone is doing awesome!!!

 

Wondering May 5, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again, normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 5:33 am

I have done well this week….not 100%, but I did well….I have picked up weight for my week of not caring 2 weeks ago, but yet again….im getting on…surely all this falling off and getting back on the wagon must contribute to some weight loss???  ( I WISH)

I am starting to wonder if my need to loose weight is big enough…I mean I look at everything that everyone else is doing….and what I am doing just does not compare….and I know none of us are in a competition with each other, but I do find myself comparing my efforts with some of the members here…

So then I got to thinking to myself “why is it that I am SO motivated when I am not able to workout, BUT when I am able to then its like im half dead?”  Does anyone have advice for me…..I do know I must “JUST DO IT”…… But instead I find myself infront of the TV watching Gordon Ramsey and Jamie flaunting their culinary skills….. And when I am at work I am motivated beyond believe, but after an hours traffic and swearing at the idiots who drive on the roads I am pooped and I dont even want to cook…I would rather just veg infront of the tv, take a bath and be in bed by 9pm…

I hope everyone had an awesome weekend!!!

 

New thinking… April 30, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again, normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 1:56 am

Ok. So it has been abit more than a week since I have posted, but I am back, and I have joined a new thread at the forums “Fat Camp”

I have also realized that I am just over thinking and over analyzing and trying TOO hard.
I have to take it easy and allow myself to embrace this new lifestyle instead of drilling myself to the point where I feel I want to break down and give up.

So many people have done this…why cant I?

YES, I do have an addiction to food.
YES, It does make me feel better when I am anxious or bored or stressed.
YES, I do associate food with love ( i invite people over to cook for them….Its like me showing them I love them)

So I am going to work on the following:

  • I am going to try a worry less about food
  • Instead of eating when I feel these emotions I will do something else like phone a friend, get up and take a walk in the garden, blog
  • I am going to focus on eating better again and focus on saying no to the “bad stuff”
  • I am going to make sure I drink enough water…..winter sucks, but NO EXCUSES
  • I will do at least an hour workout everyday (P90X, Taebo, Zumba)
  • If I am really tired, I will atleast go for a 30min walk
  • I will focus more on what I need and less on what other people say…this is my struggle…not theirs

 

Oh Monday! April 22, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 3:41 am

I am just really NOT feeling this Monday! I am starting to get the flu and I have so much stuff to do, but I just really could not be bothered.

Last week I was mostly good regarding my food…I did have a few slip ups here and ther, and I had my TOM so I was just like  “whatever” I didnt workout too much last week…well basically all I did was…my Taebo on monday and then squats for the rest of the week…I was just so tired. But now that im getting sick I hope to still do some kind of workout. Does anyone have any idea as to what I can do even if im sick?

I lost (after the TOM stopped) another 0.5kg, which probly would have been more if I just didnt eat some of the crap that I did, and if I worked out a little more….damn I irritate myself when I am like that!

I dont have much news..my head is in a funk with all this grossness in my nose and stuff ( grossss)

I hope you all have an awesome week…I will be reading but I might not be posting.

 

Squat Challenge April 17, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 4:02 am

Firstly I would like to send my condolences to everyone in Boston. Everyone who was affected by the terrible acts of people who have no soul. My prayers are with you.

I was snooping around on the Forum and saw a 30 Day Squat Challenge (thank you BootylisiousB)
It got me thinking that surely these little squates cannot be stronger than me….sooooo I accepted!!!

Today was the first day that I did them- 50 squates. It went well and I can feel them working. My knees didnt give me any problems which I am happy about.
I also involved the girls at work, and added a little motivator ( money) at the end to keep us going. The one girl was very cocky in saying that this is nothing and she jogs every day….she then took the longest to do her 50 and was the one complaining the most after.

Im excited about this challenge…day 30 is 250 squates (ok that might scare me!)

I was bad yesterday (tuesday) I didnt work out after work and I also didnt eat right as my friend said we should go out for dinner…damn delicious pork ribs and onion rings!

And today I cannot stop thinking about food!!!!  Im at my PC and thinking…hmmmmmm what is in the fridge…hmm is it not time for lunch yet…hmmmm what can i stuff in my mouth….. its driving me insane… I am trying to fill those hmmmms with water and green tea….my body has taken over my mind!!!!

I only have to get through 2 more hours without eating anymore…only 2!
How hard can it possibly be??? I need to focus on my work and forget that food exists for the next 2 hours!

Have a good one ladies!

 

WARNING April 15, 2013

Filed under: Who is Candace?, normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 11:44 am

Ok…So this post also comes with a warning of……If you do not want to see what I look like…stop reading now.
I am actually scared that I might make someone (or maybe a few people) sick……Take this as your warning.

So WHile I am working up the courage to post my pictures here is what I did tonight.

When I got home I did some workout thing that my hypno therapist  told me about (she saw it on some program about loosing weight) It basically works like this: 20secs of intense workout (as hard as you can) then 2 mins rest and repeat 3 times…apparently the guy who did this lost the most weight, but then obviously you do your normal workout aswell….I thought it was a load of BS, but when I did my 3rd rep…I was feeling it a little ( for this I used the Orbitrek. I think in the US you call it the Eliptical) Then I did my Taebo DVD. I then started my healthy dinner and did squats while I was cooking… my knees hurt while I was doing them…so by the look of my pics…do you think I am too heavy to be doing squats at the moment??

THis is your last warning!

My Dinner tonight

You were warned!

I told you.

So I do apologize if I have scared anyone for life…but I did warn you.
I think that I have only put the pics up now cos I was afraid that putting them on will make me have to take more responsibility for my weight, but I am doing it…no more pitty ass excuses!!!

 

What do yo think?

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 12:11 am

Hello Pretty ladies!!

Ok…I do not want to sound dramatic or anything, but some people may not like what I am going to tell you now.
SO if you are against hypnosis, then you should stop reading now.

Ok so.  Friday afternoon I went for hypnosis for weightloss. I read another girls blog who also did it a few years back and she said that it has worked for her. I am not expecting any DRAMATIC changes or sudden spurts of weightloss, im just hoping it will be a little easier and that I will not want food as bad, and I must say I feel like I am doing ok. I know it is not just going to be one session and then BOOM I will be skinny/ fit (oh I could only dream) But I want to implement the things that she told me into my life and see where it takes me. Let me know what you think about it?

Friday eve I slept like I was never going to wake up…It was so Fantastic!! And then I did wake up just past 7am…oh the pure blissssss!!! and 9am I was working out…ME??? Workingout on a Saturday??? Unheard of…but I DID IT!!!
I felt so awesome!!! I felt inspired and morivated and just good all round.

I went to the shops and I bought ingredients to bake a cake. So I baked a cuppachino/caramel cake for my granny…I love baking cake….she loves eating cake….seems like a win win to me :-)

I was pretty good this weekend, although I am avoiding the scales for a little while….. Im excited for this week!!!

 

Im to scared to blog!!! April 10, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again, normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 12:06 am

Hello beauties!!!

Ok, so for the past few weeks or so I have been getting like some kind of spam comments on my blog…when I logged in this morning there were 57!!!! YES!!! 57!!

I dont think there are even 57 of us active bloggers at the moment!!!! Everytime I post I get more and more of these shit comments…its like a chatroom on my comments page and it is driving me INSANE!!!!!
I have contacted 3FC regarding this, but NO ONE has replied to me or anything…can anyone here MAYBE help me? Is anyone else also getting this crap??

Ok so that was my moan for the morning….
I went home after work and when I got there I sat on my bed thinking about if I really wanted to put my workout clothes on, and put my DVD on and do some exercise…..the answer was no!!

So then I got to thinking about you guys, and how hard you guys workout, and I thought about these pictures I always put at the bottom of my posts, and I thought to myself… ” You get your big butt up, get on your workout clothes and …DO IT!!!!!”
And so I did…I got dressed, put on my dvd, I got excited and I got to workingout. And I was SO happy I did!!
I felt great afterwards, I realise I then automatically try to make better food choices.

I went to my sister for dinner, and I heard that she was now making some kind of processed meat with her salad, so I decided to buy a grilled hake and not eat the processed meat with my salad.

It feels great to be back on track again….Im loving it……I dont know why I ever fell off….hahahahahaha

Make today a great day ladies!!

 

I have come to realise…. April 8, 2013

Filed under: Getting Motivated again, normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 11:26 pm

…that i will eat and eat and eat till I am filled to the point of exploding…I do not know why I do this.

I made myself some Thai green chicken curry yesterday and I thought to myself…” oh people who are alone and dont cook for themselves are silly…I got this cooking for one down to a T”  So I had my lunch…..I ate and ate and ate till my food was finished…I was so full and uncomfortable (sick) and then like a half hour after that I was so tired I could barely keep my peepers open even if you paid me to!!!

So i realized that I have a fear of not having enough food… Shit knows why cos im the size of a baby elephant!!
So I eat and eat and eat till there is nothing left to eat and then I feel like crap for eating so much and physically I am drained…..WOW   what an eye opener!!
And the thing is that it is not just that way with lunch…its breakfast and lunch and dinner….i need to feel completely full. someone once blogged about it feeling or simulating a hug…and i must say I kinda agree with that.

So today I will pop out to the shop and get some salad goodies to make a nice salad and some veggies for a veg soup…stupid delicious Thai green curry no more!!!
My sister invited me for a dinner of fish and salad so I am looking forward to that….no cooking for me toninght (booya) but first I will be doing some time in the gym…I LOVE GETTING MY GROOVE BACK!!!

 

Making April my bitch April 3, 2013

Filed under: normal day to day — tryingbeauty @ 11:14 pm

Firstly…sorry if I offended anyone with my title.

I have now been carless for 2 weeks and have to sleep at work still cos I stay far from work. This makes it very difficult to work out as there is no DVD machine where I can do some Taebo, I barely packed enough work clothes, so I didnt even think about workout clothes…sooooo my very bad planning in packing my clothes also leads to very bad planning in my meals…I brought food along with me which is healthy, but I end up making bad decisions anyway……I am frustrated and irritated that I want something so bad, but my bad habbits are just in control,…and yes, I do know that I am allowing them….I just dont know how to stop.

Im reading all the Blogs and I find myself so motivated by some and totally agreeing with others about the challenges and feelings of being tired and frustrated and overwhelmed. But then when im feeling all of these things…when I log off I feel lost…I dont know how to do what I need to, then I make a choice to do so good and I start off with a BANG and then it starts going south again… I have had since the beginning of this year to start losing weight…I have lost only 3kg… So now I am highly motivated again (hens the title of this post) and I want to do this (and my freakin time is running out to be skinny for my friends wedding). I suppose the main thing is that I have not given up on this..im still trying to make good choices…even though I fail sometimes….I just need to stay strong.

So in other news…. I went on a date Tuesday evening with the guy mentioned in my previous post (the good one…not the douche bag)…and apparently now I am in a relationship. I say apparently cos its all abit weird still to be in a relationship as it had been like a year since (I have dated someone, and I dont really feel like I am with someone…its odd…i know. But he is a really sweet guy, and he likes me(so he says) and I do like him aswell. He makes me feel beautiful…oh my word im sounding like a school girl!!!
I suppose it will have to be a risk I am taking to see what happens…I am just going to enjoy his company and see what happens.

Have a good one ladies :-)

 

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