A fat girl’s quest to freedom

My love/hate relationship with Jillian

Ok…the first time I did 30DS, I was positive and ready to go. I had no problems with my second and third time either…but today…I feel like she’s torturing me. I don’t know why I’m having so much trouble working through this today. What I’m feeling as I trudge through this is frustration, emotional anguish and anger. I DON’T need her to tell me that I can do it if I just push through it! I’m tired and my knees are making odd noises! I don’t CARE that she’s had 400lb people doing jumping jacks, I’m worried about me and quite honestly the jarring that I feel in my body as a land is NOT pleasant! But no matter how much I hate her right now, I won’t let her break me. I don’t care if it takes me all day to get through it, I will finish it.  Ok! I’m done ranting…for now. Back to 30DS >:(

2 Responses to “My love/hate relationship with Jillian”

  1. I’ve only heard a little about 30ds, so I can’t say that I know what you’re going through. All I can say is don’t sabatoge yourself - you posted on that earlier, and you’re right on. I deal with the exact same thing. Be firm with yourself. If you set out to do the workout, then do it. NO excuses! Like you said, even if it takes you all day to get through it, you WILL finish it.

    You go, girl!!

  2. Thanks for the encouragement and the reminder. I finished strong last night.

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