The quest for happy imperfection…

So… how’d I do? Not too shabby for being flabby. That’s how.  Let’s recap.

First goal of the day- failure. I woke up 15 minutes early, swung my legs out of bed, then swung them right back in. I managed to acquire a very nasty sunburn this weekend, and I knew that working out just wasn’t going to happen. (I’m game for tomorrow though.) I must say though, I find it absolutely hilarious that I went the entire summer in Tahoe without a sunburn to speak of, and totally fried myself in San Francisco at the end of September. Just goes to show, even if you don’t think you’re going to be outdoors for long, lay it on thick!

Food was GREAT. I planned everything out, packed extra snacks just in case, and even made myself eat breakfast. I made some zucchini bran muffins last night and I’m proud to report that they were actually really good, and only 60 calories a piece at that! Initially, they terrified me. They looked very healthy and smelled branny. But, I sucked it up and yum! Way more moist than any bran muffin I’ve ever had. Though, next time I’ll sub canned pumpkin for applesauce and add some nuts to up the fiber and protein.  Maybe some shredded carrots too.

I’m one glass away from my water goal, I tracked everything on the daily plate, and Lucy and I had a lovely little spin after work. So far, so good.

In other news, my lamps came in today! Yes! A couple weekends ago, DH and I switched our bedroom from the front room to the back. We got a new mattress (went from a double to a Cal King), changed up our sheets, got a TV, etc. So on Saturday the bed frame finally came in (three cheers for no longer having our mattress and boxsprings on the floor… bad college flashbacks!) Got that assembled and wow, does it look good. It’s the perfect height to go with the velvet bed skirt I got for 2.99 (have I mentioned that I have a knack for bargains?) So, as soon as I get our nightstands this Thursday we’ll be this much closer to being done. (Still need a tv armoire, and someday, when I make up my mind, a headboard)

It’s amazing to me what a change it’s made. Not just in the room, but it seems like the whole thing has made a difference in me. We went through our closets, and I finally threw out all the clothes that don’t fit (save for a few sentimental pieces). It’s like I’ve let go of what used to be, and I’m moving forwards. I feel like this time I’m starting things fresh, without the baggage of failure or expectations. Yeah, I expect to lose weight and be smaller. But it’s no longer tied to the same idea of going back to what I used to look like. Do I hope to be that size or smaller? Yeah. But I’m not that person anymore, I need to enjoy the Jessica I am, instead of mourning the Jessica I used to be. There’s nothing about my current place in life to be depressed about, or to consider shameful or regrettable.  I’m starting a truly new life, and I’m creating the new environment to match.

So, today’s recap. Weighed in at 208.5 (surprisingly, wasn’t upset or affected by the number) Stuck with 4 out of my 5 goals. 1354 calories (dailyplate gives me 1682)

Excited about: my zucchini bran muffins (recipe to follow shortly), making my own sushi, my new lunchbox, sexy lamps. Nervous about: for once, nothing.