Well that didn’t work so well… March 30, 2008
Yeah. Let’s just say that I’m pretty much disgustingly full, and have been for the past two days or so. Ugh. Not good, not good at all.
I guess I’m really just struggling with the whole concept of motivation. Which is why I probably need to stop depending on motivation and just do it. Hmm. Yeah, sounds great. Theories are fabulous. I wish I felt like losing weight. I wish I craved lean protein and veggies. I wish I felt the need to workout every night. Yep. Not me. Ugh. Time to go back to the drawing board.
Friday was a bit of depression- had a body composition done. Eek!!! We’re doing this health challenge thing at work and so I had to get my body comp done. The good the bad and the ugly :dun dun dun!: The good- I’m overweight and not obese. The bad: I have 41% body fat. The ugly: I have to lose 20 pounds to reach the top end of a healthy body weight. Eek. I also found out that, if my body did not have any fat at all, I’d be 111 pounds. Obviously, I need fat to live. But, it’s still sad to realize that I’m almost 80 pounds of fat. Then I made the mistake of comparing that to the weights of other things. Never good.
So it’s time to get something to change. My new plan: Just do it. Quit waiting for motivation. Quit waiting until it’s easy or fun. It’s just not going to work that way. So, I’ve just spent an hour or so casually planning out my workouts for this week. (I’m going to start another page of weekly planning). I’m not going to plan out my meals for the week… I find that normally leads me to lash out. But, I’m going to offer myself a few suggestions. And make some scrambled eggs for my breakfasts.
So here we go again. I’m trying to see things in a positive light. Eternal optimist, you bet. And so, I know that the more I fall and get up again, the stronger my commitment will become. Not that I’m going to use that as an excuse to fall. But, I know that this is only going to keep me down if I let it. I read a GREAT quote the other day “Failing on a diet one day and using that as an excuse to give up is like tripping on one stair and deciding you might as well throw yourself down the rest.” Or something like that. I’m commited to recreating a lifestyle. Three weeks to establish a habit, right? Day one tomorrow.
love the quote. good luck on starting back into things. i found that, after the first day, it was a lot easier to stick with it.
-k
Ok we are in the same thought pattern. Yesterday I say Larry the cable guy talking about weight and something about bowling balls. I think he lost 50lbs or 40lbs and that’s 5 balls. ugh! I just can’t comprehend losing 3 or 4 or 5 bowling balls worth of fat.