The quest for happy imperfection…

197.5. Yay! Finally, moving back in the right direction, and away from the horrible 188 that has stuck around since mid-Feb.

Friday.. got a little derailed. I’ve spent the past few weeks battling the horrible and insurmountable topic of the future. Unfortunately, I’ve come to the conclusion that we’re going to have to leave paradise to make things happen. Friday I finally came face to face with that reality, and it hit me hard. I didn’t binge, I didn’t make any truly horrible choices… but I needed some work on portion control. So, in a lot of ways, I’m proud of myself. Wish I had been a little better but, really, what are you going to do. Right?

Saturday- not bad. No breakfast- which is pretty typical for a Sat. Had a Subway swich and split a bag of chips with hubby. Had a turkey mignon, some veggies, and some potatoes au gratin for dinner. Unfortunately, hit the snacks a little hard before dinner- dipping tortilla chips in refried black beans and some cheese with reckless abandon. Tortilla chips are my kryptonite. Normally, I don’t allow them in the house because I can’t not eat them. DH, sadly, has gotten fed up with the chip probation and has begged for parole. Success- I can leave them alone. Provided, of course, that DH doesn’t put them in front of me. So, now we can keep them in the house- yay!

Today wasn’t bad- more potatoes au gratin, asparagus, honey ham, and rolls for dinner, part of a pastrami sandwich for lunch, cereal for breakfast. Finished off dinner with some strawberry shortcake…. but, I had to. It was too good. And, suprisingly, one slice of the cake was only 110 calories. So, I went for it. I did inadvertantly snack on 2 funsize skittles bags but for Easter, that’s nothing.

I’m just now getting around to inputting all of my foods into mydailyplate but, I give myself a little slack on the weekends. After my near meltdown on Friday, I tried to take it easy on myself for the weekend. I didn’t push the whole diet thing too much, but I was really trying to keep myself away from eating emotionally. While my eating wasn’t entirely OP, mainly due to portions, I didn’t eat anything when I wasn’t hungry (except for some of the predinner snacking on Sat) so I can’t get too mad.

Friday1883 /Saturday1460 /Sunday1772- Aiming for 1535 for -2 lb per week (according to mdp) Not great, but, much better than I have been. And, we’re getting there.