So I had to buy a new pair of pants today… February 12, 2008
Sadly, not because they didn’t fit. No, no. My adorable sweetheart Sierra effectively turned a pair of my jeans into chaps by chewing out the inside of the legs down to the knee and up through the crotch. All in about, oh, 45 seconds. Maybe she’s telling me that I should be a red neck stripper? And, yeah, I still wear the same size. Sad. But, hey, it probably means I’m just losing weight all over?
Speaking of losing weight- I stepped on at 186 today. That’s 10.5 pounds. Not bad. Granted, water weight, I’m sure. But, atleast that means we’re close. So I’m pretty stoked about that. Still don’t feel like I’m losing weight, but I’m not going to let that neurosis get me down again.
Today was pretty good. I started off the morning with some scrambled eggs and a little bit of cheese again. Very good. I skipped my morning snack, and had my leftover gnocchi with squash. Since it wasn’t a meatless Monday, I added in an Italian chicken sausage (also from Trader Joe’s) Perfect, but, once again, couldn’t finish it all. Had another fruit leather, yum. Afternoon snack… um… I fell for the cupcake’s siren song. Damnit. But, I forced myself to throw half of it away. I then went over to mydailyplate, riddled with guilt and shame. Turns out the cupcake wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought. Oh. Hmm. Well, good self-control!
So I didn’t end up going to Thai tonight. Which left me in a bit of a tough spot in that my calories yesterday ended up low, like under 1000 low, and today was low as well. Now, part of me was tempted to just roll with that. But, I realize that I’m losing weight at right around 2lbs a week on 1600ish calories a day. Dropping that far below that (if I would have kept up with my original back up plan, I would have had 2 sub1000 net calorie days) for 2 days in a row, probably not a good idea. Before, when I tried to lose weight (key word, tried) I was eating 1300-1400 calories and didn’t lose a pound. Clearly, low calories don’t work for me. So, I had to figure out a way to eat roughly 1000 calories for dinner. I thought I would have enjoyed that. No. Not really. It was actually really hard for me to let go and go for it. Really, I just wanted my 300 calorie stirfry and maybe a French truffle. But, considering the rest of the week is planned out to be pretty low in calorie as well, I had to up it somewhat. Finally, I decided on Applebees (we don’t have much to choose from for take-out) and had onion rings, steak, a baked potato, some mac and cheese, and a dessert shooter. Looking at it now, and after finishing it… not really that happy about it. The potato was good, the dessert was great, the rest was… well, Applebees. I’m def having some remorse over the whole thing. But, when all is said and done, I was only over by 281. And, when you count in the calories burned from my 30 minute walk at lunch, I was only 86 calories over.
Obviously, I went for a walk today at lunch with Sierra- 30 minutes and 1.5 miles, with some decent hill work as well. I didn’t make it jogging or running tonight. I was feeling unmotivated, and my back was killing me. I have it worked out for tomorrow though. But now I’m trying to decide if I should really run the 5k or not. I just haven’t been committed to my training schedule. By the end of the week, I should be back in full swing, but, that’s almost 3 weeks cut out of a 9 week program. Granted, weeks 1 and 2 were totally easy for me. But week 3 is a little iffy. I mean, I still have time to fit in those three workouts, but still. I have a few weeks until I HAVE to register, so I guess I’ll play it by ear.
Today’s reason to give it my all: I want to live the motto “I can do anything I put my mind to”
Oh yeah, she TOTALLY thinks you are the redneck stripper type. She just couldn’t figure out a way to tell you without hurting your feelings. I guess you know, now.
Haha, it’s good you are getting new pants anyways I suppose. I am learning you do lose more weight by eating more as well, but isn’t it weird how some days we actually have to force ourselves to actually eat that much? I can’t believe it. It seems so unnatural to eat more to lose weight. Huh, who knew. You can do it! Grab that pole and dosey-do… ;p
Good job on trying not to eat too few calories. I’m the same as you–I need to eat to lose weight. I just have all these irrational thoughts about how less food is always better.
So about this gnocci…what brand is it? What section of Trader Joe’s might I find it in? What other Trader Joe’s goodies do you love? I just got a job, so I’ll be able to afford some more interesting food than I have been eating, and I think Trader Joe’s would be a good place to start.
Congrats on the 10 pounds! That’s awesome! =] 2 pounds a week isn’t that shabby at all, that’s quick! But I do know how you feel, the first 10 pounds for me didn’t make me feel like I lost much. I looked at myself and didn’t see much of a difference. It was 20 pounds that did it for me. But I’m sure there was a difference, I just didn’t see it.
And isn’t it crazy that you need to eat more to lose more!? Weird. Sometimes I’ll find myself stuffing my face to make up for those calories. But whatever, that’s awesome!
Oh, and of course…sorry about your pants. Perhaps Sierra WAS trying to tell you something. Maybe she thinks you need to shake that new body all over the place…with no pants on. Screw pants! Who needs pants, honestly!?!? They just get in the way of life.