How goes the battle? February 11, 2008
Well, so far we have lost:
9.5 pounds
4 socks, one beanie, a pen, a steak knife handle, and three erasers. (Courtesy of my most adorable piece of fitness equipment)
My fear of running
A couple inches
Supreme love of fast food
And, most of my truly detrimental food cravings
That’s where we are right now. And, hallelujah, it seems the cloud o’ funk has lifted. I can’t say that I really did anything tio keep it at bay, other than ride it out. But I made it. My first real bout of doubt and loathing. I’m getting back on track, and I’m excited to start this week off on the right running foot.
So, the scale is moving down again, depsite the fact that I haven’t done anything to encourage it to do so. On Saturday, the scale read 187- a new low and 9.5 pounds away from my starting point. I’m choosing to not consider this my weight until I’ve seen it or lower for a few days in a row. But, I am dangerously close to having lost ten pounds. Excise me as I throw myself a mini party.
I haven’t really gotten in any exercise this week, and haven’t even walked poor Sierra as much as I should have. Good thing she’s adorable, because she’s driving me nuts. Though, she can’t help it. She looks at me with thoe big brown eyes that say “I can’t help it! I’m part Border Collie. I should be herding sheep! You can’t blame me for chasing the kitties!” Then again, one of the cats totally torments her. Steps on her, chases her, bats at her. Sticks her paw in her food bowl when she’s trying to eat. Eats her food. She almost got her little butt eaten the other night though, she tried to take Sierra’s bone. A nice, fresh, knuckle bone from the butcher. Love only goes so far.
But, it all goes to show me that, yes, exercise is about more than losing weight. This week I HAVE to get going on my 5k training. And you know what the sad thing is? I like running. I actually am starting to really enjoy it. But, I just can’t make myself put my shoes on, dig out the uniboob sports bra and go. This week, I will. It all seems to be timed just right. The 5k is March 30th, which is just enough time to finish training for the 5k and start training for the sprint distance triathlon in June. I figure as long as I keep myself working towards a goal I’ll ge in good shape. (Hardy-har). I know it’s a lot to aim for for my first year of getting back in shape, but I’ve always been someone who is all or nothing. I’ve done nothing (that got me fat) so I figure might as well try all.
Food hasn’t been so great over the past few days. But, I did work on kind of paying attention. DH and I went out to dinner at Hard Rock Cafe the other night. We had a big odl appetizer sampler, I had soem sort of BBQ duo, and we shared dessert. Definitely over calories for the day- probably just in that meal alone. But, we hadn’t been out to dinner in a month or more, due to crazy work schedules. And, even more importantly, I was realtively smart about it. No, I didn’t order a salad (eew), I ordered what I wanted. But, I was careful to only eat what I was hungry for. When dessert came, I only ate a few bites. Normally I would feel guilty that we had just paid like 8 bucks for a brownie sundae I barely touched, but I really wanted the sundae, and only ate what I wanted. There is a silver lining to the whole thing.
Progress, even if it’s slow, is still progress.
Today’s reason for choosing the “road less traveled”: I want to be able to stand at the finish line of a race, sweaty, exhausted, and smiling- knowing I did something I previously thought was impossible.
leanmoomercows- Thanks for the encouragement! I’m glad to know I’m not the only one like me though. While other people are the kind to keep the world spinning, we’re the kind who keep the people on it from attacking eachother with pitchforks. It was actually really hard to think of the list though- not because I’m particularly down on myself, or suffer from low self esteem. I’ve just not thought of myself in that way. You should totally try it though. No fair copying though 
Mizu- Thanks for the good words. You know, the sad thing is that, once I get to the gym, I love it. In my 5+ years of being a gym rat (now I’m more like a gym ground squirrel) I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve had to really push myself to finish a workout (other than from being extremely tired or sore). I can’t count the number of times I’ve had to fight myself to go. Weird huh?
Hm, I think it’s just as well… I mean, some people really love going to the gym. I love staying away from the gym… though I’m doing crunches starting tonight. The belly has to go! You are doing so well, though. I’m even proud you don’t even seem to be lamenting eating at the Hard Rock Cafe (I know I would). I wish I could just roll it off like you do. I know tomorrow I should be back down, but it’s still hard. I would have never thought you had a fear of running since you do it so much, so it’s surprising to find out you had one! But wow, your progress is going so well. Keep it up!
I’m impressed that you let “cheating” (going over calories) just roll off your back. I way envious! I would be beating myself up for a week about it! And I would have gotten a salad *shudders at thought* because I’m so scared to stray away from my plan. At least not until I’m at goal. Maybe then I’ll stray! ;]
And that’s great about the lost inches, weight, fear, and cravings (not so much on the things that it sounds like your dog ate??)! Congrats!!! Almost at 10 pounds!? That’s fantastic! Have you noticed clothing fitting looser yet? You must be stoked! I also do not miss fast food. Every now and then I find myself thinking about it; but then I think about what’s in it. Or I go and check the calorie content and fat/carb content online and I feel better. Haha, nothing like the truth to keep me away! =P It works though.
You should be having a mini-party, it really seems like you’ve come far! Congrats! =D