Small victories, like, really small… February 1, 2008
I left the grocery store without a donut. That’s about as good as yesterday’s successes got. I was STARVING all day. The combination of icky weather and whacked out hormones have lead to a raving “must eat an entire chocolate cake NOW” lunacy. I am constantly hungry, but nothing makes me full. I caved. I bought a bag of chips. Lime Tostitos, to be specific. It was a pretty near free for all. I also bought a box of 100-calorie pack Hostess cinnamon streusel cakes. Can’t be that bad, right? Only 100 calories! Yeah, until you eat 3 of them. So, yesterday wasn’t so good. But, it’s been my only binge day really since I got started, so I won’t beat myself up over it. Now I just have to recover and get back on track, hormones be damned.
Once again, I didn’t make it to the gym. I’ve decided to drop the class and sign up for the 7 week class that starts on February 19. In the meantime, I need to figure out somewhere that’s relatively non-icy that I can run, considering I’m supposed to be running in a 5k at the end of March. Hehe. Oops! Well, if nothing else, I know that I can finish a 5k, even if I have to walk parts of it. I did get out and take Sierra yesterday for a twenty minute walk. So I’m not a complete and total failure. Unfortunately, the weather has just been so crappy (high winds and snow) that walking around outside just isn’t any fun. I wish I just had a treadmill at home- Sierra and I could take turns! But, I don’t even think I have anywhere to put it. So, that’s a pipedream.
I’m just feeling bitchy and apathetic. I hit back at 191 this morning. Now, I know that’s TOM related, but I can’t help but have a little minifreakout over it. I haven’t been eating well the past few days (I had been too lazy to go grocery shopping) and the exercise really wasn’t happening either. I think that’s what’s really bringing me down. I need to figure out how to get some good exercise in tonight to make up for it. I think we’ll go for another long walk tomorrow as well. Atleast Sierra forces me to get in 20 minutes a day or more. Today at lunch we probably won’t walk, because I have a lot of running around to do. We’ll see. I think I need to ban myself form the scale for a week. 191 is playing mind games with me.
You left the grocery store without buying a doughnut! Woohoo!!
(Sometimes you just have to keep the focus on your successes, however small…)
I agree, you had a victory. (Forget about the other things.) Although you did make me realize that not picking up the 24 (I think) pack of 100 calorie snacks today at Costco was a good thing. I had it in my hand and remembered the Halloween fiasco.
‘It’s just my T.O.M., it’s just my T.O.M.’
Just repeat that to yourself and you’ll be fine. I know I did! Over and over again. I lose 2.4 pounds over two nights after mine ended. So, in closing, it was worth it to put up with that because it all turned out good in the end. I was stalled and gaining for two weeks, so I know yours can’t be as bad as that! Just hang in there. Water weight is nothing you can’t get rid of without Correctol, anyways.
Okay, joking about that last part. But yeah. It’ll come off, and then you’ll see your true weight + what you lost. For every minifreakout you have, there will be one joyous celebration when it is all over! Hang in there!
Don’t worry about that small “binge”, you’ll be fine. Consider it a small food reward/treat for making as far as you have thusfar. You seem to be doing so well otherwise, you’re doing great!
It’s that T.O.M. for me too, I totally feel your pain. I don’t dare step near that scale right now. I’m too emotional and full of water weight. I would cry all my water weight away! haha
I’m with you as far as the weather goes. Winter is just not a good time to try and get into an exercise routine. I love nature and taking hikes and going for walks outside. So when winter comes, I feel like some kind of recluse…hiding away and hibernating. It makes me FEEL fat, even if I am losing weight.
Good luck!