Small victories, like, really small… February 1, 2008
I left the grocery store without a donut. That’s about as good as yesterday’s successes got. I was STARVING all day. The combination of icky weather and whacked out hormones have lead to a raving “must eat an entire chocolate cake NOW” lunacy. I am constantly hungry, but nothing makes me full. I caved. I bought a bag of chips. Lime Tostitos, to be specific. It was a pretty near free for all. I also bought a box of 100-calorie pack Hostess cinnamon streusel cakes. Can’t be that bad, right? Only 100 calories! Yeah, until you eat 3 of them. So, yesterday wasn’t so good. But, it’s been my only binge day really since I got started, so I won’t beat myself up over it. Now I just have to recover and get back on track, hormones be damned.
Once again, I didn’t make it to the gym. I’ve decided to drop the class and sign up for the 7 week class that starts on February 19. In the meantime, I need to figure out somewhere that’s relatively non-icy that I can run, considering I’m supposed to be running in a 5k at the end of March. Hehe. Oops! Well, if nothing else, I know that I can finish a 5k, even if I have to walk parts of it. I did get out and take Sierra yesterday for a twenty minute walk. So I’m not a complete and total failure. Unfortunately, the weather has just been so crappy (high winds and snow) that walking around outside just isn’t any fun. I wish I just had a treadmill at home- Sierra and I could take turns! But, I don’t even think I have anywhere to put it. So, that’s a pipedream.
I’m just feeling bitchy and apathetic. I hit back at 191 this morning. Now, I know that’s TOM related, but I can’t help but have a little minifreakout over it. I haven’t been eating well the past few days (I had been too lazy to go grocery shopping) and the exercise really wasn’t happening either. I think that’s what’s really bringing me down. I need to figure out how to get some good exercise in tonight to make up for it. I think we’ll go for another long walk tomorrow as well. Atleast Sierra forces me to get in 20 minutes a day or more. Today at lunch we probably won’t walk, because I have a lot of running around to do. We’ll see. I think I need to ban myself form the scale for a week. 191 is playing mind games with me.
