Oops! January 9, 2008
Well, I did weigh in this morning… 191.5 baby! I might even throw a running man into that happy dance.
Sadly, I didn’t make it to the gym. And, it had nothing to do with my back. Instead, it had everything to do with my snooze button. Since DH had the overnighter last ngith for work, I didn’t have anyone to nudge, grunt at, kick, or otherwise maim me should I let the damned thing go off for too long. I need to kick it in gear, I’ve got miles and hours to log!!! But tonight I’ll take a couple minutes to figure out my plan of attack for the gym comeback. I’m thinking first course of action is not dying. How’s that sound?
Well, food wasn’t going too badly. I couldn’t bring myself aorund to breakfast, so I had a pear and a cheesestick midmorning. For lunch, I came home and had a burrito and a pancake. I know that is probably one of the oddest combinations out there, and no I’m not pregnant. A pancake sounded like the perfect sweet end to lunch and I had the calories and time so why not? Luckily, I wasn’t hungry until I got home. So I got home, and got to work. I cut up and boiled some nice yukon golds for mashed potatoes, cut up some broccoli, and did the quick and easy chicken breast cooked in cream of chicken soup. Except for one problem- the chicken was nasty. Like, wash your mouth out with acid nasty. And, being as I’ve made a mini-pact with myself to stop eating food that doesn’t taste good, I couldn’t in good conscience continue to eat the chicken. That, and my husband is a good man, and if he’s going to die, he deserves to go out better than that. So then we had a big dilemma. I was starving, and when I get hungry, I get mean, and our chicken was revolting. Unfortunately, I fell victim to Burger Lounge and had a bacon cheeseburger with garlic fries. Yes, I could have gone healthier. However, I rarely eat there, and truly enjoy their food. So instead, I ordered what I wanted, savored every bite (inspiration via round), and stopped halfway through the burger. It could have been better, but it could have been worse. It was better tasting than McDonalds, that’s for certain!
Today was not a particularly good day. In fact, it was a bad day. My coworker was rude to me and in a crappy mood, and that, in turn, put me in a crappy mood. I know that I need to not let other people’s moods affect me, but in many ways, that’s just the way that I am. I pick up my mood from other people around me, especially when I’m stuck in one place with them for extended periods of time. So I’m hoping that I can use my bath as an attitude adjustment for tomorrow. I know she’ll be pissy again, and so I just need to figure out a better way to handle it. I think a gym workout will help alot. 
But, I am proud of myself. When I got home, I was all upset and just felt like eating. I especially didn’t feel like cooking. I wanted something like Taco Smell double decker tacos. But I didn’t have them. Instead, I prepped, put everything to cook, and poured a hot cup of extremely delicious lemon tea. Three cheers for new coping skills! Now I know, it’s still a form of consumption, but its calorie free. Even better, it isn’t mindless consumption. Instead, I took a cue from round (who I have found particularly inspiring today) and enjoyed the PLEASURE of tea. I rolled around the texture, the temperature and sweet sour mellow of lemon and a little bit of splenda. By the time my tea was gone, so was my bad mood.
Well, I had a bad idea this morning. I found my measuring tape. And in my sleep -fogged condition, thought it would be a good idea to use it. Ouch. Yeah. Luckily I’m not particularly interested and/or good at math. Otherwise, I had a mild curiosity as to my surface area, and its size reference compared to other objects, such as hot air balloons. Sigh. But, I know that this is a starting point. I can’t know how to get where I’m going if I don’t know where I’m starting. And let’s just say that there’s LOTS of room for improvement. Thinking positively, atleast my dressmaker’s measuring tape still fit around me! If I had had to resort the the 25′ free gift from Home Depot, we’d have real problems.
I didn’t get my bath in last night. It was either that or watch my taped episode of the biggest loser. And I love me some TBL. Thoughts on last night: the yellow team bugs me, atleast that dude does, Bette Sue or whatever her name is has surprised me with her resilience, and I’m glad to see realistic weight loss. Oh, you only lost 1% of your body weight this week? I would love to lose 1% of my body weight a week! Welcome the world of the rest of us!
