Here is a happy birthday wish to my ex-fiance, who left me at the day of our wedding, and gave me being over weight as reason:

Happy birthday my love. Even though you hurt me more then one soul could hurt another soul, i still love you.

Happy birthday my partner in crime, even though you bailed on me, i still love you.

Happy birthday my dear Z. I will always love you.

Did my morning ritual and stepped on the scale after the shower and it showed 299.6. Now keeping in mind that my homescale has always been off by 3 to 7 pounds, it still means that i saw 299.6 for the first time ever i can remember it in my life. I think am probably at 306 or 305 ( the gym scale will tell me tonight). BUt still 299.6

Had a good day yesterday, stuck on plan had a dinner with work, where i substituted garlic mashed potatoes as a side for steamed broccoli. My main dish was a salmon with some goat cheese and spinach. Absolutelty YUM and pretty much on plan.

Went to the gym after that, walked for 34 minutes, of which i could run 5 minutes STRAIGHT, i have never done that as far as i remember. So even though i saw 299 on my own scale today, the day is not far that i will see it on the MRC scale. I am betting it will be before the end of this month.

I am on a roll

My goal for today is to drink atleast 150 oz and hit the gym later tonight, and go for 30 minutes again on the treadmill.

i’ve been reading weightloss blogs all day and my new favorite one is The anti Jared . Tony is such an amazing inspiration, a guy who after being 420 pounds, hearing from his doctor that he needs a surgery or he will die, decides to work on his health and drops an INSANE amount of weight in a short period. Wow Tony, kudos to you.

Here is a pledge to my self that i am making:

1. My drink is WATER and just WATER, nothing else. No more sodas, diet, lite, whatever kind. Just WATER.
2. I will reach my MRC goal by my birthday.
3. I did this to myself and i will UNDO it to my self.
4. No more binging. NO MORE.
5. I will work out 5 times a week. Even if it means only running/jogging. I WILL DO THIS.
6. I will not eat anything that is not cooked.
7. I will blog about my emotions tied to food to help me along the way.

So here i go, i tend to use this private little space for myself to write down honestly about my diet. No more cheating, no more binging. I am going to do this the right way.

I had a bad weekend. Even though i painted my living room wall, food wise, i didnt stick to the MRC plan, had very little food saturday, was miserably constipated both saturday and sunday, and finally went to Target to buy the Philips laxative kids stuff. Chugged it down, and after several runs to the rest room, FINALLY after 5 days there was relief. I am pretty convinced, this was also the reason i lost merely a 0.5 lb on my WI on saturday.

Since i was in so much pain today, for some wierd reason, the logic that come up in my mind was order something REALLY bad and eat that, so that your stomach gets upset and you get a BM. After fighting my self for one whole day, i gave in today, ordered a Papa John Large pizza, ate it and indeed i had my BM. just STUPID STUPID STUPID. But i guess i can safely say that this was a very bad weekend and i need to get back on the horse tomorrow… and I WILL.

Let the new week begin!