My Weight Loss Experiment

223.4- That is the number on my scale this morning.

Heavy, tired, sick and ugly- how I feel lately.

Something needs to change. I am not meant to be this big. I am a mother of four children. I am supposed to be energetic, creative, happy and hopeful. Yesterday I was not all of those things.

Today I hope to change my attitude. I may not be energetic with all of this extra weight, but I will work to be happy and hopeful. The creative part will have to come later.

As of today I have a long list of symptoms that I believe are directly related to my weight, poor eating habits and lack of exercise.

I can barely breathe when I walk across the room.

I am so tired I could fall asleep at any moment.

I’m lazy, bloated, depressed. My skin looks horrible.

I’m honestly believe the clock is ticking and I probably have heard disease. I also believe that it’s probably in the very beginning stages and hope I can reverse whatever damage I’ve done. I feel stupid for letting it get so bad. I feel like a terrible parent for being such a poor example.

Later today I’ll see the doctor and have tests done to see if I have any immediate health needs that need to be taken care of, or any conditions that may have caused my health to take such a downward turn.

Meanwhile, I’ll be researching possible causes for fatigue. I have a feeling that if I can get that under control, losing weight will be easier.