Ruined in five minutes February 10, 2010
So yesterday once again it happens and I still can’t figure out how to turn my brain off from it or just avoid it completely. . So when I get home I pack up the girls and me and my husband go out to the store to buy some chicken and asparagus for dinner.. yummmm… So we get home and of course we have to wait for the chicken to thaw while I’m starving.. And what do I do.. Much on some potato chips . have some bread with cheese and totally feel like crap after wards.
I just don’t know why I ruin it for myself. I just don’t understand. I do soooo good besides that fact and I feel like I just sabatoge myself in a matter of minutes. I was just so hungry and it’s the “fat me” just wanting food and I don’t care how I get it. It’s horrible and the feeling afterwards just made me feel even more horrible. So that’s my one flaw at this moment. The gym part is great. I am totally on board and go everyday but that’s what is my huge problem that I need to fix. It just has to happen. I feel like I’m taking one step forward and two steps back . It is so discouraging knowing that I work so hard for nothing.. or so it feels.
Do you ever feel like your just trying for nothing and nothing will ever come of it. I know that what I’m doing is good and healthy,etc. But I’m having a downer day where I feel like what’s the point.. Why when I just ruin it for myself.
But anyways I will be strong and I can do this. I just have to control myself and think of a plan of attack. Maybe snacking before I go home from work so when I get home my tummy isnt on the loose for something bigger.. I dunno.. bla