Yep, way too long! I’ve been struggling with bingeing. Basically I’ve been on a long continuous binge for at least 2 weeks maybe more…I lost track of time. The past two days have gone very well. Yesterday was my first binge free day in a very long time. I got my Intuitive Eating book and my first learning package from Geneen Roth. My plan is to read the Intuitive Eating book first then tackle the Geneen Roth stuff. I’ve even looked into OA meetings. There are a lot here in Northern VA. I get all gung ho in the beginning and lose steam so I think I will start with the books first then decide if I need to do more. I may but we shall see.
TBL Challenge that is. I didn’t make it to 6 days of being binge free. I was already feeling guilty and I felt guilty about not being able to contribute to my team. To be honest its a load off. The past few weeks I have done some things that I think will really help me in the long term. I’ve been a quitter lately. I quit WW and I quit the challenge. Not having to weigh weekly will help. I’m so over weighing everyday also. I have noticed the binges are getting smaller which is good. I also noticed I wasn’t able to cram in as much as I normally would because I began to fill full when in the past it seemed my stomach was a bottomless pit. I’m a work in progress or as my blog title states I’m in the midst of “my evolution”.
What a long title..I know! But it captures what has been on my mind lately. I have been binge free for 5 days! I am so excited about that. I figured out the Shay Plan is a form of Intuitive Eating but not in its truest form because I still measure things and I still eat every two hours. In time that will come. After dieting for 20 years letting go of that will take some time. I had an IE success today. I made two things for lunch. I ate one bite of one and I thought I really don’t want this so I put it back in the fridge. The second thing I only ate 1/2 of what I planned because I felt satisfied. A miracle. Now for Geneen Roth, she is going to help me tackle binge eating with intuitive eating. See it all links together.
I’m not posting as much as I planned. That’s okay I’m doing pretty good. I am sticking with the Shay Plan and it is going well. I should be down when I weigh on Monday. I’m working on a reward list for being binge free and for meeting weight loss goals. It is actually hard to think of ways to reward yourself. I will continue to work on it.
to do this. I have been binging more and more these days. I have to figure out how to get out of this pattern. I know why I do it. Its related to many events that have occured in my life. I also know I’m not ready to seek any type of counseling..to be honest I think it would make me binge more. So I’ve got to figure out how to cope with this behavior. Well I did something new tonight and it worked. Every time I feel the urge to go back in the kitchen for more or just go to the bathroom I look in the mirror and have a talk with myself. The first one was a no nonsense one that went like this–”Have you lost your f’ing mind? You know you don’t need that food! Get it together girl! Make some sense here please. You know better!” The next time–”Girl you are doing so good, etc”. It’s worked so far. Here’s hoping it gets me through the night and continues to work!
Weighed in today and I lost 3 lbs. I am very happy with that because that means I am on schedule! Today is day 13 on plan and the “Watch Me Bloom” Challenge begins today. I’m excited. BF measured me and he will measure me week 4, 8, and 12. I will add the measurements to this blog.
how I can get on 3FC everyday at least 2-3 times a day and forget to post in my blog. It is day 10 and I am still doing pretty well. I weigh in on Sunday which will not be a full week. I’m hoping for a 3 lb loss. Let’s see what happens. Right now I’m not gonna push myself to exericse more than on Tuesdays during TBL. Its all I have in me right now and I’m okay with that.
After a week of being on plan and not using any extra flex points I am down 5! I’m excited about that. I will continue not using extra flex points and see how that goes. I did 30 minutes of exercise tonight during TBL. Today was a good day.
I weighed in this morning, everyday–I just have to, and it’s still the same. I will officially weigh in tomorrow then. Can’t wait. I have to report it in a few places too. I hope I remember them all. Most important is for TBL challenge. It’s day 7 and I’m still doing pretty good. I will exercise tomorrow during TBL. That way at least I will exercise one time a week. I wanted BF to do my measurements tonight but he is sleeping away. I want to do them before the week is up.
I’m not sure how he will affect my weigh in on Tuesday. I guess I can gauge that in the morning. If I weigh in and I’m up 2-3 pounds I know he is exerting his influence. In that case I will go ahead and record my weigh in from this morning. Still not exercising and fell asleep before drinking all of my water last night but I got in at least 64 oz. So this is Day 6 on plan.
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