And working my last nerve. Still slipping and sliding with my eating and water. No exercise yet. Oh well I won’t beat myself up. I have a lot going on right now so I just need to be patient and realize that I am human. I do have my Halloween Mini Goal and TBL Fantastic Season 4 Challenge goal. Generally things like that help me out. We shall see.
Okay as usual this show is an inspiration. I really liked what Wylie did because I work with people with disabilities on a daily basis. My favorite is Erik. He’s just nice. Marti is an ass. Didn’t he leave his wife for Amy? Whatever…! I like Poppi too. I identify with her because she’s short like me and her starting weight is similar to mine. Never mind the fact that right now I feel like I’m starving and I need some food. I do need to drink another 24oz of water before the night is up so that should get me through. I hope.
I was definitely doing better yesterday and I am OP today too. You feel so much better when you are eating right and taking care of yourself. Reading other’s posts and blogs help and I have alot of magazines that I need to catch up with that provide inspiration also. I went on e-bay to buy more trackers for WW and whew it has changed. I was a member in 2004 when everything was more convenient and fit in your black case. I love that because it is easy to take to work and on trips. The newer big books not so. Oh well.
Or as my friend Mary says: “eating like I’m not fat”. That’s what I was doing on Saturday and Sunday. I’m back on plan and doing well today. If weight loss was easy it wouldn’t be a billion dollar industry. There is so much emotional shit that goes along with it too that if you don’t touch that you’ll be right back where you started. I am so self aware its not funny but if I don’t do anything about it am I really self aware?
I am having a tough time today it and is only 9:34am. I sabotage myself all of the time. I bring items in my apt that I know I shouldn’t. Let’s see: Skinny cow, baked chips, wheat thins, peanut butter, vanilla ice cream. Currently I only have peanut butter but that is because I ate all of the skinny cow and baked chips. I don’t believe in deprivation so I don’t think any foods should be on the NO list but….this is not working. I sometimes wonder if I am afraid to be successful.
So I’ve been hitting the random blog repeatedly over the past few days. I’ve been trying to find blogs that I would like to add to my blogroll. There are some great ones out there. They just pull you in. What’s disappointing is there are also a lot out there that haven’t been written in since July or early August. There are also some that are out there that are empty shells. I can understand because life gets in the way sometimes but the blog is about you and you should always have time for you.
I am attempting to get back on. I lost my mind for two days and now I am back. I won’t say hopped up and excited to go but I’m here.
I gotta do it. I can’t think of the last time I actually exercised. So right now I am looking at my stability ball because I have to use it at some point today. Its orange (Go Gators!) so I like that. Ten minutes is a start. I will do abs and some upper body work. Tomorrow I might aim for the treadmill. We shall see.
The past two days I have not done well. Skinny cow will be my undoing. I can not bring those things in my apt. They are nothing but trouble. Then I got started on baked doritos. Now I can go my whole life without eating another baked dorito.
Okay my freezer is packed. I can not fit one more thing in it. I am set for a bit. I probably shouldn’t buy anymore yogurt either. I feel so much better when I have many healthy choices. It is near 8pm and I am still on my first bottle of water. I need to step it up. I probably need to use my Crystal Light on the go packs so I can down those two other bottles of water I want to get in. I also need to stop getting on the scale everyday. I know I’m eating as I should so I don’t need to check the scale all of the time. Tuesday’s weigh in day…stick with it!
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