Today is Day 19–binge free.  I’ve been having trouble along the way but I’ve been making it.  Feel your fullness is what I’m having difficulty with.  I knew I would because I’ve always eaten beyond full.  It is the next chapter in the book.  I bought my reward from www.shopunitee.com although I don’t officially earn it until I make it through tomorrow.  I’m sure the shirt won’t fit now but that is okay.  I got the “Live, Love, Laugh” pink thermal that Marlee Maitlin is wearing.  I’m starting to think what will the next reward will be.  I kinda have an idea but I need to research it.

Fit club at work began again on Thursday.  Its four of us ladies. I shared my IE book so now my friend/co-worker has bought the book too.  I’m excited about that because I will have someone close that will be doing the same thing as me. 

I am having trouble staying off the scale.  Its a work in progress.  When you are normally an everyday weigher its quite tough to go cold turkey.  I say my goal is to develop a healthy relationship with food and weight loss is secondary yet I’m continuing to get on the scale.  I’m not living what I’m saying.  I need to work on that.  I know its tied into the fact that I’m such a concrete person that I want to see evidence that what I’m doing is working and that evidence is weight loss measured by the scale.  I just need to put the scale away.  Right now it is still sitting in the bathroom.  I will put it away today.  I’ve already identified a pair of jeans as my gauge.  I will try them on in April rather than waiting for June because I desperately need some jeans.  If they don’t fit I will try them on again in May.  I will try them on again in June.  I will officially weigh in June.  The jeans will always be my gauge regardless if they fit or not.