New Blog

Posted by mshollyann on May 4th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

http://newsmallvictories.blogspot.com/

Hey! I have started a new blog. I was getting too much spam on this account. Please come check out my new posts!

New Blog

Posted by mshollyann on April 1st, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Hey Everyone!

I have decided to start a new blog on a different site. It is the same content just at a different website. I was getting too many spam comments on this one. I hope you will still come check it out.

Thanks,

Holly

I gained it, I lost it

Posted by mshollyann on March 26th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

1 week ago I had gained 4 lbs. before my weekly weigh in. Drinks and some heavier meals were the cause of it I think. Today I weighed in on my usual day and… I have already lost the 4 lbs. that I gained. Woot!

I was talking to a friend about the start of this journey and how I would freak out at any gain and even cried over eating french fries once. (Not my best moment) Then I got thinking about this 4 lb. gain. I didn’t freak, I got frustrated, but not upset. I have learned so much in a year about weightloss and my body. I knew without a doubt that I would lose that weight… where the frustration came from was that I waisted a few weeks losing what I had already lost before. BUT IT WAS OKAY.

I have come a long way in 1 year.

Jogging update: Still going strong. I have been running a longer distance. I can already feel the difference in my endurance.

Insecurity is still a factor

Posted by mshollyann on March 18th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

This weekend my sister came to visit. We always have a great time when she is here. We do the usual lunch and shopping routine, then we go out for drinks.

At one point she wanted to go dancing. I have a love hate relationship with dancing these days. I love to dance, but I am still insecure about what people are thinking and looking at when they are around me.

There have been a few times where I have been laughed at while out and about. A few years ago there was a guy dancing with me and I looked over my shoulder and saw his friends all laughing and taking pictures of us. I felt so embarassed. There have been a few other times and after the last one I swore to myself I wouldn’t be in that situation again.

Ever since, I have been really shy about going out dancning. I get nervous about being made fun of. It is one of those things I can’t explain. I hope some day to get over it because I love to dance.

Last night actually, was a fun night dancing. Thank goodness I worried for nothing.

I know I have lost a lot of weight and I should be more confident. I am much more than I was before but, I still have these set backs. Physically I am changing but mentally I still have to accept the fact that I am not the same person I was before.

Keep your head up.

Baby steps…

Posted by mshollyann on March 15th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I got the kicks, I got the attitude and I have new tunes… now what? :)

I started my jogging adventure on Sunday. Let me tell you how it went… slow. However! I will build my endurance like I have done at other times. The main thing to remember is not to try to do too much at once. I walk 1 song for a warm up. Then I jog for 1 minute and walk for 2 minutes and repeat. I feel so good afterwards.

Being over 200 lbs. I thought that it would be difficult to even try as much as I have. Yes I have to push myself but I can still do it. The biggest tip I got was “listen to your body”. Do what you physically can and just work your way up.

I am excited to start this and hopefully by the end of the…summer? I will be jogging on a regular basis.

Try new things!

But I thought I was loving myself?

Posted by mshollyann on March 7th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

I am confused on a comment I received from someone. I posted a quote about not losing weight but getting rid of it forever. I thought that was a good quote personally. You are making a lifestyle change not a quick fix.

I received a comment on it stating that one needs to love who they are no matter size, handicap or color. “Happiness and love should rule, not weight.”. (this is the second time I have had my happiness questioned) The reason I am confused on this …. aren’t I loving myself enough to want to get healthy? I was not happy at over 300 lbs. I have more energy now, I am more positive and I am working hard for myself.

Since starting my journey, I am a different person. Not just physically but mentally too. So I do not get where in that quote I am saying I don’t love myself. Maybe I am just not seeing it because I know what it means to me personally?

Any thoughts?

*Also I agree that happiness comes in all different forms for people. The only thing that matters is how you feel!*

Next level around the corner?

Posted by mshollyann on March 4th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I have that spark again. That spark of pure motivation to move things to the next level. This whole journey has been about moving from level to level when I am ready. You have to do it when you are ready, othewise it is doing too much at once.

Well it’s my time again. Now that spring is around the corner I am thinking more and more about jogging/ running. I did a bit of it last summer, but trying to do that while still carrying 250 plus lbs. is hard. Maybe this season is my time? I am willing to find out.

I have started going longer and faster on the elliptical and addiing weights in with it. I also rotate the bike and treadmill in there. My plan is to build up my endurance and then once the nice weather comes around start doing more outside. I think I can do this. IF not well, at least I am on to my next level in my journey.

Keep your head up!

Monday Morning weigh in…

Posted by mshollyann on February 27th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

I am having a mini celebration today. I have officially (because it is not official until I weigh in on Monday :) ) weighed in under 230 lbs.!!!!

Okay, so it is 229, but still! This just puts that fire in me to keep going. I can see that 100 lb. loss on the horizon and I can’t wait.

I kicked my work out up tonight because I won’t be able to go to the gym more that 2 times this week. I do have a plan for those nights I won’t be at the gym. I even had a great grocery shopping trip and found a bunch of new healthy foods to try.

After being made fun of and feeling down, my friends really rallied around me. I am ready to keep going no matter what.

Doesn’t matter

Posted by mshollyann on February 22nd, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Lesson’s learned the hard way this past weekend….

I was at MOA for the Princess Diana exhibit. (amazing exhibit btw) While I was there I did some shopping. I was turning a corner when this guy and girl made a comment about me being fat. Now I had this done to me before many many times. However, this time it felt different. I was even more embarrassed, called them ass-holes (not my proudest moment) and walked away feeling sick. I couldn’t understand it, I have lost over 80 lbs. and I still get made fun of for being over weight?! I know I am still over 200 lbs. and in a size 16, but I just want to yell out “You should have seen me before!”.

I now realize that it doesn’t matter how much weight I lose, someone is always going to make fun of me for something.  I need to get a thicker skin about it. It is just after years of comments and being made fun of I have finally started feeling more confident. Things like this set me back in that. The rest of the day I felt uncomfortable in every store I went to, wondering if people were thinking “wow she is fat”. I have had a major set back all from 2 jerks that couldn’t keep their mouths shut.

 

This sucks.

Less than 100 lbs. to go!!!!

Posted by mshollyann on February 16th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

It is with a big happy smile that I write… I only have 97 lbs. to lose to reach my goal! My “number” is to lose 182 lbs. and I am starting to see a glimmer of light at t he end of this very long tunnel. I know I still have a long ways to go but I always say “celebrate the small things”. You will have more to celebrate when you do :)


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