End Binge Eating Blog-o-rama

I am tempted to turn my binge eating blog into a rant about online dating. I have been dating online for two months now and I feel demoralized by the whole thing. Last night was the worst. I went on a date with the funniest man on the planet. This guy was hysterical. And cute. And interesting. But he proceeded to get completely hammered on wine & by the end of dinner he was so drunk he couldn’t speak or move. So we sat there for an hour. Not speaking. At one point I made a phone call at the table because I was bored and wanted someone to talk to. He was apologetic for his behavior and was eloquent in only a way a drunk can. He cried a little, said no one liked him, and that he hated himself. I dropped a little recovery wisdom to him, but I suspect he was in blackout. Got him in a cab and sent him on his way.

Addiction is a heartbreaking thing because it destroys beautiful, precious people like him & also myself. I am grateful I am in recovery and don’t have to bathe in alcohol to feel normal. Still working on the food addiction, but just for today I don’t want a drink.

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