It’s my life.

There is no magic wand.

I wish there was. I wish I could just wave it and say poof, you are thin and healthy and young.
Truth is, I am middle-aged. Not sure how that happened, but it did. I will be 46 in 6 weeks, I can get my self together and hit 47 looking and feeling [...]

Peace in my head.

That’s what I want and need. To get to the place in my head where things get “untangled”. Saw that somewhere this week, if I remembered where, I would give credit.
Life has sucked lately. Kids, work, hubby, weight, house, holidays. Just sucked. Need to say to hell with all of [...]

Starting out positive.

My goal, while I continue to try to find my way out of depression is to write down one thing every day that is positive in my self. Action, deed, facts, whatever I can find that is a good thing in my life.
1. My sons
2. House is paid for!
3. I have a job. [...]

Goals 8 months to final goal

Today 156
11/5 151 - 150.8 10/17/11 moving on!!!!
12/5 146
1/5 141
2/5 136
3/5 131
4/5 126
5/5 121
6/5 116 when we get close, I will see what it looks like, final number is hard, but I will know it when I get there.

Continuing to get it together.

Going back to a bit of low carbing. Calorie counting would certainly work, but seems too cumbersome to me, so back to what I know. Need to get some groceries & keep at it. I can do it with what I have, but more choices makes it much easier. Got dinner [...]

Went back to the Dr today!!!

Can do what I feel up to and can return to work tomorrow!! I actually want to go back to work!!
Just went and parked my ass on the dreadmilll! All the way back to Day 1 of C25K, but I did it!
Tomorrow, I am going to either walk the dog or get on [...]

Another day

Still bored to tears. Took O’Neill for 3 walks today. Still miss my old dog, I think I always will. He was also much better on the leash, which is important when you are recovering from surgery and walking a 100+ lb dog. I think tomorrow I am going to try [...]

Better days are upon me….

I am working really hard to pull my head out of the sand and move forward.
The last few days have been horrible. We had to make the decision t have our old dog put to sleep. I love the dog, it was horrible. More importantly, my kids are gone and [...]

Grrrr…

Covers it I think. Surgery 12 days ago, must be getting better because I am sick to death of not doing anything. Planning to restart C25K before too long, tried it within the first few days, that was just stupid. Thought I would die the next day.
Need to get my food cleaned [...]

Taking one day at a time….

I have to stop ruining today doing nothing but stewing about tomorrow. I also need to limit my computer time much more effectively in order to find more time in which to actually get off my butt and do something which resembles exercise.
Let’s start with exercise. I know that today, there are a [...]