Fat & Moody

I just saw a picture of me taken a couple of days ago and I was just horrified, I can’t believe I let myself get to this point, I’m 5′4″ and 215 pounds, that means I’m like 85 pounds overweight!!! How the hell did this happened? And why don’t I do anything to fix it? I admit this didn’t happened overnight it took me like 8 years to get like this, and now all of the sudden I look at myself and I just don’t recognize the person looking back at me from the mirror, that’s just not me, at least it’s not how I feel.

My biggest problem is staying motivated towards my goals, I’m that kind of person that gets really excited about something and just go all out for the first week or so but then I just get lazy and fail to keep going, it also doesn’t help that I’m the queen of procrastination, I guess that explains how my weight goes up and down like a yo-yo,  when I get excited I exercise every day and eat as healthy as I can but then a week or so goes by and there I am eating a pizza feeling disgusted with myself and the next day I skip the gym because what the hell, I ate almost a whole pizza last night so what’s the use? And that’s exactly why I end up losing 10 pounds and then gaining 20 in return.

I read somewhere that keeping a blog is a good way to stay motivated throughout this journey, I decided this is it!!! This can’t go on any longer and hopefully I’ll stick to it this time around so I’ll try to blog as often as I can and would really appreciate feedback about my struggles, I guess it would help to know I’m not the only one going through this.

Till later…