Fat & Moody

First of all, thanks soo much for the comments, it’s really encouraging to see how even strangers are pulling for me to succeed.  I just realized today that instead of 215 pounds like I said on my first blog, I’m actually 218.5, my bad, the last time I stepped on a scale was last month, I’ve always been terrified of doing so but this time around I think I’ll have to become friends with the scale, so I decided to check my weight every Friday, I chose this day because usually we eat out on the weekends and that way I can work hard during the week days and see the results on Friday, now don’t get me wrong, I’m not planning on pigging out over the weekend but I read somewhere how it really works to treat yourself and that way you don’t feel the need to binge after a few days of dieting, does this seems like a good idea?

I also read that it’s important to set your mind to a goal, this is supposed to help me stay on track with my weight loss.  I know I have to lose around 85 pounds to reach my ideal weigh for my stature (5’4”) which is 130-135 pounds, I would love to make it for my birthday, I turn 32 on May 2^nd, but that seems too ambitious, it means I would have to lose an average of 14 pounds every month that’s like 3.5 per week.  Another option would be to set a smaller goal like losing around 60 pounds by my B-Day, which its not small task at all but may be more “doable” that means I could be around 160 by May, and that’s 10 pounds per month, 2.5 per week; yes, that definitely seems a little more realistic. Does anyone have any ideas or advice regarding my goal? Should I set a lower weight goal?

Weekly Weigh In

Current weight: 218.5

Change from last weigh in: 0

Total weight loss: 0

Starting weigh: 218.5

Goal weight May 02, 2010: 160

I’m feeling… : Exited, encouraged, not so cranky!

I just saw a picture of me taken a couple of days ago and I was just horrified, I can’t believe I let myself get to this point, I’m 5′4″ and 215 pounds, that means I’m like 85 pounds overweight!!! How the hell did this happened? And why don’t I do anything to fix it? I admit this didn’t happened overnight it took me like 8 years to get like this, and now all of the sudden I look at myself and I just don’t recognize the person looking back at me from the mirror, that’s just not me, at least it’s not how I feel.

My biggest problem is staying motivated towards my goals, I’m that kind of person that gets really excited about something and just go all out for the first week or so but then I just get lazy and fail to keep going, it also doesn’t help that I’m the queen of procrastination, I guess that explains how my weight goes up and down like a yo-yo,  when I get excited I exercise every day and eat as healthy as I can but then a week or so goes by and there I am eating a pizza feeling disgusted with myself and the next day I skip the gym because what the hell, I ate almost a whole pizza last night so what’s the use? And that’s exactly why I end up losing 10 pounds and then gaining 20 in return.

I read somewhere that keeping a blog is a good way to stay motivated throughout this journey, I decided this is it!!! This can’t go on any longer and hopefully I’ll stick to it this time around so I’ll try to blog as often as I can and would really appreciate feedback about my struggles, I guess it would help to know I’m not the only one going through this.

Till later…