So TOM ended Sunday and I’m finally losing the water and don’t my feet feel good right now.  I hate having giant water filled feet it’s painful.  I weighed in today at 386.6 I’m happy to see the scale going down.  After breakfast I’ll be heading to the gym.  I can definitely feel the weight lifting helping me out and there’s nothing wrong with the extra calories I’m burning.  My headphones finally came so I can listen to my music while working out instead of the dance/techno music they play at the gym.  It has a good beat to keep you moving but it’s just too much.  My goal is to get up to a half hour on the elliptical machine it burns a lot of calories but whenever I get on it my heart rate jumps up way too high and I’m always afraid my chest is going to explode so I usually only do it for 10 minutes.

So today when I weighed in I was 388.  It seems like I was stuck in the low 390’s for forever and I’m glad to finally be out of them.  Thankfully I weighed and was happy this morning because I was on the bus to go to school and it was pretty crowded but a seat cleared up and I went to sit down and this skinny high school boy jumped in the seat before I could sit down.  On another note I looked at my arms, I know lifting weights for a couple days won’t have made much of a difference and I’m not sure when it happened but I looked at my arms and I can see my veins.  I could never see my veins before and it was irritating because I have a blood clotting disorder and have to get blood drawn and I was tired of nurses poking me multiple times or using that dang butterfly needle and pressing it all around in my arm.  So maybe now that my veins are starting to become visible getting blood drawn won’t be as much of an issue.  I also noticed that my belly button is getting smaller.  It seemed like I had the biggest belly button, seriously I could stick two fingers in it and people thought this was so amazing.  But now I can hardly get one finger in, I noticed that my stomach isn’t hanging as much.  I can’t wait to see how I will look another 50 pounds lighter.  I asked six people how much they thought I weighed and they all said 285 which is amazing to me that people think I look 100 pounds less than I really am, when I tell them my real weight they are shocked.  I can’t wait until I don’t have to be embarassed about my weight and about how overweight I am.  I wouldn’t feel so bad if I was a little overweight I am so tired of hearing morbidly obese, it sounds like I’m going to die tomorrow or something.  Well anyway, just posting how I’m glad about the sudden 3 pound loss and my official weigh-in day isn’t until Sunday.  And I know I didn’t post my excercise and menu for a couple days but I’ve been studying for a midterm which I think I did good on so I will be back to posting.           

30 minutes on the treadmill @ 3mph and 2.5 incline

10 minutes on elliptical machine

40 minutes of weight lifting

My legs are burning and my arms are burning!

Calories Burned- 1,380

Breakfast- 1 cup of rice krispies w/ skim milk & banana

Snack- Apple and cheddar cheese stick

Lunch- Spaghetti

Dinner- Homemade hot wings (chicken wings baked w/ hot sauce), 1 cup of brown rice, with frozen peas and carrots

Calories Consumed- 1,480

Calories Burned- 1,380

Net Calories- 100

My first workout at the gym.  The trainer showed me how to use the weight machines.  Spent about 20 minutes on weights and then did 15 minutes on the treadmill.  Tomorrow I plan to exercise longer but I was tired and came straight home and went to sleep.  I plan on doing an 8 minute TaeBo workout before bed.

Calories Burned- 856

Breakfast- Banana (I know but I was running late this morning)

Snack- Apple & cheddar cheese stick

Lunch- Peanut Butter & Jelly Sandwich on wheat bread, non fat vanilla yogurt with strawberries, blueberries, and granola

Dinner- Spaghetti made with lean ground beef and whole wheat spaghetti noodles

Snack- 100 calorie pack

Calories Consumed- 1,425

Calories Burned- 856

Net Calories- 569

Weight- 391(kind of annoyed at TOM making me retain water) -55.8

Measurements

Bust- 44, -6
Waist-45, -7
Hips- 58 (Another inch Yes!!!!), -7
Thighs- 31, -7

Arms- 16.5, -3.5

I decided that I’m going to set little challenges for myself in order to motivate me to push myself.  My goal is to lose 30 pounds by January 1st, 2010.  I’m hoping that joining the gym will help me to make my goal.  Usually I lose 3-4 pounds a week so if I can manage to do that I’ll make my goal.

I saw an old friend yesterday who I hadn’t seen since Febuary and she noticed that I was slimming down and she said I looked taller.  I looked at myself in the mirror when I got home and noticed I don’t have a hunched back anymore.  My back is so straight now and I know I’ll probably look even taller the less wide I look.  Today will be my first day working out at women’s workout world.  I’m almost finished with school for the day and then I’ll head downstairs to the gym.  I’m kind of tired right now but I know I have to go before I go home.  I ended up not going to sleep until 2am just to wake up at 6am, so I’m operating on 4 hours of sleep.  I will probably work out an hour and then just take a nap when I get home.  I felt really good that my friend noticed the changes and I was flirting with this guy that works at the train station and we exchanged numbers.  I like that I’m getting more confidence and am starting to have a more positive outlook on life.  I guess the feelings of despair and hopelessness are over with.  I feel like I am finally making positive strides forward and I know what to do now.  

So I woke up sore this morning.  I haven’t felt this way in a while so I can tell Jillian’s video is definitely working some muscles that I’m not used to working.  I checked my measurements today even though I normally don’t check them until Sunday but I was happy to see that I’ve lost another inch off my hips.  I’m glad because my legs and thighs are really hurting.  2 inches off my hips in two weeks is great seeing as though I hadn’t lost any inches off my hips in months.  I’ll be able to fit in my scrubs in no time.  I swear they make scrubs for people with no behinds.  Until I can fit into my school issued ones I ordered some a size larger on the internet they were expensive an extra 5 bucks for each pair of pants just for being fat.  I can’t wait until I can pay a normal price for clothes.  My clothes and underwear are really loose on my now but I’m going to wait until I weigh 299 to buy any clothes or underwear.  I don’t want to buy clothes too soon because I don’t plan on wearing them long.  I bought myself a belt and I plan on using it, lol.  I thought about how in high school I weighed 385.  So probably within the next month or so I will be under my high school weight.  The smallest weight I ever remember being is 285 pounds in junior high.  My teenage years were not a very fun time and I don’t have any pictures from junior high or high school other than school pictures.  I wish I knew then what I know now I could’ve had a happy childhood and young adult life.  I tell myself everyday that it’s not too late that I’m still young and can enjoy the rest of my life.

Walked 6 blocks today before Breakfast

Will probably do Jillian Michaels today and the 1 mile walk from Leslie Sansone.  My first workout at women’s workout world will be Monday after school so until then I will continue to do my videos.  I still want to master the Jillian Michaels video I have.

Made it 30 minutes into Jillian’s Banish Fat Boost Metabolism she started doing stuff on the floor that I couldn’t do so I skipped that circuit and did the one after it but wasn’t able to continue after that.  I will try again tomorrow because her workout does seem effective.  1 mile walk for Leslie Sansone

Calories Burned- 1,064