So, I’ve just attempted week two total body circuit and failed. It is just way too hard for me. I can only do a couple of modified push ups so I can’t keep it up for as long as they want (even following Tania!) My legs wont keep lifting above my waist no matter how hard I focus Sean. I spent most of my time responding to Sean’s prompts with “I’d love to but I can’t” I even think I’ve got the start of shin splints from all the sprinting on the spot. The mind is willing or I wouldn’t have attempted a second week despite ending up in tears trying to do it last week. I wish I’d recorded it for a personal comparison to see if I’ve improved at all. I decided this week that I can’t keep up so just do the best I can and not to beat myself up trying to do what they do but I realised just that it is just too advanced. I’m gutted because I want the result of more muscle but I need to find another way.
I’d love to go weights but we can neither afford a gym membership nor could I go to our local gym. I know some of the people that go and they’re not people I want to see on a regular basis. I know it sounds snobby but they’re related to the people swearing and shouting at their 4-5 year old kids in my daughters school year that I avoid. I’ve thought of investing in a multigym but the websites I’ve read suggest a power rack and free weights instead. Again, I’d love the results but I don’t think it’s something I can do on my own and no one I know could teach me.
I’m getting frustrated with it all now. I’m reading so much conflicting advice. Eat less calories, no eat more. Do cardio, no do weights. Do body weight exercises, no do heavy lifting. Eat meat, no eat veg. Eat 5 a day, no dont’ eat all that fruit because of the sugar. And the list goes on! I think basically no one knows. What works for one person might not work for someone else.
As I walked to the school yesterday I didnt think of what to do for tea but thought that I need to change my mindset. Instead of focusing on the scales and not being able to do these things, I need to focus on healthier choices and getting fitter for the rest of my life. All of this is because I made stupid choices. Commercialism has affected health internationally. When I grew up take out was a rarity. Now, even in my smallish town, we have three mcdonalds, a subway, kfc, untold chip shops, indian & chinese restaurants and take outs, italian, pizza delivery and more. I’ve been trying to calculate how much it would be to feed our family healthily including 5 fruit & veg portions and we wouldn’t manage financially. It’s upsetting to think my kids are going to have the same struggles and we have to feed them what will fill them up not what is what’s best.
Anyway, moan over…