I knocked three minutes off of my two mile time!  That’s not even the best part… I jogged at 4.5 (something I’ve never been able to do) for the entire Five Star Chick Remix song.  Yea - Some people are going to have a problem with the song - aka my mom - but the song is 3:57 minutes long!!  So take that treadmill!!

Workout summary:  2 miles = 34 minutes exactly!

So today I am going to a Spa Party.  I am taking a fruit tray (so I know something healthy will be there!).  The host is my good friend, and I know there will be plenty of junk food there also.  The party is at 1:00.  Do I eat lunch at my house before I go so that I will not fill up on the junk food, or do I skip lunch and just have a good time and eat at the party?  Hmm… I just keep thinking that even if I eat lunch at home, I will still eat at least some of the junk at the party.  I seriously think that I will eat less calories if I just eat at the party and not at home.  Yes - that is what I am going to do.  I am taking fruit and a 2 liter of Diet Dr Pepper.  I can happily avoid the drinks with calories and have some fruit, but I will also eat some of the junk for my lunch.  I’m sure there will be something that isn’t THAT bad there.  After all, how often do I go to things like this?  Well, Easter is next weekend, and I will have the same problem.  But I’ve done pretty good this week (weighed in today just to check where I’m at), so I will be okay.

I have had very little sleep the past couple of nights due to school projects.  I do not do well without sleep.  I do get to sleep in tomorrow a little, and tonight is my last class for the week.  I just have to make it through today, which includes a presentation tonight during class. 

Ohhh… I almost forgot I have figured out a “training schedule” for the half marathon I want to complete in December!  I plan to jog/walk/run (something!) for two miles three times a week for three weeks.  In three weeks, I go up to three miles.  Every three weeks, I am going to add a mile.  By the week of October 31, I will be up to 13 miles (which is how long the half marathon is).  I think that will be achievable.  I just hope I can find time to do this when I start getting up to the higher mileage.  No!  I will find time!  I really want to do this half marathon!  I want to do it for the cause.  I want to do it so that I can proudly say I have done something like that.  I also want to do it to prove everybody wrong!!  This time is different.  My friends and family have seen me through countless attempts at fitness and weightloss.  I guess I can see where their doubt is coming from.  I just wish I could show them right now that it is different.  They will start to see that soon though!

So I still pretty good from my workout yesterday.  I should have gone today, but I didn’t.  Didn’t eat great, but not horrible (if you just look at my calories).  However, almost half of my calories from today came from one visit to Starbucks.  Today was “free pastry” day.  With a purchase of any drink, you get a pastry.  Of course I get the biggest drink.  I just looked up the nutritional information for my drink and pastry, and it was ridiculous!!  I will definitely have to find a new favorite drink or at least limit myself to the smallest size from now on.  I am trying to recover from my partial root canal (I have to go back for the rest), so I am going to be in a grumpy mood for a while.  The dentist said I should start feeling a little relief in a couple of days.  We will see.

Yes people.. I worked out today!  Not only did I work out, but I jogged/walked two full miles.  I haven’t done two miles in a row in… well… never that I can remember.  I forgot my Ipod arm strap thing, so no weights today.  I am extremely happy with my workout.  I am upset though.  I went to tan (my reward for working out), and the tanning beds were full and had an hour wait.  OMG… I was so upset when she said that.  I mean, I was so hot that I almost didn’t want to tan anyway.  But I did want to.  I only allow myself to tan if I work out.  And I worked out for crying out loud!!  So can I go tan tomorrow without working out?  Maybe.  I am going to try to work out tomorrow, but I am getting a root canal and a crown.  We will see how I feel after all of that.

Treadmill:  2 Miles = 37 Minutes

How do I feel?  Tired, Exhausted, Sore…But extremely proud!

So I got up the courage to share my blog and some of my goals with a couple of my closest friends and family.  Well, I only shared my blog with one close person.  Needless to say,  I will not being doing that for a while.  When I showed this person my blog, I was told “You shouldn’t put that on there” (talking about what I eat).  I put the foods I eat on here for a few reasons.  One, it helps me to keep track of what I eat.  Two, maybe other people can give me new food ideas.  And lastly, hopefully I will start eating healthier and some of the things I eat will help someone else.  This blog is the one place I can put everything and not really care about what anybody thinks (unless it is a friend that I tell about the blog).  Therefore, I have decided to not tell anyone else about this.

Also, I told someone about my goal to complete a half marathon.  I knew that one was going to be hard to believe.  Me do anything that has to do with running?  Yea, right.  But I told this person up front that I’m telling them because I thought they would be the only person that would give me the support I needed.  They didn’t say “I don’t think you can do it”, but it sure felt like that’s what they were trying to say.  “You should start with smaller goals…  You know that’s 13 miles…  Blah Blah”.  Yea, it’s 13 miles, and I have set smaller goals.  I found a half marathon for a good cause that occurrs in December.  I think that is plenty of time if I work hard to be prepared.  I’m just gonna have to be that little blue engine, “I think I can, I think I can…”     

My weight today is 252.3 lb.

I know this is going to be the hardest thing I have ever done.  I have been on “diets” my whole life.  I’ll start a diet one week, messup once, and then quit until like a month later.  It really seems like I start a diet every month.  I still haven’t been doing good.  Even though I am forcing myself to write about it on here.  I don’t know what else to do to make myself do this.  I have got to lose weight.  I’m tired all of the time, my feet hurt a lot, and I know I will feel better about everything if I just lost weight.  What is so hard about that??  I just can’t do it!  It’s a vicious cycle.  I’m tired so I don’t want to work out, but I’m tired because I’m fat and need to work out.  Ugh!!  I set realistic goals, I try to make every easily accessible so I have no excuses.  What is wrong with me??  I’m working out tomorrow… I know I’ve said that what?  at least four times this week.  I’m telling my husband to take the remote from the tv from me until I work out.  LOL!  How bad is it that I will definitely workout if I don’t have the remote.  That may be my new motivational tool.  Have him hide the remote until I workout.  Hmm… I’ll let you know how that works.

I did not do good yesterday at all.  The day started out ok, but we had fish sticks for lunch (I work at a daycare and eat with the kids).  I don’t do fish sticks.  So I needed to get lunch somewhere.  I got Mc Donald’s.  Let’s just say I didn’t get anything healthy, and I didn’t watch my portions.  We got subway for dinner.  That was fine.  I had a six in subway club.  Not too shabby.  But we went to the circus, and I had a funnel cake.  I did leave half of it there though.  The sad thing is I’m not sure how much better today is going to be.  My daughter has a birthday party to go to at Chuck E. Cheese.  Pizza and cake… Hmmm… I’m thinking I will definitely need to work out.  My Ipod is full, I just did laundry so I have comfy clothes clean, everything is ready for  workout!