One of my top rewards for losing at least 1/2 of the 70 lbs: water parks!
I cannot wait to be able to go with my girls to a water park and not want to hide myself. Right now I won’t even join our community pool because my body is so disgusting in a bathing suit. However, my plan is to get a good portion of the weight off and go to a water park and be able to play with my kids in a bathing suit — no cover up! That will be sooo awesome!
In those children’s play areas there is nowhere to hide, either. The water is shallow so you cannot hide in the water. It will be so nice to NOT care!
I also cannot WAIT to wear shorts again! These are just the kind I will wear - they look really comfortable. I’d say I probably won’t be really comfortable in shorts until October, when I plan to be down to about 165 (size 12), but I’ll still wear them at size 16 or 14. I HAVE to — I can’t stand to be hot!

sandylm
June 11th, 2009 at 4:35 am
Here is a piece of unsolicited advice, you have got to retrain your brain. I have weighed 310 pounds (Size 28) and I have weighed 140 pounds (Size 10) and what I realized is that if you don’t train your brain to enjoy your life anywhere when you lose weight you will still feel the same. I am right there with you with weight loss cause I am trying to lose this baby weight at a size 16. I still have to fuss at myself when I look in the mirror and see all the flaws. Start now so that when you do lose the weight your brain will be retrained and you will look at yourself and feel fabulous and accomplished!
mellyann
June 11th, 2009 at 6:07 am
This advice is great and I think you are 100% correct. But how do you retrain your brain to enjoy your life when you are at a heavy, miserable weight and do not feel attractive and even feel uncomfortable? I have tried to have the mind set of, “Oh, well, I am going to have fun at this weight while I lose the weight.” But then I cannot fit into any clothes and even my body feels heavy and uncomfortable when I want to do things. Like last year we were at a hotel pool and I couldn’t believe that I was having a hard time getting up from the side of the pool! I felt like I was lifting a lot of weight (and I was!) Things I used to take for granted and not give a thought are now hard to do.
Any tips on how to retool my thinking now would be great. Don’t get me wrong, I am not totally miserable. I really enjoy my kids. But I do not want to socialize right now. I just don’t enjoy it when I feel like my life should be on hold until I feel and look myself again.
sandylm
June 13th, 2009 at 4:55 am
I completed this program and it helped me:http://www.shrinkyourself.com/stop-binge-eating/?gclid=CL3g7f-Wh5sCFQienAodQiyOnQ. Also, you just have to take a realistic view of the world and see that about 99% of the world is struggling with a weight issue. Therefore, if you are struggling with how you perceive yourself because you have drawn the wrong conclusion to how others see you, then you have probably created the wrong thoughts due to the fact most people fat these days. I hope you work things out for yourself. You know, right now I am 173 pounds and all sometimes when I look in the mirror I see the hanging skin from my weight loss 9 years ago instead of the positives of how far I have come. I just don’t want you to be like me. Have a wonderful day!