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Today was good and bad food wise. I think I wore myself out with the partying on Friday and the stress of everything else and wound up with a heck of a cold. Sore throat, runny nose, chills, you name it - I got it. Go figure. lol My sister has a bad cold so I think I might have caught it from her. It’s just easier to blame her anyways. hahaa I’m awful, I know. 
My father, sister and I spent lunch at my Uncle’s house and everyone seems to be very shaken up over my mother’s accident. I’ve been getting the constant head pats, and the whole “how are YOU doing…” conversations. It’s difficult because I don’t want to keep reliving things, I want to move on so that I am able to focus my energy to positive things. It was suppose to be my 25th birthday party there but I think everyone was preoccupied so most people let things slip their mind. I was anticipating it though so I wasn’t completely upset.
We brought some photos of my sister and I and a family portrait to my mother’s room last night and taped them to the sides of her bed. When we walked in this morning you could see her eyeing the photo, then eyeing us, then eyeing the photos and us again. She is starting to make connections. Also, shes getting better dexderity and can finally scratch an itch she had under her halo’s vest. So, she is certainly responsive. 
It was a deliberate scratch too! hahaha She was very itchy. lol
I don’t know how much longer Dear Boyfriend and I are going to make it work. I love him so much but it seems as though all sacrifice and concern are one sided and only coming from me. No matter how much you love someone if you’re not their equal then it isn’t a fair investment I suppose…Time will tell. He just seems so “meh” over everything with my Mom. It’s like he doesn’t realize how much I’m hurting…and he just doesn’t care enough to ask. Maybe he just doesn’t know how to address it…I dunno, I’m out of excuses for him.
On the bright side, food was good today. I woke up this morning and had a big helping of some fresh mixed fruit. I put some grapefruit, orange, grapes, black berries, watermelon, and blue berries in a big container and told the family to dig in. It was ddeeeelicious. My uncle made some french toast but, my throat is too sore to eat anything like that. So I’ve been surviving on fruit, orange juice, and low fat cheese. Not a complete bust but definitely getting high on my caloric intake…and shopping is not cardio dispite popular belief. lol
OH!!! I’m also down a size! I tried on a pair of 36″ waist regular fit Silver jeans and they were quite large. I went down to the 34″ they have some room so I tried the 33″ but they were a little TOO snug for comfort..there wasn’t a dimple or crevice that was hidden LOL. So I’m in a 34″ and almost a 33″ jean! I’m quite proud of myself. My goal is a 30″ but that is still a LONG ways off but I’m still really proud of myself.
Needless to say, I’m in a better mood today then I was yesterday. It’ll get a little easier everyday and I’m really doing my best to stay positive. This week, exercise starts back up and becomes a priority again. No more being willy nilly. Get’er done!
Have a great long weekend, Chicks! Happy Blogging!
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Awesome on the Pants. I missed your mom being sick so I am going to go back and read.
Hugs sweetie!!
I need to be quick. Heading to work.This is only based on my experience in a 14 year relationship with my Dh and observing many others and knowing my DH is pretty typically male…..
Who your boyfriend is showing who he is now in a serious life experience is him showing you how he will handle everything you two will encounter in your life together. In fac,t if you add in children and a mortgage and unhappy times of employment and then his own life losses etc he will more than likely pull back more and be even less supportive but you will have much more on your plate to manage along with your own heartache.
I know you love him, as I love my DH. Really, it is about choosing in each case or moment what are you willing to handle or in my case go without. I go without much and often and have not had a partner to share my biggest life experiences with in a way that is meaningful for me.
Back in the beginning i believed in myself and my own strength and my own heart so much that I did not really see his weaknesses. Nor did I know 14 years down the road just how empty much of my marriage would be.
Okay, this is not necessarily your story but something to think about.
Love you!!!!