Diary of a habitual binge eater.... :/

ALIVE!

marina — Thu, 20 May 2010 02:24:42 +0000

Well barely So much bad stuff has happened lately there is no way I could bring this blog up to date or even want too…… I need to get back into a healthy lifestyle as they way im living now is disgusting :/

I AM VILE.

I miss this place but I dont know when/if ill be able to come back

Ill stop now because nobody is probably reading this anyway.

Tuesday

marina — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 16:49:57 +0000

Today started off VERY bad….I had a mini binge, felt disgusting and thought the whole day would be a write off…BUT I managed to force myself to the gym and did: 30 mins rowinn, 20 mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the stationary bike YAY

Still feel incredibly fat and disgusting but I shall struggle on! xo

Sunday

marina — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 12:42:54 +0000

So here I am at the gym after working out for just 30 mins (15 mins rowing & 15 mins on the stationary bike)

But wait I have a reason! I have no earphones so I cant listen to my own music or even the tv at the gym

Urgh, I will have to get some this week as I really cant do anything without music!

Ill get it all figured out when im out from under……..

marina — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 12:23:41 +0000

So something happened today, I woke at 5am and decided to get up……thats not it I decided id face up to things Ive been putting off for years and wrote down a ton of stuff what happened in the past ive been trying to forget about and it feels good to finally get it out there! I am absolutely exhaused but feel a bit better about things so YAY

Im also updating this from the Gym OMG I am back, taking it slow….I didnt do a huge amount (15 mins rowing, 20 mins on the treadmill and 15 mins on the stationary bike) but its a small step in the right direction *sighs* lets hope the positive stuff continues!

Hope you are all having a good weekend so far xo

Aliveeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

marina — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 19:12:24 +0000

Yes I am still alive, just not doing so good weight and health wise!

Getting fatter by the day. Being seriously depressed and cant seem to shake it :/

Oh well maybe ill be back eventually….anyway I hope you are all doing great

I miss reading posts and going on the forum but as I still have no laptop its not an option *sighs* soon hopefully

xoxo

Tuesday

marina — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 17:19:18 +0000

So im at the gym but not to workout just to use the internet as my laptop is still dead and I have no money to get a new one as yet……

Must have got 3 hours sleep last night! Bloody leg is still in agony so dunno if ill be at the gym to exercise tommorow either

Must try and stay positive!

Monday

marina — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 16:06:29 +0000

Today at the gym I did: 30 mins rowing, 35 mins on the treadmill and 30 mins on the stationary bike

My leg has caused me much agony over the weekend but I got myself some super strong painkillers so at this very moment there is almost no pain……I do hope whatever is wrong goes away thou *sighs*

Hope you all had a great weekend and here’s to a positive week for us all xo

Saturday

marina — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 16:33:02 +0000

Only went to the gym three times last week, Thursday and Friday were pretty shitty days for me lots of emotional upset but oh well gotta just pick myself back up and carry on…..unfortunately!

Today at the gym I did: 45 mins rowing, 30 mins on the treadmill and 30 mins on the stationary bike,

Ive had a weird pain in my right leg, to the right of my knee since Monday, it comes and goes but has been worse the past 2 days so maybe not going to the gym made it worse? meh who knows

Anyway hope you are all doing well Still no laptop ARGH soon hopefully! xo

Wednesday

marina — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 15:24:40 +0000

Today at the gym I did: 20 mins rowing, 30 mins on the treadmill and 35 mins on the stationary bike

Thanks for your comments on my last post, next time I get the urge to snack so late at night I will try to remember just how lousy I felt during the night with stomach pains and heartburn……hopefully in future ill stick to cereal as my after dinner snack

Tuesday

marina — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 17:37:31 +0000

Yay despite my migrane from lack of sleep and general body aches I managed to get to the gym!

I did: 20 mins rowing, 30 mins treadmill and 30 mins on the stationary bike

slightly better than yesterday so im pleased but im not pleased with what I ate last night! I had a healthy dinner at around 5-6pm and by 11 I was STARVING instead of having a bowl of cereal I made PASTA! With cheese and sauce, it was a BIG portion, a dinner size one not a snack and OMG I woke during the night with the most terrible stomach pains and heartburn NEVER AGAIN! I dont know what I was thinking I guess the problem is when im that hungry I dont really think I just EAT- I need to get out of this habbit ASAP or ill never loose the weight ive gained And my weight BTW is much worse than is on my profile…..Ive gained ALOT since I updated that (think when I joined here I only had 6 pounds to loose…) now its at least a stone and a half……..EEEEK But I try not to dwell on the amount rather I like to concentrate on how I feel about myself *sighs* If I knew my actual weight at this point I may go off the rails…………….