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eating too much :(

Posted marina on December 28th, 2008 | Filed under Uncategorized

Yesterday I ate way too much I really dont know how im gonna be able to make no more binge eating my new years resolution, I always fail.

I pretty much fail at everything………….

I feel really sad and lonely with nothing to do today, Im not in the mood for the gym and I dont really want to go out walking alone :(

I think I need a hug *sighs* sometimes I hate this time of year cos it makes me feel so alone, im not completely along but all the problems/issues I have isolates me from everyone/everything.

I just wish I could get on with my life like everyone else but cos of how I am/feel/look always holds me back

I want to get help so much but im so scared of the consequences

Im desparetly seeking some kind of purpose in life but I dont know where to start, I want to do something completely selfless so I have no time to think about my problems, I kind of just want to run away and start again…………I know this would mean leaving everyone/everything behind- im scared by how much I want this, I havent really told anyone in real life about this, they wouldnt understand, I just want to go away…

Im so sorry for putting all this here, its not really the place :/ Ill stop now



3 Responses to “eating too much :(”

  1. delitaagain Says:
    December 28th, 2008 at 1:19 pm

    Marina, I understand, and in a few of my worst years, I’ve been there. Hang in, it does get better. Really! I think I will blog tomorrow about things your post stirred up in me. You can do this, and I think I am going to go out walking today by myself (haven’t in a good while) just because I know it will be good for me and help me move toward that person I want to be. I’d rather focus on what I can do good, that what I don’t have - and know it will get me to where I want to be while focusing on the sad will only take me farther down, down, down. I hear ya, girl! But what one or three little things can you do today that you can feel good about yourself for. Let’s each go do one and then report back… We can do this! thanks for sharing honestly! And really - Happy New Year! You are not doomed to live the life you’ve had in the past, trust me, thank God! Delita

  2. thebeans Says:
    December 28th, 2008 at 4:39 pm

    Of course this is the place for you to express when you are down. I have felt the very same way for years, I truly hope you wake up to a better day tomorrow.

  3. susan Says:
    December 28th, 2008 at 6:59 pm

    (((((((((Marina))))))))!
    Hugs to you!
    I hope you find what you are looking for.

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