October 11th, 2008
I have been at 142 for about a month and feel great. I, ideally, would love to lose another seven or eight pounds, but really love the jeans I am fitting into now. Baby Boy has been walking, along with crawling, but will probably be only walking here shortly.
My health has been good and I started the YMCA yesterday. I barely have to pay anything, which I appreciate. It is the nicest Y I have ever been to. They will watch my baby every day while I work out for three dollars a month. I was going to join another gym, and they wanted so much money; then the guy showing me around the gym tried to talk me into joining his pyramid scheme.
October 5th, 2008
September 24th, 2008
So the past couple weeks I have really laid off running as much and tried to incorporate some more calories every day. I have been a little looser with my diet. I haven’t gained or lost. I bought two pairs of size 4s two weeks ago and would like to stay fitting in them. I don’t think I would look very good in a smaller size. So I guess I have reached my goal in a way. The weight just really started to melt once I hit 145, and I didn’t want to keep that momentum going.
Running I had to back off of anyway since I started getting headaches. I have cut my running time in half and am just going for 30 minutes a day instead of an hour. I think I was just pushing myself too hard and not eating enough for the calories I was losing. I think it just hit me hard and along with the headaches, I was having a hard time healing. Hopefully I am a hundred percent soon. I think I might be maintaining at this stage.
September 18th, 2008
So for some reasons the headaches are back, but not as bad. I am still able to function now as they are not totally debilitating. I feel like crap though, with softball and it getting darker earlier, I have been having a hard time fitting in running. I am about to pop out the door for a run right now though since my mom is going to watch Baby Boy for me.
I am staying around 142-145 weight. I am scared if I lose anymore, I won’t fit into my size 4 Gap jeans I just bought. Shouldn’t be too hard to not lose! Just trying to find that happy medium.
The pic is of my friend Lisa and I at the Hyde Park Street Fair. Lot of hippies — okay, deep down I am a total greenie. I love watching the belly dancers and there’s live music, just a good time. We are going to do a 5K in October called “Prison Break.” You run around the prison and the guards are there to direct you. Can’t wait!
September 13th, 2008
….after I fit into a size 4 at Gap. I have never been a size 4 — ever! I am actually beaming. I am going out with a friend tomorrow night and I am going to show off my new size 4 jeans. I can’t freaking believe it! This is such a huge milestone for me; I just had to share. I have to admit, I actually feel really good about myself when I look into a mirror these days. I mean, I used to love, but absolutely dread shopping. Now I just love to try on clothes to see how they look. Things I would never have attempted to put on years ago because my back is too wide or because the print makes me look bigger.
I don’t think I have ever been so confident. The other great thing is that I am not having headaches anymore, as of today.
September 10th, 2008
Woohoo! I was 144 on the scale today. When I think I about where I started, I can’t believe I’ve come this far. It is officially 40 pounds since April 7, 2008. I have to admit, I am getting heart palpitations just thinking of winter. Staying in + no softball + baking = gaining weight. I will just have to look into getting a gym pass for a few months.
My headache is starting to dull, but it is always a constant. I went for a run last night, about 3.5 miles, and after the first mile I was fine. I have three games tonight, and I plan on making it to all three. A little tricky when I am toting Baby Boy along.
September 9th, 2008
So I have this friend who wants to start WW, but can’t afford meetings either. I told her all I know this morning in a series of emails — I call them the “WW chronicles.” I hope it can make as big a difference with her as it has me. I am back down to 145 as of this morning and back on track.
September 9th, 2008
I wish we had some competition in this softball league. We slaughtered the other team today, 22-1, and they quit in the middle of the third inning. It would have been worse had we kept on. What a waste. Every game has been like that. It could be worse, and we could be on the receiving end of the ass kickings.
Well, I attempted to go running tonight after my game. When Baby’s Daddy came home after his flag football game, he drove to the track and put on the headlights so that I could see where I was running. I only ran 1.5 miles and walked another quarter mile. I ate way too close to running and was starting to get a headache. I didn’t want to push too hard after the way I have been feeling lately. After this weekend’s Art in the Park, I had put on a few pounds. Time to get back on the wagon.
September 8th, 2008
I had a really nice narcotics filled weekend. I am feeling better today and haven’t had to touch any pills. I am thinking this virus is making it’s way out. I did totally break my diet yesterday and had a corn dog and heavily breaded chicken strips. The strips made me sick. They were so disgusting; I can’t believe I used to eat like that all the time. I have a game tonight, which will be the true test of my health. I am also going to pick up running again and try for three miles tonight. At least I am not having to start all over. While I was sick, I picked up a book on running for a marathon or half-marathon. I am feeling inspired.
September 5th, 2008
This has been the worst week I think I have ever had besides when my father died. I can barely take care of myself, let alone Baby Boy. I have been a bad parent for this whole week, and there’s nothing I can do about it. This headache is the most debilitating thing that has physically ever happened to me. I have endured sprained wrists, ankles, fingers, bruised the palms of my hands many times, bruises the size of a basketball, C-section, angioplasty, busted open lip, burns — yet, this takes the cake. I totally hurled my breakfast because I was so nauseated — from a headache! I didn’t know headaches like this existed. I have never had a migraine, no history of headaches, and I can honestly say, I feel for people who have to go through this all the time.
I have a softball game that I absolutely have to go to tomorrow. Our sponsor took his own life last week, and our coach showed up to our last game crying. He said he really wanted to win the championship in memory of Don. Tomorrow we are playing the only other undefeated team besides ourselves. They are real jerks too. Every time I have played them in other leagues, they play real dirty. Bastards.
Weight-wise, I am down to 144. This was right after I traded my breakfast for some head relief. I am pretty sure I will gain once I am able to keep water down again. Is it normal to get a headache just thinking about getting a headache?