You Can Call Me Madcat!

I’m back I haven’t been posting but I have come back into the game. I re-started Weight Watchers on-line at the beginning of September at a weight of 190. This is the most that I have ever weighed and I hated it. Weirdly enough it seems as if something has clicked and doing this does seem to be working. I’m down 5 lbs so far. That’s the weight I was on last Wednesday weigh-in day.

Like an alcoholic in recovery I can’t say that this is going to be smooth sailing but it does seem to be working. I already feel better, not as draggy and huge as I did even 5 lbs ago.

Why now is it working? I dunno. I think that now that my sister is gone, there are fewer excuses. I did the Terry Fox walk at the beginning of September and it was hard. Ten K should not be hard. My sister used to run 13K for the fun of it every other day. Even after she was quite sick, she did the Terry Fox walk last year in 3 hours.

Maybe I’m starting to unthaw and that is the difference. I dunno. Maybe instead of having this thing that I can’t let go of, I can use it as motivation. Make her proud, or maybe even make myself proud.

I’m too young to be prematurely old.

I’m going to try to post every now and again.

We’re gone out for breakfast at Tim Hortons and done the grocery shopping. This is a little Sunday morning ritual where we sit and drink coffee and watch people go through the drivethrough while we figure out what goceries we need to buy. It’s very interesting at the Tims on a Sunday morning, since you see all sorts. For example, there was this lovely older man sitting on the bench outside with his ancient German Shepard. We watched as the man carried on a converstion with the dog and gently wiped crap out of the dog’s eyes. It was so sweet. You could tell that he just loved his doggie, and by that we could tell he was probably a very kind man. Old friends at the Tims on a Sunday morning.

We also saw a man go through the drivethrough driving a van who was so large that he had the seat almost reclined full so he could fit behind the steering wheel. He was also dangling a cigarette from his fingers out the window. Funny, but what I felt wasn’t revulsion but a massive surge of compassion for him. Who knows what path people take to that point in their lives and who are we to pass judgement?

Thank you very much to everyone who commented on my last entry. I feel as if I am more prepared for this week than I have been in a while. So I will be “wrapping” this week. I figure the best thing to do is just plan a single thing for lunch and try to manage that for 4 days this week. Once I have set the habit in stone I can try variety. I just don’t want to get overwhelmed. So lunch this week will be turkey, argula, peppers, tomato in a wrap jalpeno corn wrap, with 2 peices of fruit and some carrots and celery for a snack. I’ll cut and pack the veggies the night before and have everything ready to grab and go in the morning. IF I do not pack lunch I can also come home for lunch.

I’m back posting at WW too. I’ve already posted what I had for breakfast (it was the wrong choice but I’ll own up to it and adjust my intake for the day). We’re ordering in dinner so I’ve already calculated that. Lunch will have to be 5 points to keep within my limits, but I can do that. I’m thinking big salad and some protein.

It’s going to be a good day. I’ll even make it to the gym. A good day indeed.

It seems that my old blog was deleted from my own neglect, so I’m back with a new attempt. So far, it’s a pretty nice format of blog, but let’s see if I can stick with this one.

Some days my thughts just back up in my head and I can’t necessarily get them out in bytes. Or maybe I just don’t want to. What is it they say “Denial is more than just a river in Egypt”?

Like that.