I’m back I haven’t been posting but I have come back into the game. I re-started Weight Watchers on-line at the beginning of September at a weight of 190. This is the most that I have ever weighed and I hated it. Weirdly enough it seems as if something has clicked and doing this does seem to be working. I’m down 5 lbs so far. That’s the weight I was on last Wednesday weigh-in day.

Like an alcoholic in recovery I can’t say that this is going to be smooth sailing but it does seem to be working. I already feel better, not as draggy and huge as I did even 5 lbs ago.

Why now is it working? I dunno. I think that now that my sister is gone, there are fewer excuses. I did the Terry Fox walk at the beginning of September and it was hard. Ten K should not be hard. My sister used to run 13K for the fun of it every other day. Even after she was quite sick, she did the Terry Fox walk last year in 3 hours.

Maybe I’m starting to unthaw and that is the difference. I dunno. Maybe instead of having this thing that I can’t let go of, I can use it as motivation. Make her proud, or maybe even make myself proud.

I’m too young to be prematurely old.

I’m going to try to post every now and again.