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I did very well with my eating yesterday until 1 am and then I went to the kitchen and stuffed my face.  The only thing I can think of that made me do that was I have been stressed. When I am stressed I have tendency to late night eat. Its my way of comforting myself and helping me to have a good sleep with so many things going through my mind.

Yesterday I just cried and cried to my husband because I am so stressed.  Then I got a call from my nephew thanking me for the birthday card I sent him. He loved it and was so happy to be talking to me. I miss him and my niece alot. But it was good to hear there voices. I am thinking of going shopping and picking them something up to send to them for the heck of it. But we will have to see how much money we have left after bills and stuff are paid this month coming up.

Well yesterday was WI and measurements day. It was good ; I’m down one pound and inch off my waist. So I was deliriously happy yesterday but today I am having a down day. Not to worry though gertie!!! The prediction for the weather all this week is miserably scorching hot. So I will either look for my DVD which I keep saying I’m going to do but get quite sidetracked when spending time with the hubby.  Maybe when I get the money I will buy a new exercise DVD. But nonetheless I have to get this body moving if I plan to at least have total of 5 lbs lost this month.

I am really hoping to be at 100 lbs lost by Christmas. Its just that I feel so tired and so unmotivated. EXCUSES EXCUSES EXCUSES!!!!! I get tired of hearing them too but does anyone understand how I feel?

Well let’s start off with the good; I maintained my weight from last week through TOM!! My measurements are pretty good this week also. I am trying to document everything I eat on the prevention website.

The bad i snacked last night which went into a full blown binge. I am so disappointed in myself I feel like crying. I don’t know why I did it it just happened. Maybe I have some hidden stresses that I am not dealing with. I try to talk to my husband everday about whats wrong with me but maybe I am holding back something and not dealing with it is causing self-sabotage actions.

Oh well so I am starting a new week. Good Luck to me.

Well today is Friday and I have not weighed myself all week because I don’t want to be disappointed with the water weight gain.  TOM should stop tomorrow and I will be WI on Sunday. Keep fingers crossed for me.

Some of the babysitting days did not go as well as I thought they should. One day RJ just screamed and cried for over two hours. Lets just say I was ready to go home that day. Today he was really good. Fell asleep when I put him down, ate and drank water with me. He was very delightful today. But I don’t know how mothers do it when they kids are having an off day. They must need a break after awhile. I would go hide in the closet.

Well its the weekend and hoping that the weather will be good enough to get for a walk.

Well here its the July 4th and I feel like crap. Do you know how much i can’t stand TOM. I have a migraine and upset stomach; how in the world am I going to eat BBQ?  I will find a way gosh darnit. Anyway did i tell you I lost a pound even though it was PMS week. YAY ME!!!! I wonder what this Sunday will be like?

We have no fireworks in my city this year which totally sucks. I love the big booms and all the colorful lights in the sky. I also miss not being able to be with my family this holiday.

I just can’t seem to get up the gumption to exercise. I don’t know whats wrong with me because I should be totally pumped because I lost another pound this week.  My measurements are down also and I am noticing the difference in my inner thighs and waist. I don’t understand why I don’t have the excited feeling this week. Could be because TOM is on its way and I always get down in the dumps this time of month.

Having a hard time with portion sizes too because I am starting to eat more again and I notice it.  Thats probably why I didn’t have such a big Weight loss this week.

I walked yesterday through the stores and my ankles are paying for it today with all the humidity. We keep getting storms in the middle of night early morning hours and its just terrible because I can’t breathe.

I just don’t know what to do.

Well yesterday I had real long talk with my neighbor about babysitting for her and what I expect and what she expects.  I will get paid every two weeks 120 for babysitting just the one year old. I will work three days, four hours a day and be paid 60 for that week of babysitting no matter what. I was very clear and she was very clear. So I am giving it a try again.

My diabetes is under control with the medicne and diet.  I have switched from using sugar in my coffee, tea etc…. to using splenda. Its taking sometime to get use too. I had my first piece of chocolate since 3 months ago and let me say IT WAS DIVINE!!!!!!

Tonight for dinner I am making a grilled chicken and vegetable pasta salad. My husband is grilling the stuff up for me as we speak. Its smelling oh so good in this house.

Well as you all know that I had a babysitting job; it went to crap in a hand basket. I asked for 60 a week to watch one child who is 1 years old for a total of 16 hours a week. Let’s just say the contract was blown out of the water. I ended up watching two kids. The one year old and 11 year old. I dealt with that. Still 60 dollars a week. Well they decided to tag on hours as well. I got paid for one week 2 weeks ago and was informed today that I was only getting 84 dollars on wednesday for the two weeks I have babysat now. 60 dollars a week for two kids for four hours a day 16 hours a week thats a steal. Nobody in their right mind would only charge that. I was trying to be a friend and don’t feel as though that was to much to ask for. So it works out to be 120 every two weeks.
In the meantime that have not paid me the full price and I am looking around and they have new furniture, eating out once or twice a day, and now they have a tablet. I feel so upset because they can’t afford to give me 120 dollars every two weeks but they can afford all this new stuff.

My positive from this is I get to spend time with my dog and get back to exercising. But my question for all of you is; Am I wrong for quitting because they can’t afford me and can afford all this other stuff?

 I can’t wait to do more exercising and walking but this just makes me want to gorge in food up to hair roots. 

Well here I am after just making coffee wondering what they day has in store for me. I have to babysit and I am really hoping its a good day. I ate a cup of Lucky Charms this morning and it was so good but I do miss my special K fruit and yogurt. I have taken all my medicines and vitamins for the day and I feel very upbeat. I think knowing that I am really close to losing a whole 100 lbs is motivating me and has me happy.

Clothes are starting to fit looser, waist is getting smaller, and I am able to keep the bloating down to a minimal. This week is PMS week so I will be in the mood to do some nesting. The men in the house hate it because not only do I get mooody but they can’t stand when I want to clean everything. My husband isn’t a pig but my brother in law is and he hates it when I am in cleaning mode. OH WELL!!!!

This is picture of me at 60lbs loss today at the fishing pier!!!