“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
― Marilyn Monroe
I do believe from the bottom of my heart the above quote by Marilyn. I believe imperfection IS beauty, but in all my imperfections, it has been a long time since I have felt beautiful. I was born in 1983 in Seattle, WA. When I was 7 years old my parents got divorced… and I got fat. I got worse as I got older. In 3rd grade I was called a hippo. In 5th grade I became shunned by my schoolmates. In Middle School kids chanted at me “Miss Piggy! Miss Piggy!…”
What they didn’t know was that I was so afraid of eating in front of them that I would go the entire school day with out much more to eat than an apple and a diet Coke. By the time I would get home I was so hungry that I would eat anything that was fast – usually carbs – like bread or cereal.
I was the fat kid in a family full of athletes and I hated myself. I remember swimming and being called “beached whale”, “Free Willy”, “Shamu”, and other like comments. It hurt so much – every time – that when I’d hear it I would dive under the water, hold my breath and pray that I would never come back up.
Once high school came around I began to make more friends. I found places I felt comfortable. I got the nerve to sing in front of the people who made fun of me for years. Some of them even apologized. I became active in choir, then drama, and in my senior year I joined the dance team.
Since that time I have lost weight and gained it back… lost weight and gained it back… lost weight and gained it back. The most I have weighed was 298 lbs in 2006. Today, at 29 years old, I weigh 251 lbs and am 5’4″ tall. I have a BMI of 43 which puts me in the “Morbidly Obese” category.
My goal is to lose nearly 50% of my current body weight by my 30th birthday – May 31, 2013. That would put me at a BMI of 22, which is healthy. I have 46 weeks from today (7/13/2012) to achieve my goal.
To get to 130 lbs in 46 weeks I will have to lose roughly 3 lbs per week… The catch? I have a sprained ankle – possibly torn tendons – and may need surgery. This means my weight loss will have to come mostly from lowering calories and low impact activity.
Here’s to becoming beautiful! (on the outside)