Let Me Introduce Myself…

Posted by luvbird24 on July 13th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 2 Comments

“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
― Marilyn Monroe

I do believe from the bottom of my heart the above quote by Marilyn.  I believe imperfection IS beauty, but in all my imperfections, it has been a long time since I have felt beautiful.  I was born in 1983 in Seattle, WA.  When I was 7 years old my parents got divorced… and I got fat.  I got worse as I got older.  In 3rd grade I was called a hippo. In 5th grade I became shunned by my schoolmates.  In Middle School kids chanted at me “Miss Piggy! Miss Piggy!…”

What they didn’t know was that I was so afraid of eating in front of them that I would go the entire school day with out much more to eat than an apple and a diet Coke.  By the time I would get home I was so hungry that I would eat anything that was fast – usually carbs – like bread or cereal.

I was the fat kid in a family full of athletes and I hated myself.  I remember swimming and being called “beached whale”, “Free Willy”, “Shamu”, and other like comments.  It hurt so much – every time – that when I’d hear it I would dive under the water, hold my breath and pray that I would never come back up.

Once high school came around I began to make more friends.  I found places I felt comfortable.  I got the nerve to sing in front of the people who made fun of me for years.  Some of them even apologized.  I became active in choir, then drama, and in my senior year I joined the dance team.

Since that time I have lost weight and gained it back… lost weight and gained it back… lost weight and gained it back.  The most I have weighed was 298 lbs in 2006.  Today, at 29 years old, I weigh 251 lbs and am 5’4″ tall.  I have a BMI of 43 which puts me in the “Morbidly Obese” category.

My goal is to lose nearly 50% of my  current body weight by my 30th birthday – May 31, 2013.  That would put me at a BMI of 22, which is healthy. I have 46 weeks from today (7/13/2012) to achieve my goal.

To get to 130 lbs in 46 weeks I will have to lose roughly 3 lbs per week… The catch?  I have a sprained ankle – possibly torn tendons – and may need surgery.  This means my weight loss will have to come mostly from lowering calories and low impact activity.

Challenge accepted!

Here’s to becoming beautiful! (on the outside)

– Jamie